Wednesday, December 02, 2015

人生要你學會堅強時 總會放些不如意的人事讓你去經歷 
My November ended in a horrible way. Blew me off and totally crumbled my optimism. For 3 days, I lived in a red zone, irritable, angsty and snapping self. The efforts I've put in for the past year seems to be futile and I'm like a fool. The feeling of helplessness sucks to the max. I felt indignant to be take advantage just like that, I want to retailiate. I want to get out of this mess, I want to get what I deserve and I want to find myself back. 

I didn't told much ppl about what happened, but I'm really thankful to my parents for putting up with me for that 3 days. 感謝你帶我去兜風,雖然旅程不長不順但至少讓我透透氣。(and 第一次坐jaguar)

Sunday, November 22, 2015

Had a horrible week at work. Being accused and not able to meet the NC gang makes it worst. 

Monday, August 17, 2015

「我是一個沒有安全感的人 」
某天突然這樣肯定的標籤自己真的感覺糟透了
假裝不在乎,假裝看透一切,與世無爭,其實只是害怕失去
不曾擁有就沒有所謂失去
那是多麼懦弱的

也只有夜深人靜時,這樣赤裸裸的面對自己然後代謝情緒
面對在一年內被'拋棄'兩次的打擊,說不茫然是騙人的

Monday, July 20, 2015

Been sometime since I last wrote, things changed a lot. Like how it does in musical chairs. The "wind of favour" blows around like some typhoon. Seems like he has lost his sense of directions or perhaps he is just out to confuse us. My not-so-new-but-probably-turning-ex job is still unconfirmed. Really wonder if I can last till the day I'm confirmed or leave before. 

很意外,不管是不是第一時間,還是很替你感到高興!面試成功

Sunday, March 29, 2015

So much things happened. I met superior that really perform below my expectations. Things are always 2-way, i believed. You have expectations of your subordinates and likewise they would have expectations of you. if i'm not convinced by you, how do you expect me to work for you. Just like in all history, the general must be someone that can commands respect, then you would have soldiers that will brave all odds for you. but sadly, what i see now is not. To make matter worse, its your attitude and art of talking. Frankly speaking, you sucks. Don't worry, i won't play any games to get you out of the picture, because i'm just going to do nothing for you.

Amidst of my own happenings, the founding father of Singapore has left us on Monday 23 March 15. I have not met him personally and he doesn't know me either. But emotions were tugged deeply. I teared at every article i read about him. Things that i've learnt during the history lessons and the other side of him that was not widely known, his softer side. Yes, he may be a controversial person, he could have made less popular decisions but those are things that i felt could be left to debate at some other time. This is the time where we mourn for the loss of a great leader, one that braved all odds to lead Singapore to where we are now, to have a place we are proud to call home. His vision and capabilities are there to see, we don't have to deny him such credits. He devoted his whole life to make sure Singapore survived and prosper, with such dedication, he is a man worthy of our respect. Rest in peace, Mr Lee Kuan Yew.

Thursday, February 12, 2015

5months, things can change so drastically at work. it really makes me thinks a lot now, what can of leader do i want to be and how do i portray myself to the team that i lead. i believe i will find the solution to my problem soon.