3 Apr 17 (whole week)

I think this is the worst week of 2017. The emotional rollercoaster ride was hell right suffocating.

First thing on Monday morning, RM 6+2 news. I mean its kind of expected (spot on!!) but still can’t help feeling sad because it’s never gonna be the same anymore. The moment KG left, it’s all not the same. What’s more there is additional female member. It just kind of feel weird. Lesser screen time for everyone, how the chemistry of the 6 going to match with the 2? I still think what the show really needs is a good change of game format. Adding new ppl isn't the long term solution.

A show that picks me up when i was really down, i really had wished for it to have a beautiful ending. It deserved that and everyone can keep beautiful memories of it. 

Then comes Wednesday afternoon. KG got married to a mysterious girl, who he claimed is non-celeb. I have no idea why he choose to announce at such timing. Not like he was photographed by dispatch or smth. He’s so active on SNS, he should know better how a huge group of ppl out there still believes in MC. If it was all for show, i think they should have done better control of it. The show created the LL, the LL thrives because of both of you and every single RM member had said smth to fueled the hype of MC. Leading on a huge group of supporters. only to crash them in this manner. If he had cared for his fans more, i think the news should be done at stages. Give his fans time to accept this. Don’t think it is too much to ask for, it the small price of being famous, you just have to think a little more for all these ppl whom you don’t know but they gave you the fame that you have wanted.

And I don’t understand if she is a non-celeb, you are putting her under this huge pressure? Irrational fans will blamed her for breaking their dreams, media are dying to know who she is, dig up every single info about her. You announce your marriage asking for blessing, make known to the whole world that she’s the person you want to spend your life with. But at this moment she can’t stand next to you or be seen with you in public? Are you going to keep her locked up at home or smth? Isn’t it unfair to her? She will have to hold on until this whole fanfare settles down. When her identity is knows, it will be another round of buzz again. In that case, why not just reveal now, endure the whole ordeal once and for all.

And what about SJH? she’s going to be bombard with all these questions on her next public event or whenever the media had chance to get to her. No matter what she said, i foresee ppl would put the blame on her as well, as long as she is active on the small screen. For 7 years, you called each other family but this is the way you treat your family? None of your friends knew about this, leading to speculation of Leessang breaking up as well. 

Saturday midnight, KG delete the marriage post and upload a new picture to thank everyone for their well wishes. Friday night JSK post on insta, but no mention of the news. Sat afternoon, HA post as well, no mention of the news. Plus the deletion, it’s just a very very weird atmosphere. All these, I’m not sure if there will be answers to it. Just like now, I'm not sure how to feel towards RM episodes, old and new ones.

26 Feb 17

Today was supposed to be the last episode of my favourite Running Man. At least that was what i have prepared myself for since the scandal broke out in Dec 16. But things really changes fast, somewhere in end Jan, SBS announced that it will continue Running Man. At first, i was more worried than happy. worried that they would be subject to further unfair treatment of the station and what if the production decides to add a new member. It's really mixed feelings but i know as long as they are still running, i will continue to support them. I hope they do come to SG for the fan meet. Although it won't be 7012, but it's still nice to be able to see them. 7012 will always be JSJ,YJS,KJK,KG,HA,SJH,LKS

14 Dec


It's barely 2months since Gary left and there is bad news for my favourite Running Man again. 14 Dec 16, right after I came back from holiday going to work, news splash everywhere. Jihyo and Jong Kook are leaving RM. Gary's departure cause a void in my heart, this news, a part of me inside died. It's already so hard to deal with just 1 person leaving and now 2 together. How to cope? I was about to give my blessing because i know they still have other dreams to pursue but things had an unexpected turn. They didn't want to go, they were booted out by the production team. I think its unfair to say production team because from the way i look, the new PDs, the writers, VJs and crews dosen't seem to be that heartless. I am angry that they only inform JK 2 days before the news came out and WORST, Jihyo only found out from the news. Where is the basic manners? Shouldn't these be discussed and informed way in advance.I can't bear to imagine what she felt that morning. She said before that she will accompany the show till the end, i don't doubt her on this. Her loyalty, her kindness, even when betrayed by the CP. She is still trying to defend them and not mentioned about the unfairness that was done to her. I didnt dare to imagine how the rest of them felt when they saw the news. Suk Jin & Jae Suk treats them like their dongsengs, they always dote on her and one morning, you see your family members' got kick out without informing. Who wont be afraid that they might be the next one. Apology came but what's the point, the damage has been done. After final discusion, it was decided that the show will end in Feb 2017, with the existing casts. This is definitely not how i envision Runny Man to end.

25 oct 16
My journey with Running Man.

It's isn't long, I didn't start out with them and joined only recently end 2015. It was the darkest time of my life. My job is causing me so much stress and unhappiness. I'm stuck in a situation and there's nothing much I can do, feeling so helpless. Then I chance upon a fan made video of Jihyo, her beautiful smile led me to watch Running man. My first episode was 147. I couldn't stop laughing midnight alone in my room. I got so addicted that I went to start from the beginning. And now regularly looking forward to Monday, to catch the latest episode. I know I started late so I was preparing myself for the longest time that I don't have much time to watch running man because the members are not young anymore. The show rating has not been performing, the limitations are all there. It's hard for the second break through. I even thought if I can decide, how would the last episode be like. I hope it's a guest-less one, just running man themselves. Or perhaps it's the announcement that the famous Monday couple is now Everyday couple. That would be nice to see. But I Guess there are always surprises in life. I'm shocked, like something heavy weighing down on my chest, a void of emptiness in my heart knowing that I wouldn't be able to see cheesy Monday Boyfriend, Mr random capable, peaceful Gary, sexy dance Gary, the innocent Gary who always get fooled, the Gary that keeps calling Mongji/ Jihyo-ah, the one who always protects and lookout for  his Monday Girlfriend, the one who chose her as his partner, the interactions of Monday couple that brings us the "aww" moments, cannot longer hear her calling "Kang Gary~" that sounds like sweetest thing on earth and many more other interactions with everyone. 31 oct 2010 is the start of Monday couple. 31 oct 2016 Gary is filming for his last time. I dunno how that episode will be like but I hope it will be one that creates the best of all memories for everyone. Thank you for bringing laughter to me when I was down, bringing me into Korean hip hop music. I wish you all the best in your music career, hope to see you in person 1 day. And hopefully to hear good news from you soon, Kagushipta Kang Gary.

My latest addiction: Korean reality variety - Running Man
It's funny how i lived in Singapore but the girl group i like is from Taiwan, actresses from Hong Kong and now variety show from Korea. Multi-national ttm! Anyway, back to Running Man.

I still remembered how much the people around me recommend Running Man when it was at its peak for years. And how much i refused it, for some reasons, i used to be quite anti-korean. But well, fate always works it way around. How long did it take for me to get addicted? Answer:  3:14min all it takes was a wrong click on weibo, Song Ji Hyo and BAM! addiction. And what was the video about? A compilation of Song Ji Hyo most beautiful moments in RM.

So my journey with Running Man started with Ji Hyo and through her, i get to know the 6 other members.

Yoo Jae Suk: BAH-TU-GHEE (Grasshopper) He is one living example of how successful one can get if you have your goal in mind and put in extra extra effort to achieve. No doubt to be the Nation's MC!

Ji Suk Jin: IMPALA~ He may be the "Race Starter" but i see him more as a caring brother to all especially Ji Hyo (more like caring father perhaps?)

Kim Jong Kook: Tiger~ SPARTAKOOKS! Kookie~ Commander! He's so strong, so fit and so cute! Because of his physique, he is always the target but that doesn't stop him from being cute.

Kang Gary: Mr Random Capable, peaceful Gary, Monday Boyfriend. He may have the most common look on screen but he is charming! Super love him on variety and when he raps! Random capable because his power at times shocks everyone, most often ignite by Ji Hyo, his Monday Girlfriend.

HAHA: Haroro, bad kid who loves to act. i like how in the initial stage he looks like Pororo. And he can always turn a boring scene funny and funny scene even funnier!

Song Ji Hyo: Ace, Monday Girlfriend, Mong Ji. She's blank (mong), she sleeps anywhere anytime any height, she doesn't wear makeup, she's not afraid to get down and get dirty for the game. Thumbs up!

Lee Kwang Soo: Girin~Betrayer,Framer Kwang Soo, Unlucky Kwang Soo. He is really made for variety. Earlier stages of framing was hilarious, then betraying members like nothing. His fighting back with Kookie was also funny. And all his unlucky moments sometimes can leave me feeling speechless.

Pi-Cok-Cross, Animal Kingdom(Impala,Girin,Tiger),Candy siblings, KJK and 2 kids,Spartace,Monday Couple,HaHyo,KwangMong,family(father-in-law & Monday couple) and of cos RM team, love all these combination. Hopefully they would still have RM fan meet and i'll go see them in person!

It's been months since i last update. Well, congrats myself on leaving and starting a new adventure at somewhere else. Things have been going quite okay for me, just that now it's bit hectic because of the stock take. Like Daniel asked, how many stock take have i gone through within 1 year. Countless times but at least this time round, it will be fruitful. 57% done, left with 1more week and 3 more stores. Mind over body, I can do it!

Perhaps there's a moment where we were so close but it was missed.

人生要你學會堅強時 總會放些不如意的人事讓你去經歷 

My November ended in a horrible way. Blew me off and totally crumbled my optimism. For 3 days, I lived in a red zone, irritable, angsty and snapping self. The efforts I've put in for the past year seems to be futile and I'm like a fool. The feeling of helplessness sucks to the max. I felt indignant to be take advantage just like that, I want to retailiate. I want to get out of this mess, I want to get what I deserve and I want to find myself back. 

I didn't told much ppl about what happened, but I'm really thankful to my parents for putting up with me for that 3 days. 感謝你帶我去兜風，雖然旅程不長不順但至少讓我透透氣。(and 第一次坐jaguar)

Had a horrible week at work. Being accused and not able to meet the NC gang makes it worst. 

「我是一個沒有安全感的人 」

某天突然這樣肯定的標籤自己真的感覺糟透了

假裝不在乎，假裝看透一切，與世無爭，其實只是害怕失去

不曾擁有就沒有所謂失去

那是多麼懦弱的

也只有夜深人靜時，這樣赤裸裸的面對自己然後代謝情緒

面對在一年內被'拋棄'兩次的打擊，說不茫然是騙人的

Been sometime since I last wrote, things changed a lot. Like how it does in musical chairs. The "wind of favour" blows around like some typhoon. Seems like he has lost his sense of directions or perhaps he is just out to confuse us. My not-so-new-but-probably-turning-ex job is still unconfirmed. Really wonder if I can last till the day I'm confirmed or leave before. 

很意外，不管是不是第一時間，還是很替你感到高興！面試成功

So much things happened. I met superior that really perform below my expectations. Things are always 2-way, i believed. You have expectations of your subordinates and likewise they would have expectations of you. if i'm not convinced by you, how do you expect me to work for you. Just like in all history, the general must be someone that can commands respect, then you would have soldiers that will brave all odds for you. but sadly, what i see now is not. To make matter worse, its your attitude and art of talking. Frankly speaking, you sucks. Don't worry, i won't play any games to get you out of the picture, because i'm just going to do nothing for you.

Amidst of my own happenings, the founding father of Singapore has left us on Monday 23 March 15. I have not met him personally and he doesn't know me either. But emotions were tugged deeply. I teared at every article i read about him. Things that i've learnt during the history lessons and the other side of him that was not widely known, his softer side. Yes, he may be a controversial person, he could have made less popular decisions but those are things that i felt could be left to debate at some other time. This is the time where we mourn for the loss of a great leader, one that braved all odds to lead Singapore to where we are now, to have a place we are proud to call home. His vision and capabilities are there to see, we don't have to deny him such credits. He devoted his whole life to make sure Singapore survived and prosper, with such dedication, he is a man worthy of our respect. Rest in peace, Mr Lee Kuan Yew.

5months, things can change so drastically at work. it really makes me thinks a lot now, what can of leader do i want to be and how do i portray myself to the team that i lead. i believe i will find the solution to my problem soon.

started 3rd month into the job, few weeks at site, used to not having fan or air con, sit anywhere, be dirty and sweaty. a lot of things i don't really know so i just offered whatever help that i can. on-the-job training, so trying to learn as much as i can. as usual, there are some higher management decisions that i can never understand but oh well, i just try to do whatever is possible to make it better.

1month plus into my new job. totally new environment, working with mostly guys and are much older than me. new challenge but i accept, 1st week at site, dust as companion, sitting anywhere, on pellets, plastic stacks even un wipe tables. clean spot?! not such word exist at site. but alas! tables in position, and 1st kitchen concept is up! yea! hopefully next 3 weeks things goes smoothly, then we are able to open on 15 Dec.

自认放假的这几个月 做了很做想做的 也看了想看的港剧 既然看了那么多就来试试写评语吧

On Call 36 小时 (Astro大马视帝视后／最佳荧幕情侣／最佳剧集）（TVB最佳电视男角色－张一件）
原本它播出的时候 我就很想追看 可是那时要读书做工没时间 所以ChU播出时 我就断断续续的追看。故事节奏刚好 message很清楚 最重要是男女主角选的好 马明杨怡荧幕上就有一种很特别的chemistry 让人看了很舒服 那种一个眼神一个动作都可以让人觉得很sweet 经历很多最后也在一起happy ending 唯一遗憾就是没有很多“鱼头”名正言顺拍拖的scenes

On Call 36 小时 2 （最佳荧幕情侣连庄）
因为看part1的时候 其实On Call 36 小时 2 已经播完了 所以马上追。当然我的selling point是“鱼头”咯 想看“鱼头”的甜蜜婚后生活 怎么知道。。。前3集screen time很少可是还是sweet的 然后就噩梦了 病情复发流产焦虑还专科吵架分居开解明了甜蜜复合 整个过程用了23集（4-26）当你以为可以这样幸福下去 最后2集还要“一件头”车祸“鱼仔”帮他做手术这么折磨 当然因为“鱼头”已成定局所以有新人加入可是。。。一个花了十多集找失踪男友 一个不知道自己喜欢晶晶还是车车 BEN雪还杀出一个EX Cases就全部围绕在医者不能自医 医生们的妈妈老婆老公姐姐弟弟朋友前女友女儿 一个个都有病 整出戏从头哭到尾 鱼仔流产哭 林爷弟弟病死哭 Yannis动手术哭 车车病死哭 一件头车祸哭 这么down 应该早一点让“鱼头”复合可以sweet一下嘛

回到三国
因为“鱼头”所以疯狂追看 马明杨怡的戏 整出戏就是一个comedy现代人回到古代 不自觉用一些时下流行的字眼闹出不少笑话 可是在comedy里 ending居然那么悲惨 云信会到现代 桑柔留在古代从此分开 真令人吐血

谈情说案
第一出不用怎么打就破案的警察戏 可惜Lo Sir和犀利妹没有感情线 可是上司下属的对手戏也蛮有chemistry的 最后happyending啦

法网阻击
算是很正常的剧 超喜欢律师的剧 喜欢杨怡这个造型很美 高潮迭起刚刚好 ending也交代的好

真相
众星拱月，大家都喜欢Mavis 与各个对手都有发生一些事 可是！最后居然是一个没有ending的ending。吐血x2

铁马寻桥
看这部戏纯粹是想看杨怡的民初装扮 因为个人觉得很美 虽然客串不过也意外发现 她和郑嘉颖蛮配的

溏心风暴
溏心风暴之家好月圆（最佳女配角）

溏心系列纯属重看 当年首播很HOT 已经看过了 不过这次就特别留意杨怡的角色 Jackie和阿月
Jackie从任性到成熟 和Bosco的对手戏也好看有sweet到 阿月这角色真的演的很棒 难怪那最佳女配角 哭戏的难度在于哭得有层次 哭到观众的心里 受委屈又要表现很坚强 真的有为角色心痛

点解ah sir是ah sir
第一次看杨怡演老师 让我想到瑞恩的［书包太重］会有穿berms的老师 好特别咯 我从没遇到过 ending算是有交代的

赌场风云
傻里傻气的 不是典型胸大无脑 珠美有用脑的 只是常想错导致一些笑话 不过ending算好的

名媛望族（最佳女主角）
看这部因为这是杨怡拿最佳女主角的戏 或许因为on call马明杨怡太深入民心 所以一直觉得子君要配大少 小时候大少救子君 子君当了塞凤凰 大少请她回去表演 被抓时保护她 结果子君爱上他老爸 囧 BUT如果让子君大少发展应该会乱到疯掉 所以只能说老少配还是很难看得惯吧

仁心解码2
黑暗的角色 看的时候完全没有想到她角色会有那么多变化 卧底舞女重案组警察executor杀手 一次次的大难不死唤起她封闭已久的记忆慢慢发现自己是杀人凶手的女儿接连的打击让她铺上杀手之路 最后悲剧收场

恋爱星球人
剧的题材蛮特别的 玩具设计师and星座 可是不喜欢马仔放弃的ending 明明他先看到的为什么要让 真是的！

守业者
针扎很久才看的剧 应为我先看到ending 寻获真凶的节奏和转折还不错 冰冰家杨很虐咯 成亲之日被抓 自由后又忙着报仇 报完了因为一个谎话分开 重逢遇到水灾 逃难时家杨还要被撞两次导致他们失散 冰冰独自抚养孩子再遇到家杨 他失忆要等到孩子唱歌他回头微笑似乎记起就end 编剧啊要不要那么吝啬给冰冰家杨长一点时间的happyending都不行吗？

再生缘
纯属配角 其实只是想看杨怡马明的初次对手剧 很嫩 青春啊～

23 birthday

Celine and Chervel gave me an advance celebration. It was a GNO day, had fun singing K and brought back a huge mango cake. We ate like a quarter only so the remaining were my lunch and dinner for the  next day.

Met up with YOLO for steamboat buffet after work. It poured heavily while I was on my way and I really wanted to just turn back and head home. But I know this meet up was to celebrate my birthday so I dragged myself there. Luckily, the rain stopped when I reach Bugis. Probably heard me, whoever is up there. So we had fun eating and stuffing ourselves cos it's been long since I saw aver and Ac and steamboat. After that, our plan was to go for the night fest at bras basah. So we walk to SMU for toilet first. That was just a cover in the end. Cos 环保小尖兵 were there ambushing me. It's probably again fated la, cos I was busy talking while crossing the road (错误示范). I thought it was coincident that I saw Stacy and Lee Lee. Then the rest suddenly pop out and sing birthday song on the streets but I was more concern about how they know I'm here. Haha! Needless to think, someone gave them info lurh. So that night I had 5 slices of Lady M cakes, 2 melted, 1 toppled and the remaining 2 staying strong. Special thanks to my most fire partner for coordinating the surprise. She probably went through many people before she find out about my schedule on 29Aug. 

其实我没那么好，脾气很坏，越亲密的人容忍线越低。因为我觉得你是亲密的，你应该懂我。个性很闷，有些东西就是不会说出口，一直考验别人，希望他们够细心能发现。有时候又倔强，明明知道自己跨出去一步，事情好办但就是死都不让，宁愿放着让它烂。有些事在怎么粉饰太平但还是会是心里的疙瘩。我真的不知道要怎么除掉。或者应该说我只渴望某些人的亲近和了解 某些人就是拥有那种特权

644 days | From spending my 21st birthday at the orientation in school till today, the results of my dissertation is released. 這條路很苦, 打全職工兼上夜校, 失眠熬通宵不吃晚餐是很平常的狀況. 很艱辛的時候就靠「花又開好了」的這句話 「如果你陪我走下去 那麼我沒藉口放棄」繼續撐. 想到Selina所經歷的種種，然後告訴自己她做得到，我也不能放棄。

挑夜燈趕報告時就聽 「死不睡覺」來催眠自己還不困，到漸漸有點喜歡半夜三更都不睡, 欣賞那種深夜的寧靜. 獨立寫畢業論文一直聽「我不願讓你一個人」一個人寫一個人獨立承受壓力真的很苦很想找人分擔傾訴但是最終還是只有自己, 所以只能用這首歌安慰自己. 一切終於在這裡劃下了不是很完美但問心無愧的句點. It's finally over. 

Down Under Tour

1 May 14 - 7 May 14

The Down under Aussie trip! first trip of 2014, to a brand new place with brand new companions! Okay, not really brand new because we did travel together before but that was in a VERY big group. It's also my self-proclaim graduation trip, finally done with the damn dissertation that has been weighing me down for months. Back to the trip, the highlight of the trip was actually the concerts lah. We figure out that it would be damn awesome to travel and able to attend Yoga & Hebe concert. Huge thanks to Sherry for being the main planner and researcher for the whole trip. So here comes the highlights of every single day:

30 Apr 14
I am still in SG for 22hours. Final half day at work before heading home to pack my luggage. Pop by to TBP for beauty care regime and lunch with Celine and Eve. By the time i finish packing, it's already 5pm, cab down to airport with Jolene cause i don want to lug my luggage to squeeze MRT. Taxi uncle very friendly, he asked me whether i have missed anything important before he drives off. BUT.... it was only when he reached Fort Rd, i remembered what i have missed, my dear elephants! Reach airport at about 6plus, meeting the rest of them at 7plus for McDonald's dinner! While waiting, another thing i missed has surfaced, Hebe's albums. -.-

1 May 14
In the wee hours, we are still on the plane BUT not asleep thanks to a toddler who keeps throwing tantrums. Sherry and I were doing our cards on the plane as well, how special is that? Mine was 80% done, except that i had not idea what i want to write to her. So i kept dwelling and dwelling and dwelling. Then i decided to draw the cover first and that's where disaster starts! The black marker i have decides to plop a blotch of ink for me and sent me into the critical mode where i had no choice but to draw a black heart to salvage (Who the hell gives a black heart?!?!?!) So the whole tempo of the 8hrs flight is nap, do card, eat, nap, do card... till we finally reach Melbourne

We step out of Melbourne airport in The Freshman T-shirt and jeans with temperature reading at 5degrees (Wholly shit! where's my jacket?!) trying to be cool and #yolo. Bus to city, walk to hotel, check in and BRUSH teeth! Walk around the hotel, grab some bite before we go Federation Square to head off to Phillip Island! Went to Phillip Island, enjoying 12degrees sea breeze in jeans (tattered kind), t-shirts and Adidas jacket. (OMG, someone needs to remind us "pls bring jackets") Sadly no pictures of penguins and Phillip Island because of the no photography rule, bought a magnet to remind myself that i actually visit that place before. Head back to the city and it's already 9plus. Grab Hungry Jack back to hotel as dinner. Before sleep, check FB and realised Selina is here in Melbourne with Hebe, who touch down after us and they took photos at Flinders Street Station (just opposite our hotel, how sad) Oh, and i woke up at 1am to meet Sok Huy to collect tickets. Super grateful to him and Sok Keang for helping us purchase the tickets and deliver.

2 May 14
Went to book Golden Mile tour then hitch on the free city tram to tour Melbourne city area. Alighted at Queen Victoria Market to shop and in hope of meeting Hebe over here (wishful thinking) It's really like spacious to shop there and there are really tons of things to see! Bought 2 elephants over there on impulse but it's okay, they are too cute to resist anyway. Then we went to DFS shopping near Melbourne Convention & Exhibition Centre. Bought a beanie that i like and we brisk walk back to hotel to change and brisk walk back to the concert venue. The only bad thing about the concert, no photography.

3 May 14
Went for our Golden Mile heritage tour, but before that, we took a picture at the Flinders Street Station. To stand on the place where she stood a few days back feels good. Indeed it's a heritage tour, learnt quite a lot from our guide. Ended the tour and we went to QVM again to collect some goods. Cab down to hotel to pack up and check out. Then we go visit Old Melbourne Gaol, first time i went into jail and able to walk out freely. Hahah! Great experience! went back to hotel afterwards to proceed to our #yolo highlight, overnight train ride starting from 7plus pm!

4 May 14
after 11 hours, we finally reach Sydney in the early morning. again, we were welcomed by cold morning breeze, enough to chill us awake. walk to pensione hotel, left our luggages there and out to grab breakfast. loiter around Paddy's market till lunch, step out to find that there's a freak accident at the dim sum restaurant that we initially wanted to eat. checked in, freshen up and head out to Manly Beach. Caught the view of Sydney Habour Bridge and Opera House in the day and night. came back and meet up with Diana for gelato at Darling Habour and after which the whole drama mama came alive and we had an unforgettable night. summary: while leaving the place, Sherry and I saw Bing Wang, we stunned and thought whether we should pass him the cards we made for Hebe. Decided to, drop our bags on some random chairs, take card and run. (my phone did a skydive and landed near his feet) Caught up with him, pass the card and happily walk back to the group. explain to Diana and HanYing who is he and blah blah.. we walk out to cross the traffic light. halfway through, i noticed a group of ppl walking towards us and OMG, i saw her assistant in the dark green jacket that i was telling Sherry at Circular Quay. eyes turned and i saw her, Hebe Tien! double OMG! in split seconds, i scanned her from head to toe, yea double check on the luminous pink shoes and turn to look at Sherry. From our expression, we knew that yea, we met HEBE! continue walking walking, path crossing, eyes met and Sherry shouted "田馥甄 我爱你！ "  hearing that, i quickly add on, "明天见！" (seem like that's the only thing i can say, for more info, referring to 25 Oct 13 Fairmont Hotel clip) Both of us happily wanted to proceed until Amanda said "the albums!" Stunned, stop, turn and run. i took Amanda's album and run towards them, fortunately they were waiting for the traffic light. so i went "erm...不好意思 可以签名吗？ " she said yes! so sign sign, chit chat and we left. yes, no photos cos the lighting damn bad, orange street light, how good can it be) but its enough for me! cos i realised i can converse with her after all. and i recommended her the gelato that we just had! (none of the albums signed are mine but i managed to talk to her. good enough although i really feel like crying, looking at the albums now) *this is also the best and worst day of the trip, shall not talk about the worst cos it doesn't worth the effort*

5 May 14
Went to westfield and up to Sydney Tower Eye. did the sky walk on glass flooring, nice. went back to eat gelato and then fish market for seafood. head back to hotel to rest and charge up before taking bus to concert venue, Horden Pavillion. Awesome thing about the concert, can take photographs and she mentioned us! Double happiness!

6 May 14
woke up early cause we are going up to Blue Mountains today. Bus ride to wildlife park, photo with Koala and feed kangaroos. saw the three sisters rock, took the steepest railway and a ferry from Olympic park to circular quay. wander to darling habour for pancakes and head back to hotel before going out to walk chinatown.

7 May 14
Met Diana for brunch and selfie session before flying back.

Breathing day

Finally, it all ended today. After skipping lunch for 2 days straight, chiong-ing nights, the thesis is done and submitted. It all comes with trials, walking in out sun to bind, DIY cover page, racing against time, fail to get taxi, stuck in jam and almost lost my mac. I can finally put everything down and relax. Not sure how it will turn out but I just hope to pass. The whole process is really too painful. I actually left a busy job for an even busier job. Like I do not have enough challenge yet. Filling my plate to the brim. No more looking at timetable, deadlines and feeling the stress. I never knew I could feel the weights of a timetable, but I did. 80g paper felt like 80tonnes. Those nights where I couldn't get to sleep or sleeping with a running mind. Your eyes are close but u know u are awake and aware of the surrounding. There are also times where I carry a whole lot of load in my heart, it weighs so much that I thought it would break. I try to be there for everyone but I forget about myself. Few occasions I really wanted to cry and release but I can't. Now I finally can. 一切结束了

counting down to the day I'm regaining my freedom, the days of exam-free stress, no more academic assignment deadlines to meet, hopefully lesser overnight chiong-ing and etc. it seems so near yet so far, now faced with the biggest hurdle, the DAMN dissertation. i must admit, I'm a person with no discipline, i like to do things based on feel. to make it worse, i still have to work. that just makes me have lesser time and i want to just spent it on things that makes me happy. 我很想大哭一场来发泄，可不可以？

Last day

Actually this was a decision that i would have execute close to 2 years back. If i didn't come back, the pain might not be so much for some. But i am still glad to have made the decision to come back, at least i get to create some wonderful memories with people close to my heart. They are not just colleagues anymore but friends who i can chill out with, talk to and give me advices. A lot of memories are flooding back, like how i cried when i got transferred out, the times when i was sitting next to Celine, chit chat and listen to SHE songs, after going to LC making friends with Jeanie and Mah Yi Ling who takes care of me like sisters, finding a salmon sashimi kaki - Lynn, Anthony Da Ge and Violet Jie whom i can go to. Ms Tan aka Diana who is ever 热情 & a good confidant, Eve who loves zebra and calls me her zebra, Wayne who likes to poke fun of me but sometimes we can poke fun of other with good rapport, Tan Chong Wee, the fellow meh meh who has a poker face but the things he say, aiseh~ 一针见血, Wei Loong who is so quiet when i left TBP and when i come back he is so chatty and crappy. These are my favourite people, life is so much fun with them around because they will lighten up your day.

I managed to contain my emotions till end of work and refused to read the card until i am home. Yea, cried like crap after reading card and Celine's little notes. I will keep them close to my heart and it's not forever goodbye because we would definitely meet up soon.

2 years 11months

14 Feb marks the 2 years and 11 months in my first company. Guess it's because it's my first official job, somehow I remembered the dates clearly. So after close to 3 years, being at 2 malls, I'm in the final week before I leave. Still deliberating if I should write a goodbye email or not. And how to ferry my stuffs back to home from office. I will definitely miss some of them but if we are meant to be friends, I believe nothing will stop us :)

终于做了这个决定 难免感伤。整个过程是有点“怨念”不过不至于后悔 因为我始终坚守原则 原则未必能带来财富但能给予我心灵层面的满足感 而且我很庆幸自己还是原来那个我 没有迷失自己

[2014.01.01] S.H.E台北跨年 乾杯+乾一杯+向往事乾杯 組曲

2013，

为我所付出过的
为我所收获到的
为我所努力过的
为我所放弃过的

干杯🍻

this is a year full of ups and downs. didn't expect myself to travel to taiwan with a group of new friends, bonded and become close like we have known one another for years. able to see S.H.E 2Gether 4Ever 3 times at both taiwan and singapore stop. travelling is definitely a highlight of my 2013, been to batam, kl, taiwan, thailand, macau & hong kong. getting my coveted GF2 camera and mba, attended concerts by Amei, Jay Chou. been to music showcase of The Freshman. Seen Rui En in person like 4,5 times, attended the private party of zzsf, star awards show 2 seeing her being crowned Best Actress for the 2nd time. towards the end of year, music cds that are of awesome quality(Insignificance and Friends). the downs are mostly stress related, like how i can't sleep for a period of time, stressing about assignments, juggling between studies and work. unsatisfied performance, bottled-up negative feelings that i can't seem to dispel.

Bottoms up to 2013, i shall start my 2014 with an empty cup!
人生就是要时刻记得归零 从新(心)出发

15 Nov 13

Finally done for the Christmas tree. Enough of reindeer and toilet cores, what a nightmare. Through this, I've seen some characters. The boh chup type, the talk only one, the brainy hands-on one, the non existent one. I seen my share and they see mine too, fair and square. Temper and skill.

Then a surprise movie date for Thor! First with dinner and dessert at Boon Lay Market.  ❤️

=全球首播= 田馥甄《渺小》HD MV [Official MV]

http://www.youtube.com/v/BClZoVLwZCE?autohide=1&version=3&attribution_tag=76e-fr4CUo-V3PBqNASbjg&showinfo=1&autoplay=1&autohide=1&feature=share


Her 3rd solo album, first single is out today at the press conference. it's seriously OMG, I'm swept off by this song. swept off by the mv, the lyrics, the tune, her vocal, the whole concept. traveling all the way to Iceland to film this mv, enduring the -3 degrees weather in a hole-ful attire and the Polish poem that she recite, there is just so much hard work behind this. and this is actually her concept, her idea, it just makes me feel closer to her.

Just like what the mv is trying to say, we are all so insignificant but never underestimate ourselves. we can still contribute even if we have limitations.

What goes up will comes down and what goes down will come up again. Just like 花开花谢. Now, my emotions are quite negative. It seems like I'm having difficulties to bring it up. And everything just got worse. Walk and queue until leg pain for USS Halloween. Wanted to cab home but the queue at RWS is horrible! Walk all the out to vivo despite the pain. Call cab, wait, cab no show, call another, finally came. On the cab, I heard a song 最近还好吗-SHE. 最近真的很不好，想哭却哭不出。脾气暴躁心烦意乱 或许你就是那解药

Matt Redman - The Heart of Worship

i am a curious person. i like to find out what other people are listening to, especially my idols. it's sort of a way to get to know them closer. Yesterday, Rui En shared a list of songs and a movie that she like. the movie that she recommend is Cold Eyes and its showing in the finals week with all the weird timeslots. so i have to watch it online, sorry en! not that i don want to support original but time doesnt allow. a list of songs also by her:

Young and Beautiful Lana Del Rey
           Satellite Call Sara Bareilles
           Unashamed Starfield
           The Heart of Worship Matt Redman
            100$bill Jay-Z

Lana Del Rey, i have got 1 of her album so im quite familiar with her. young and beautiful is actually a soundtrack from The Great Gatsby. so i presume that she actually watch that movie and like it(?) Lana gives me a very emo impression, i rmb listening to her album till im quie depress. goes to show how powerful her voice is. 

Sara Bareilles isnt someone im familiar with but her voice is quite soothing, can explore her songs further.

Starfield and Matt Redman is grace songs. havent heard unashamed before, but the lyrics is quite meaningful. When i saw the heart of worship, i thought its quite familiar. after hearing the first sentence, i know its something that i heard before and i quite missed it. we used to sang it every thurs in sec sch or during chapel session. it's the no. 1 hit song for us. 听到时，有一种感觉涌上心头。许多画面闪过脑海，那时的年少轻狂，无忧无虑的日子。那是一段回不去的岁月。

last is Jay-Z, dont really listen to his songs cos mostly is rap and with plenty of explicits. 

what a surprise! RuiMeo is on the cover of iweekly! okay, actually not that surprise cos they did went to Tasmania throughout the 11 days. but omg! the pictures are beautiful! and Rui en Romeo really have the husband-wife look. hahaha! they 2 of them together is hilarious! calling her minion and stuff and to think she actually 'suan' him back. Actually these few years Rui En did change, i think she has open up quite abit. not so clam up like before. glad that she finally have a break after 4 years of non-stop working. have a break and i look forward to see her on tv soon :) 

Thank you for the dinner date and the cute elephant. 

30 Aug 13

my 22nd birthday. took leave on that day, everyone in the world thought i went to somewhere to have fun. but the truth is, i went hunting for Clementi West post office pick up registered mail, get ready for class in the evening. its not the type of birthday celebration that one would expect but im quite happy having some me time.

31 Aug 13

i thought its a normal gathering but i was surprised! a group of ppl celebrated my birthday with such a cute cake! it was really a miracle to get to know them. i'm not the kind that would go meet FB friends, but i met them. i wasnt the kind that would go sing k with strangers but i did and i met them. We end up doing quite a lot of things together, going taiwan, going concerts, hanging around like friends. i think its fate that we met and become friends.

First time I'm able to watch the drama series before it air on TV. SUDDEN. This is the 3rd Rui En'show of 2013 I'm watching. Well, she has been working non stop for years to maintain like 3 shows per year. Thank god she's having a break now. Well back to this show. New pairing for RE. She has quite good on screen chemistry with a few male leads. Like Piere Png in A Tale of Two Cities and The In-laws, Elvin Ng in By Your Side and The Dream Catchers, Shaun Chen in The Dream Makers and Alien Huang for Joys of Life. These are the few that I quite like. When I first heard this show is with Romeo, I really cannot figure out how they would look like together. But when some of the BTS shots came out, surprisingly, they look good! I don really like guys who doesn't shave their moustache/goatee. The only one I really liking is Tay Ping Hui in Unriddle 1&2. But now. I thought Romeo looks great keep it! It gives him a more mature look. And I love RE in this short hair! This pairing most likely wont have a happily ever after ending, but I'm just stuck in their sweetness and cuteness with Flapper the dog! Omg, can foresee that I'll be brawling my eyes out down the weeks.

School starts tmr.. Pinning the timetable at my work desk is like carrying a heavy boulder on my shoulders. 有被压得喘不过气的感觉 I really can't imagine myself making through this.. Here comes the nightmare, I ask for the strength to keep me going till the end.

我不是真的那么坚强乐观 累的时候也想有人帮我充电 只不过那个人会是你吗?

I had ppl telling me straight in my face that my generation are a new breed of work force. We focus a lot on having work-life balance. I don't deny that fact because it has got to do with the environment we are brought up. Our era is a fast moving information period, technology evolved and brings about faster or more 'real time' information. And these things became accessible easily. With the invention of smartphones, the convenience levels brings up to a whole new stage. While it brings a whole lot of positives, the negatives do tag along. Whatsapp, email just make it even easier for bosses to assign you work even on a weekend. How great does that sounds? Some may argue that it is urgent, but think about it. If it was in the older days, nothing seem urgent. You can always do it on the coming Monday. So why is people getting more and more impatient and wants things to be done so quickly according to them? Does waiting that 2 days kills? I just feel being exploited because of these convenience. Work is never ending, if it does ends it means you are out of job dude. So why be so impatient and wanting people to complete work on weekends? Shouldn't it be use on more meaningful things like spending time with your loved ones or doing something that you like, non-work related, relax and enjoy. We are humans not robots. I'm here to work not selling my life to the job.

S.H.E 2GETHER 4EVER TAIWAN

Long overdue post on Taiwan trip. It's not the shortest but i must say it had been the craziest of all! 

Through a ring, an idol, a random KTV cum Christmas celebration, we met, we talk we became friends. It just click like a matching set of lock and key. If not for them, I wouldn't have imagine myself going all the way to Taiwan watching SHE concert. Don't get me wrong, it has always been my dream to catch their concert at Taiwan. But if there's no like-minded people, I doubt I would go alone. So thank you to them for helping me with this ;) I must say our first trip together is pretty good, lets do it again!

My fourth and fifth time seeing Rui En. Two times within a week! Okay, the first one at the party was the closest I ever get to her! I could have shake her hands or take a picture with her on stage but I just got blank the second I saw her. 

The next one was at L'oreal Paris roadshow. I totally have nothing to say about the atrium layout. Speechless cos being in the same industry, I couldn't fathom what exactly went through their mind. Were they afraid that Rui En couldn't have garner a strong crowd? Or perhaps it's just the Ka-Ching issues? 

She seems happier on Saturday! Laughing a lot which I like. Seriously, she looks prettier again! Omg, how can anyone get prettier and prettier? 

Well, I'm still out looking for my turn to take a picture with her! Hope all goes well for the filming in Tasmania next month!

This is like my third time seeing Rui En. By far, this is the closest I ever get to her. Partly because of the small area lah. It's kind of heart warming when I hear passerby stoppping because they want to see her. She's just super cute yesterday, laughing about ppl. Gonna see her again on 11 June and 15 June! Hopefully by then, I can have a picture with her :)

life is weird, i wonder what are ppl reactions when they experience smth that felt like a dream? would you prefer to continue in the dream, enjoy the moment or would you rather face up to it, it's either going to be dream-come-true or dream's over, wakey! i'm in the middle of one right now. it's really hard to explain and comprehend. the whole thing about this dream is you are clear of your own feelings but ain't a single clue about the other person. so you keep guessing, playing things down in your head to avoid getting hopes to high. and just when that happens, he says/do smth that raise your hopes again. so it fluctuates like a its on stock exchange.

我是对你有好感，那你呢？

omg..this sem of exams is really sucky. the pressure is damn high! i'm missing like half of the lectures and it doesn't help that lecturers dont give some hints. i mean they are not obliged to but hey, it doesnt kill right. dammit! i just want my freedom back~~!

 

        

Latest CD added into my collection. First, it caught my attention because Rui En wrote the lyrics for him! And it's 5 songs, I always like to read lyrics cos it shed some light to what the lyricist is thinking. Tried googling but 0 findings. Only manage to listen to the song on website and it just got stuck into my head. Yes, that song was written by Rui En <多一次機會> thinking of buying it on eBay, but again 0 results. Tried even qoo10.sg also 0 results. So I went to popular website and found it! Called the outlet at IMM and they manage have some stocks leftover! The person still double confirm with me cos this cd is 2-yr-old alrdy. Travel there in my killer heels, buy it, wanted to cab back but queue too long. Took bus, bus jam.. By the time I got home my toes are aching too. 

28 Apr 13

First time attending SA, first time being at 'live' scene screaming for Rui En, first time watching her claiming the BA award for Unriddle 2 at live, hearing her thank-you speech, witnessing her being crowned! yes, there's lots of first time over here, but such first time experience can be better if the venue is a better one, the height is frightful! the screens available could be more or bigger cos you have ppl seating at 3rd level! I felt handicapped being at 'live' cos I cant see their expression,worse than sitting in front of the tv at home. the height also max out my 18x zoom camera, not many clear shots cos of the sensitivity and hands raising, I had to shoot in between waves. but nonetheless, SA13 is a good year for Rui En.

-Best Actress (Unriddle 2 - Hu Xiao Man)
-Top 10 Female Artiste (Her 8th one)
-Most Favourite Female Character (Poetic Justice - Liu Yan Zhi)
-Most Favourite On-screen Couple (Unriddle 2 - Xie Lang Feng & Hu Xiao Man)
-Fun Poll- Best Fighting Scene (Unriddle 2 - Zhang Yu Ze & Hu Xiao Man)
-Fun Poll- Best Crying Scene (Unriddle 2 - Lin Zheng Yi aka Da Pau & Hu Xiao Man)
-I most stylish award - Rui En

Unriddle 2 - Best Director & Best Cameraman
Joys of Life - Best Costume & Image Design, Best Music & Sound Design, Best Theme Song

Rui En - Star Awards 2013 Favourite Female Character 最喜爱女角色 (瑞恩)

Grateful for whoever that thought of having CLP to present this award. Through this, many ppl, especially those who are not fans of Rui En, can see the other side of her. the smiley one, the playful one, the one that is not the usual ice-queen, black-faced, anti-social Rui En.

And I can remember how my heart raced at that few mins. Usually you can hear rbkd screaming but this video, if you realise at the end when the winner is about to be announce, you don't hear them. that's because, although we have given our best and all in voting but the competition is stiff and I only have 50% confidence. But well, they did it again! Rui En bagged her 3rd Favourite Female Character straight for 3 years! we have made another miracle!

13 Apr 13

its been  a long time since last visit to ECP. First time going there with colleagues, cycle from ECP to changi village hawker centre. it was tiring and hot! the bicycle wasn't that good to ride too. but we certainly had fun!

Came across this video again! actually when i first saw it,i couldnt recognise Xiao Gui and Rui En. i only saw Chew Chor Meng and truthfully, i dont like it. Cos i thought it was irritating, keep playing on tv. And i dont even know what show is this, when its airing and who acted in it. it was only aft i was hooked onto the show then in the final episode, i realise this! so share this here to keep the fond memories:)

人生因梦想而灿烂

My dream is to watch their Taiwan concert once. It sounds easy but it's not. Before 2010, i thought the only obstacle is me being too young to travel on my own, all i have to do is grow up safely, get a job, save up for the trip. That's it.

Going through 2010, it made me realise, there's more than that. Plenty of unforeseen circumstances that no one can control. What if they decides to get marry and thereafter disband, what if Selina didn't survive the freak accident, what if her recovery is not smooth, plenty of what ifs.. Her accident made me realise we got to cherish those things that we took for granted all these while. Like, every year they will release an album, or every now and then i get to see them on tv. Hence, this concert is really a gift from heaven. Thank goodness Selina is making smooth recovery, although it's a long process.

Okay, since now i have the money and the maturity to travel plus they are going to have a concert, it is still considered a dream because no one can guarantee you will be able to get a ticket to their concert! The network is congested for whole of 330 afternoon, none of us can make a successful transaction.

Well, now we still manage to go in the end, choosing the more expensive method. Come on! count down to June!

Well well, new slogan in town, "whatever"

Yea, it start aft a pre-appraisal meeting. Talk about grooming being part of KPI, choosing friends and beware of bad influences. Okay, my dad don't print money, my salary isn't that much, u think I can afford to buy many pretty dresses? And I don't like dresses in the first place, not exactly a fan of them. The last part is seriously ridiculous, do I look like a 3-year-old kid? And by the way, can u tell me who is the bad influence? And more ridiculous thing happens, to know that your superior bad mouth u in front of other colleague! Woah. What a nice example is that?
I didn't turn bad, I just learnt how to protect myself from BAD ppl.

I realise I'm a very detailed person.. As in spotting the tiniest details. While watching clif 2, I notice a lot of things, like they film scenes at Millennium Walk, Jcube, Mandarin Gallery, #zhijie's parents travel agency is actually using Dynasty travel @ opposite Clarke Quay central, last episode, Ruien wore another pair of shoes (shld be casual sneakers) to film the running part in hospital, #zhijie's house is probably in the east (either east coast or changi, cos only there the aeroplane sounds are super loud), somewhere in the last few episode, Ruien's hair suddenly dyed dark brown, or how her hair is straight at work and curled at home or off duty.

In tales of 2 cities, Ruien had a scene in Liang Court's toilet! Omg! I'm like a stalker sia... Haha! Well, that's how I watched show. First time is about the story, then a few more times, I'll end up picking up some funny details.

It's the same with SHE. like suddenly oh, they have their own engraved mic in diff color, or who suddenly have a ring, which finger, had the ring been wore before or new one. If only, my mind operates the same for study. I would have been a scholar...

There's always a time limit to things.. Just that time seem to pass faster for the good things

2 Mar 13, RWS by invite only.

Believe it or not, they are here! who? SHE of course!!! last week it was rumoured, yesterday it was confirmed and without hestitaion, i bought the ticket from a friend. i have to admit, cos of the lack of news, i bought the ticket to try my luck, yea, trying luck with $120 bucks is some big deal! so 6 of us, snap up the remaining tickets and pack ourselves to RWS! it was until we got in, saw the poster board then it dawned upon us that this whole thing is R.E.A.L it's like a dream came true. What i have been waiting for, the 3 of them performing, is actually going to happen. so SHE came, SHE sang and WE scream!

Okay.. I tried to refrain from reading the spoiler but well, couldn't hold it.. Guess it isn't any thing bad cos I would definitely watch it on TV anyway :) the spoiler is really brief and it doesn't satisfy me so I guess still have to hold onto Saturday for the preview ;) Huang Zhijie jiayou!!

是人心险恶还是我有被害妄想症？我很不屑费神去玩勾心斗角的把戏 你所看到的永远只是一部分的我 是我想让你看到的部分 当你让我分不清你是敌或友 我对你的信任会自动下降

今天 第一天少了5个月来的邻居 感觉很奇怪 好像少了个知己

读着过往的心情日记 想起了某个他 想起自己不想有遗憾决定勇敢的跟他要了电话号码 开始简讯 每一次都再找借口主动开话题 虽然没有明说＂我喜欢你＂ 但已经明示到周围的人都看得出 没有任何回应 我也只好放弃 没有结果难免失落 但我还是要祝你幸福

I have been asked, "have you plan for romance?" That was smth I got stumped on.. Oh, you mean this is smth that can be plan? Well, after hearing her out, it does make some sense. What planning means is to be prepared, be at your best all time then when Mr Right comes you are ready. Sounds like business acumen.. Anyway stepping into 21, this year Ang pow comes with certain terms and conditions I guess.

27 Jan 13

alot of first time today! first time in donkey years going to punggol, taking the LRT and attending an event featuring local artistes. yea, more precise abit, seeing Rui En for the FIRST TIME, in flesh! okay.. i know she is based in Singapore, livng in Clementi but that doesnt mean i get to see her often. She seldom go out other than for filming, even if she does, she drives (obviously a car with tinted screens), the percentage to say "OMG! i met Rui En in Orchard Road/Clementi today!!" is 0.000000000001 % (because i seldom step out of the house too, haizzz -.-)

So this is like a rare chance for me :) tried my luck on the lucky draw for photo pass and WON! then patiently waiting for her to arrrive.. make a new friend too! She came, she sat and she was swarmed! well, she's actually quite friendly to public and fans, autographing for some on the calendars (got quite overwhelmed in the end) and pausing longer cos she knows we are taking photos of her.

Well, only thing that got me quite puzzled is the photo shot. The most only 30 passes were given out, 1 pass entitles entry of 2 which means maximum is 60. 60 is only a small group and individual shots could have been done. But organisers compromise on this cos the media wants to take photo of the artistes, followed by the guest of honors, and some other impt ppl. The photo of the group shot is taken by 2 dslr, one was posted and frankly speaking, the quality of it is worse than my nikon S9100.

Minus that away, im happy cos i get to see Rui En although i didnt manage to wish her "Happy Birthday!" in advance.

27 Dec 12 -1 Jan 13

3rd visit to Taiwan within 2 years. this time its Kaohsiung & Taipei. First stop, Kaohsiung: From Taoyuan took HSR to Kaohsiung. 1hr plus journey, saw plantations and farms along the way. Cabbed to our hotel R8 Eco hotel. its located at the 12th storey of a building with rooms being named after the MRT stations of Kaohsiung. Some highlights of Kaohsiung, we went to cycle ard Love River, visited MayDay's concert behind the scene museum and plenty of shopping. Spend about 3 days in Kaohsiung before travelling up to Taipei. Just the night before we leave, saw the weather forecast that it would be 9deg in Taipei. GG-fied cos we didnt really bring coldwear..

By the time we reach Taipei, it was raining and there were strong wind blowing.. brr.. we had to buy gloves for our hands. Shop at ZhongXiao Dong Lu, looking for Kinaz, Top Girl, Stage Stayreal.. surprisingly, this time we found them easily.. Then proceed to Ximending and i bought a Kinaz bag again! OMG, its like every visit to Taiwan must buy a Kinaz bag..This time we also went Jiufen.. Lesson learnt: Jiufen & Shi Fen is DAMN far apart! hahaha, we thought its close so end up walking in the old street and up on the mountain there is actually strong free wifi! amazing! catch the countdown fireworks at Guo Fu Ji Nian Guan.. squeeze with the crowd to catch a portion of A Mei's performance, new countdown experience!

New Year, i hope to meet new things new ppl <3 p="p">

Finally exams are over!! really cant believe it, i actually took an exams only attending like half of what is being taught in lectures. i must be mad to get myself into such situation. anyway, air is fresher for me now. can finally breathe my S.H.E and Rui En :D

Happy kids! After waiting for 2years & 8mths, we finally got our hands on this long awaited CDs. During this period, i have bought alot more CDs, like Adele, Lana, Yoga, Rui En, of cause not forgetting their solo CDs/EPs. All these songs are great but somehow they just cant fill that void in my heart, cant satisfy my ears. its their harmonization, that is smth that i cant find it elsewhere.

Fate is really smth that i find amazing. a group of us just got together because of a ring, a 10th Anniversary S.H.E ring. i really cherish this

Appraisal is like a conclusion for the whole year. It's not about how well you feel that you have perform but how much your bosses see. To achieve the latter is rather tiring because you have to keep thinking of how to score brownie points. Well, not that i dunno all these but rather i don want to do this. Everyone has different values, they place focus on different things, it can be material or emotional. I hope to stay true to myself regardless of anything

如果你陪我走下去，我没有借口放弃

that's my motto for now! 决不放弃

S.H.E - 花又開好了 (官方短版MV)

终于思念的人相聚 Yes! We are Back! 回来了，终于有新歌了
没有SHE的2年8个月 只有田馥甄的陪伴 听歌的路因她而扩充 加上后来的宥嘉跟瑞恩
这一次，听sneak peek时，我真的以为是抒情歌 后来听完整版才知道后面是点音 有人觉得不好但我觉得这才象SHE。总是出其不意的个我们惊喜，旋律其实很强 歌词也很贴切 然后就一直烙印在脑海里 MV还有跳现代舞 曾经以为在也不会看到三人跳舞 每想到这一次就有[舞] 这[舞]是用2年8个月的艰辛换来的

Eversince , i have been 'poisoned' by Rui En.She is like a slow effect drug. I grew up watching Ch 8 dramas but with the introduction of INTERNET, i have been watching less and less of them. However, i realised i watch quite a number of the shows that she starred in. And now with the 'sudden' into-ness, i went to wiki all about her, dig out all the dramas to rewatch, read all the mag covers. It dawned me that the reports in the past is super biased against her, with everyone rating her down, labelling her but it just makes her success now EVEN sweeter. To me, i can see beneath the superficial her *not that i have psychic powers or what la* She's actually quite child-like, sweet & thoughtful. Must really thank the EP who approach her for Unriddle where she met Chen Li Ping, it brought out the funny side of her. Her laughter is getting to be more contagious like CLP. Those behind-the-scenes are really bonus to getting to see the other side of Rui En.

Just not my day today! Poor lil finger hurting like mad cos it got caught by the damn toilet door! Maybe it's karma for taking a free bus ride to sch. Had the first seminar aka tutorial where we suppose to prepares for the group work to be presented next week. Hell not, this is insane! A lit review to be submitted on 3 oct and I only know half of what was taught. I must be insane to enrol myself into this course!

Happy 21st to myself! This year specially held parties on 2 separate weekends. A big thank you to all my guests who takes time out to attend. It was memorable:) other than the private party, also a big thank you to my colleagues! Although it is a one-month affair but this month it's only me! This year, besides receiving gifts, I have decided to embark on a meaningful journey, to sponsor a child. This is not a one time action and my contribution is towards the well being of the whole sponsored community. I hope more people will join me on the journey, let's spread the love around!

Joys of Life 花样人间 插曲 《牵挂》MV 瑞恩 小鬼 原唱 Duet by Rui En & Xiao Gui

最近很迷的一部戏，花样人间! 这就是所谓天时地利人和吧，整个剧的搭配真是赞!而也让人看到不一样的瑞恩 越来越喜欢她了!

6月23日 金曲奖

馥甄风光入围7项然后扛龟 当下很闷觉得评审耳朵是不是坏掉了?!眼睛瞎掉 整个人生逊掉！搞什么嘛 让她坐在那里一整晚 当陪跑啊 整场金曲奖下来也就属SHE最精彩

对，当晚好像的确抱着只要SHE演出成功得奖之事没那么重要了 歌迷几近疯狂的尖叫 H几乎是清唱的LOVE E动感十足的坏女孩 S温暖人心的感谢爱我的每个人 然后合体霸气的SHERO和久违摇滚SUPERSTAR 在加上落幕的"WE ARE BACK" 9:11的表演好像是天意宣告女王的回归 落幕后的拥抱 赚了多少人的热泪 555天的心酸冷暖只有她们知道 这一路多么艰难

那晚我没哭 很难相信吧 但是真的 那晚馥甄的LOVE应该足以消除评审对她的刻板印象 她来自偶像团体但这团体是有实力的 那天所有的造型都很美难的啊 虽然没能上台但摄影师很爱take她 所以感觉没差

其实金曲奖对我来说没什么 只是有了她们才特别 得不得都不重要 应为她们人气买气都兼聚

09.06.12

美好的一天从08.06.12开始，第一次去接机。看到馥甄时 真的呆掉了。拍了5张她只在角落，哦my天！ 不过09.06我们算啦风！红配绿 狗臭屁嘛！超强眼的，大家都在看我们。那晚，很棒，现场功力就是歌姬程度。观众也很热情幽默调皮，馥甄每个talking都会笑。馥甄啊，你的真是我的最爱。10.06,又是第一次，第一次送机。等待总是漫长不过还是等到了。这样？新加坡很热情吧？ 追到二楼去了，吓一跳了吼？

我会期待6月23日，S.H.E强势回归！

2 June: finally gotten my driving licence! woohoo~~~!! thank you Mr Yeo!! now im waiting for the scholaship notice, interview this week? hope i can know asap to arrange and prepare myself. tmr must go make payment loh...

It's been long yea... yesterday had a good news? i was offerred a place in SIM. well, that should be good news cos i only apply for that 1 course and i go it. it could be a better news if they could let me know my scholarship result. that's the frustration for me now.

work is hectic, we are not on the same boat, its same rocket, okay! things here moves faster like dunno by how many times. i dunno if its the right choice to take part time now.

[JP] 2012.05.02 2012年 S.H.E 的 HEBE 代言台灣精品與您相約百腦匯

真的很喜欢馥甄的声音能安抚我的心

S.H.E母親節合體再出發

等了快2年 终于合体了 真的很感动也很开心

那一年，妳們剛剛認識。那一年，妳們成為朋友。那一年，妳們變成姐妹。那一年，妳們互許老婆。那一年，她嫁作人婦。那一年，她成為人妻。那一年，她陪伴她們左右。那一年，我相信她同樣能夠收穫幸福。那一年，我們一起追的女孩。那些年，謝謝妳們教會了我。有一種友誼叫S.H.E！！

2011, 2012, someday....

我希望她们幸福 而她们也陆续找到了幸福，在那分别的特别日子里
我不知道someday要等多久

郁可唯《好朋友只是朋友》

guess everyone will have at least 1 such "good friend"

Everyone is telling that i look happier back then. this makes me very puzzled, am i turning numb till i cant feel for myself? what makes them think that what they feel is what i actually feel.
They said i was very close to the a&p team there, truth is i am also close to the a&p team here. 9 mths over there, the bond has been built. For my own team, yes, i am close to them back there in TBP. I am also close to SS & LF when in LC. Now it's a new team, i tried to integrate but it wasnt accept by the other party. There were miscomm, friction but alot of relationship start out like this too. transfering me back, you said i would be happier, 3/5 of the team has changed, it's not the same anymore.

3D2N Taiwan

yes, it's extremely short i know... but that's all the time we have.. it feels great to be back in Taiwan. Simply love it...although the streets names are quite alien to me & the conversation is all in chinese. Not implying that my chinese sucks but hey, there is also Singapore version and Taiwanese version so bound to have differences.

Yang Ming Shan
Bo Pi Liao Lao Jie
Cheng Pin
Wu Fen Pu
Hu Xu Zhang Lu Rou Fan
Xi Men DIng
Taipei 101
Taipei Main Station Underground Mall

兜兜转转我还是回到了原点 我承认在那是有些不愉快不过我没有主动提出调职。对于流言我也确实有些动怒。

it's been long since i blog..oh well, nothing has changed much...or maybe there is..
she is still 2-faced, the other one is deep, he should be clueless, i tried to distance, smiles are gone, some can see, laughter is past, icy cold spreads, she is hinting, words spread, everyone's talking, no one to listen..

yea, no one to listen... sometimes it's not about advices. it might be nitty gritty stuffs but once it's been snowballed, it's gets bigger. i think i need a getaway

hmmm... finally finish attending two 21st party for 2 months straight. yea! time for rest... currently looking at uni courses, back to school time! omg! i still don know what to choose. plus i want to go overseas, taiwan! i want to go back there...

i am neither here nor there. i cant find my existence in the team. so much for dynamics and communications.

大年初四 就一个红色炸弹从天而降
嘉桦要结婚了！真替她开心！你一定要幸福哦！因为你值得拥有 （有广告嫌疑）

真的很讨厌那些说爱她 但在她宣布喜讯时不但不给予祝福 还有不看好的态度
爱她不是要真心希望她好吗？ 简直是伪粉！

随着嘉桦结婚 距离我要崩溃的消息就更进一步了
我的田馥甄 等你宣布的那天我会晕厥大哭

总结我的2011：

1月：看了2场LOVE!To Hebe 音乐会 + 签唱会
3月：考完试就飞到KL去看周杰伦的演唱会，回来一周后正式上班
5月：毕业典礼！
7月：刚过试用期就被调去LC
8月：飞到台湾过生日然后在田馥甄的二专发片日抵达新加坡（欲哭无泪。。我的台版专辑没了）
10月：看到我的偶像结婚，依然美若天仙，伴娘也是！
11月：田馥甄weekend，Sundown Fest(日晒雨淋) + 签唱会(为了排很前面牺牲了睡眠) 这次排队的总数名列前茅
12月：全家一起出国虽然只是2天1夜，My Love庆功演唱会台北场连办2天 然我期待新加坡场的 + 任家萱二度摆酒 (又有美美的新娘和伴娘) & EP

带着感恩的心欢送2011，2012会是更好的一年

year end is approaching... it's been an eventful 2011. graduated, found a job, moving house. damn, so many things. now busy packing stuff into boxes in preparation for the move.

17 Dec, i'm feeling rich~~! cos it's my first AWS. Wahhh~~ but after that back to square one -.- bought a bose earpiece for myself as present!

2 Dec

its family trip~! 2D1N batam tour. summarise the whole trip, super cold bus that broke down halfway, tour guide that keep mis-pronoucing our surname, keep having to get up & down the bus, seafood lunch that ran out of coconut & prawns are super small that i thought its shrimp, massage was the best! hotel not bad but i wont go back again cos breakfast buffet is cluttered with some company workers. also dunno where they come from, don look like hotel guests. basically Batam is a nice place but not suitable for me, cos their pace is too slow~ 差点气死我

27Nov

the night before reach sh gugu house about 12 plus, settle down and everything i sleep at about 2am. [many thanks to sh & gugu!!!] morning woke up at 5 plus to catch the first train. [thanks sh again for the pokey! its my only food source for the whole event] reach ps at 645am! when i was there, not many ppl were q-ing. i was quite in front sitting in a 'cage' and make new friends. thanks to the new friends, i had somebody to talk to, if not i really gonna play poker with myself liao. all the hardship is made worth it for her! even though i couldnt found my tongue to say smth other than 'xie xie' and look like a total idiot looking at her in daze and smiling to myself.

Q-ing time clock:13 hours(including waiting for her to sign finish all and leave) [personal 'best' timing]

it a crazy, physically-taxing , sleep depriving, endurance training & fasting weekend. the no of hours of sleep i get is as little as the time i see her. but the total no. of hours spent on waiting, q-ing is hitting almost 29 hours for 3 days.

25Nov

one day before alrdy start q-ing. haha, like clocking timing just to be the first few that enters to chop good view. it's tough like going for war as predicted. reach venue at about 4plus, abit sad cos i know Hebe's arriving at about 7 but i cant go to the airport because i need to clock timing. so sat there chit chat with joyce, waiting for mj to buy food over, blah blah blah... UNTIL 8 plus! one of the event person came over to pre empt us that artistes will be rehearsing later but we are not allow to run to the stage to see! *tink tink* that's when my camera comes in, before leaving the house i was thinking whether to bring anot. brought in the end cos i guess she will have to rehearse but didnt know when.

so Hebe is the first to rehearse, i sat at a corner looking at the stage, finding her in the dark. it's quite enjoying to sit in the dark, feeling the wind and hear her sing!

Q-ing time clock: 6hrs

26Nov

reach there at 12plus to continue q-ing. alrdy got long q and the sun is hot follow by heavy downpour and it carries on till 530 where we are able to get in. chop front row, waited for another 2 & half hours in the rain before the first group perform. patiently waiting for my 田馥甄! when she is finally going to perform, i could feel my heart thumping, hands and feet trembling with excitment! she is just so cute! although she doesnt says much i could just watch her for the longest time. it ended quite fast and i went to sh gugu house to camp for tml.

Q-ing time+performance: 10 hours

20.11.2011 Eve's big day! :D

woke up @ 5.30 to prepare. 6.30 reach eve's house and it's time to 开工!
7.30 arrival of groom, "yummy" food are waiting for them!
Bitter: small bittergourd (raw) mix with kopi-o powder and cinnanmon powder, cocoa powder as topping
Sour: chew 1 slice of lemon & lime and do a yoga pose for 30sec (half squat)
Spicy: heart shaped sandwich soak in chilli oil (overnight), fillings includes wasabi, black pepper and chilli powder as seasoning
Sweet: Orea biscuit with extra condense milk,sugar and more condense milk plus strawberry jam

everything went smoothly and once again, congrats to the couple!

1st wedding, 11.11.11 the whole hotel is full as every ballroom is book and have wedding. drink 2 glass of white wine, turned into a tomato then join colleagues for Zouk. had a super *yuck* long island tea, party till 2am. cab home with only $14 in wallet, fare total to $13.20 so ended up home with only 80cents. wore eye mask slept till 12pm.

then its part 2, left home around 7pm to attend my Chor Chor 21st birthday! eat watch talk cam whore then go NEX for movie.The Rum Diary, it's a true story of a journalist but it was boring to me. throughout i keep wondering if the male lead is Johnny Depp and every single character is F***-ing non stop till i get a serious headache then suddenly comes the ending

刻意疏远只是不想心痛太多次

eventful Nov is here! 2 weddings to attend and birthday party, gathering, sundown~!! Hebe Hebe Hebe~~~!!!!

那一天 老天爷决定夺走她身上54%的皮肤
那一天 老天爷决定让她承受28年来前所未有的痛
那一天 老天爷决定让她和爱她的整组人经历漫长的考验
那一天 老天爷决定用另一重方式让她暂别光鲜亮丽的舞台
那一天 老天爷决定用她来展示人的慈悲心也能非常大度
那一天 老天爷决定通过她教人们认错是需要勇气不是每个人都能做到
那一天 所有噩梦开始的那一天 我感谢老天爷没有拿走她的生命

也就是因为有那一天 我们才知道 爱是什么 爱是如此大的能量
成就了1031 这幸福的一天
这一天 努力复建的她 一步一步地走到幸福门前

appraisal done, tea-chat session with GM done, comments on appraisal not done :x
today, overslept on bus again. thanks to night cycling! hah, i must say we're quite brave to go night cycling, all girls from ECP to Bedok. okay, we almost ended up at Bedok reservoir, lucky divert to 85 market. took the park connector from ECP to bedok, 2 hrs plus non stop cycling. but from bedok back only 1 hour plus cos we decided to google for shorter route back. cannot tahan the 2 hours again. butt abrasion and jelly legs plus sleepy eyes. man~~ getting old alrdy

i dreamt of you last night, it's too good to be true.

year end is coming, appraisal is due :/



沉重的压力烦恼压得我几乎喘不过气 不想知道的事也这么毫无预警的知道

this week has a mixture of good & bad news. bad news is losing a leader in the team, i tried very hard to hold back in the meeting room and lasted till my desk. it's a shocking news but i sincerely wish all the best for her! good news is we received compliment from CEO! and we are hitting 100% occupancy. wooo~~~hoooo~~~~ last is my catchment study also receive compliment which came as a surprise cos i thought there is still improvement to do. :/

everyone has a certain degree of knowing themselves. i wont say i understand myself 100% but i know im a perfectionist at certain things. i know how much it means to me so i will do whatever it takes to make sure it's gonna be perfect. Another thing is i dont like to trouble others, but now i'm like bringing in all the trouble and it sucks! BUT i'm not going to crumple like this, i will be stronger! Fight back!

it's a hectic week. everyday got appointment to meet prospects, fall sick but cannot take leave. still got arrows flying ard. suddenly just feel tired, physically & mentally. maybe its due to the medicine

思念太猖狂 一个冷不防 一想起你 忙碌的生活变得空荡荡

it's been 6months into work. stress level is up, doing my first AMM presentation this coming tue. had research to do, special kit to do and so many things~! life is occupied by work

也许你只是生命中的过客 也许是我不够勇敢

人生若能像有个遥控器能随意调快慢那该有多好
但这样好像就不是人生了 人生之所以精彩也许就是因为它无法从来 有些东西一旦错过就没有了 所以常听到要活在当下珍惜每一刻
有些话不说以后可能没机会或没必要说了 但如果说了却得不到你想要的结局 让原本的变质甚至失去 你还会说吗？

人在每隔一段期间应该做一个总结把自己归零 然后再从新出发