3 Apr 17 (whole week)

I think this is the worst week of 2017. The emotional rollercoaster ride was hell right suffocating.

First thing on Monday morning, RM 6+2 news. I mean its kind of expected (spot on!!) but still can’t help feeling sad because it’s never gonna be the same anymore. The moment KG left, it’s all not the same. What’s more there is additional female member. It just kind of feel weird. Lesser screen time for everyone, how the chemistry of the 6 going to match with the 2? I still think what the show really needs is a good change of game format. Adding new ppl isn't the long term solution.

A show that picks me up when i was really down, i really had wished for it to have a beautiful ending. It deserved that and everyone can keep beautiful memories of it. 

Then comes Wednesday afternoon. KG got married to a mysterious girl, who he claimed is non-celeb. I have no idea why he choose to announce at such timing. Not like he was photographed by dispatch or smth. He’s so active on SNS, he should know better how a huge group of ppl out there still believes in MC. If it was all for show, i think they should have done better control of it. The show created the LL, the LL thrives because of both of you and every single RM member had said smth to fueled the hype of MC. Leading on a huge group of supporters. only to crash them in this manner. If he had cared for his fans more, i think the news should be done at stages. Give his fans time to accept this. Don’t think it is too much to ask for, it the small price of being famous, you just have to think a little more for all these ppl whom you don’t know but they gave you the fame that you have wanted.

And I don’t understand if she is a non-celeb, you are putting her under this huge pressure? Irrational fans will blamed her for breaking their dreams, media are dying to know who she is, dig up every single info about her. You announce your marriage asking for blessing, make known to the whole world that she’s the person you want to spend your life with. But at this moment she can’t stand next to you or be seen with you in public? Are you going to keep her locked up at home or smth? Isn’t it unfair to her? She will have to hold on until this whole fanfare settles down. When her identity is knows, it will be another round of buzz again. In that case, why not just reveal now, endure the whole ordeal once and for all.

And what about SJH? she’s going to be bombard with all these questions on her next public event or whenever the media had chance to get to her. No matter what she said, i foresee ppl would put the blame on her as well, as long as she is active on the small screen. For 7 years, you called each other family but this is the way you treat your family? None of your friends knew about this, leading to speculation of Leessang breaking up as well. 

Saturday midnight, KG delete the marriage post and upload a new picture to thank everyone for their well wishes. Friday night JSK post on insta, but no mention of the news. Sat afternoon, HA post as well, no mention of the news. Plus the deletion, it’s just a very very weird atmosphere. All these, I’m not sure if there will be answers to it. Just like now, I'm not sure how to feel towards RM episodes, old and new ones.

26 Feb 17

Today was supposed to be the last episode of my favourite Running Man. At least that was what i have prepared myself for since the scandal broke out in Dec 16. But things really changes fast, somewhere in end Jan, SBS announced that it will continue Running Man. At first, i was more worried than happy. worried that they would be subject to further unfair treatment of the station and what if the production decides to add a new member. It's really mixed feelings but i know as long as they are still running, i will continue to support them. I hope they do come to SG for the fan meet. Although it won't be 7012, but it's still nice to be able to see them. 7012 will always be JSJ,YJS,KJK,KG,HA,SJH,LKS

14 Dec


It's barely 2months since Gary left and there is bad news for my favourite Running Man again. 14 Dec 16, right after I came back from holiday going to work, news splash everywhere. Jihyo and Jong Kook are leaving RM. Gary's departure cause a void in my heart, this news, a part of me inside died. It's already so hard to deal with just 1 person leaving and now 2 together. How to cope? I was about to give my blessing because i know they still have other dreams to pursue but things had an unexpected turn. They didn't want to go, they were booted out by the production team. I think its unfair to say production team because from the way i look, the new PDs, the writers, VJs and crews dosen't seem to be that heartless. I am angry that they only inform JK 2 days before the news came out and WORST, Jihyo only found out from the news. Where is the basic manners? Shouldn't these be discussed and informed way in advance.I can't bear to imagine what she felt that morning. She said before that she will accompany the show till the end, i don't doubt her on this. Her loyalty, her kindness, even when betrayed by the CP. She is still trying to defend them and not mentioned about the unfairness that was done to her. I didnt dare to imagine how the rest of them felt when they saw the news. Suk Jin & Jae Suk treats them like their dongsengs, they always dote on her and one morning, you see your family members' got kick out without informing. Who wont be afraid that they might be the next one. Apology came but what's the point, the damage has been done. After final discusion, it was decided that the show will end in Feb 2017, with the existing casts. This is definitely not how i envision Runny Man to end.

25 oct 16
My journey with Running Man.

It's isn't long, I didn't start out with them and joined only recently end 2015. It was the darkest time of my life. My job is causing me so much stress and unhappiness. I'm stuck in a situation and there's nothing much I can do, feeling so helpless. Then I chance upon a fan made video of Jihyo, her beautiful smile led me to watch Running man. My first episode was 147. I couldn't stop laughing midnight alone in my room. I got so addicted that I went to start from the beginning. And now regularly looking forward to Monday, to catch the latest episode. I know I started late so I was preparing myself for the longest time that I don't have much time to watch running man because the members are not young anymore. The show rating has not been performing, the limitations are all there. It's hard for the second break through. I even thought if I can decide, how would the last episode be like. I hope it's a guest-less one, just running man themselves. Or perhaps it's the announcement that the famous Monday couple is now Everyday couple. That would be nice to see. But I Guess there are always surprises in life. I'm shocked, like something heavy weighing down on my chest, a void of emptiness in my heart knowing that I wouldn't be able to see cheesy Monday Boyfriend, Mr random capable, peaceful Gary, sexy dance Gary, the innocent Gary who always get fooled, the Gary that keeps calling Mongji/ Jihyo-ah, the one who always protects and lookout for  his Monday Girlfriend, the one who chose her as his partner, the interactions of Monday couple that brings us the "aww" moments, cannot longer hear her calling "Kang Gary~" that sounds like sweetest thing on earth and many more other interactions with everyone. 31 oct 2010 is the start of Monday couple. 31 oct 2016 Gary is filming for his last time. I dunno how that episode will be like but I hope it will be one that creates the best of all memories for everyone. Thank you for bringing laughter to me when I was down, bringing me into Korean hip hop music. I wish you all the best in your music career, hope to see you in person 1 day. And hopefully to hear good news from you soon, Kagushipta Kang Gary.

My latest addiction: Korean reality variety - Running Man
It's funny how i lived in Singapore but the girl group i like is from Taiwan, actresses from Hong Kong and now variety show from Korea. Multi-national ttm! Anyway, back to Running Man.

I still remembered how much the people around me recommend Running Man when it was at its peak for years. And how much i refused it, for some reasons, i used to be quite anti-korean. But well, fate always works it way around. How long did it take for me to get addicted? Answer:  3:14min all it takes was a wrong click on weibo, Song Ji Hyo and BAM! addiction. And what was the video about? A compilation of Song Ji Hyo most beautiful moments in RM.

So my journey with Running Man started with Ji Hyo and through her, i get to know the 6 other members.

Yoo Jae Suk: BAH-TU-GHEE (Grasshopper) He is one living example of how successful one can get if you have your goal in mind and put in extra extra effort to achieve. No doubt to be the Nation's MC!

Ji Suk Jin: IMPALA~ He may be the "Race Starter" but i see him more as a caring brother to all especially Ji Hyo (more like caring father perhaps?)

Kim Jong Kook: Tiger~ SPARTAKOOKS! Kookie~ Commander! He's so strong, so fit and so cute! Because of his physique, he is always the target but that doesn't stop him from being cute.

Kang Gary: Mr Random Capable, peaceful Gary, Monday Boyfriend. He may have the most common look on screen but he is charming! Super love him on variety and when he raps! Random capable because his power at times shocks everyone, most often ignite by Ji Hyo, his Monday Girlfriend.

HAHA: Haroro, bad kid who loves to act. i like how in the initial stage he looks like Pororo. And he can always turn a boring scene funny and funny scene even funnier!

Song Ji Hyo: Ace, Monday Girlfriend, Mong Ji. She's blank (mong), she sleeps anywhere anytime any height, she doesn't wear makeup, she's not afraid to get down and get dirty for the game. Thumbs up!

Lee Kwang Soo: Girin~Betrayer,Framer Kwang Soo, Unlucky Kwang Soo. He is really made for variety. Earlier stages of framing was hilarious, then betraying members like nothing. His fighting back with Kookie was also funny. And all his unlucky moments sometimes can leave me feeling speechless.

Pi-Cok-Cross, Animal Kingdom(Impala,Girin,Tiger),Candy siblings, KJK and 2 kids,Spartace,Monday Couple,HaHyo,KwangMong,family(father-in-law & Monday couple) and of cos RM team, love all these combination. Hopefully they would still have RM fan meet and i'll go see them in person!

It's been months since i last update. Well, congrats myself on leaving and starting a new adventure at somewhere else. Things have been going quite okay for me, just that now it's bit hectic because of the stock take. Like Daniel asked, how many stock take have i gone through within 1 year. Countless times but at least this time round, it will be fruitful. 57% done, left with 1more week and 3 more stores. Mind over body, I can do it!

Perhaps there's a moment where we were so close but it was missed.

人生要你學會堅強時 總會放些不如意的人事讓你去經歷 

My November ended in a horrible way. Blew me off and totally crumbled my optimism. For 3 days, I lived in a red zone, irritable, angsty and snapping self. The efforts I've put in for the past year seems to be futile and I'm like a fool. The feeling of helplessness sucks to the max. I felt indignant to be take advantage just like that, I want to retailiate. I want to get out of this mess, I want to get what I deserve and I want to find myself back. 

I didn't told much ppl about what happened, but I'm really thankful to my parents for putting up with me for that 3 days. 感謝你帶我去兜風，雖然旅程不長不順但至少讓我透透氣。(and 第一次坐jaguar)

Had a horrible week at work. Being accused and not able to meet the NC gang makes it worst. 

「我是一個沒有安全感的人 」

某天突然這樣肯定的標籤自己真的感覺糟透了

假裝不在乎，假裝看透一切，與世無爭，其實只是害怕失去

不曾擁有就沒有所謂失去

那是多麼懦弱的

也只有夜深人靜時，這樣赤裸裸的面對自己然後代謝情緒

面對在一年內被'拋棄'兩次的打擊，說不茫然是騙人的

Been sometime since I last wrote, things changed a lot. Like how it does in musical chairs. The "wind of favour" blows around like some typhoon. Seems like he has lost his sense of directions or perhaps he is just out to confuse us. My not-so-new-but-probably-turning-ex job is still unconfirmed. Really wonder if I can last till the day I'm confirmed or leave before. 

很意外，不管是不是第一時間，還是很替你感到高興！面試成功

So much things happened. I met superior that really perform below my expectations. Things are always 2-way, i believed. You have expectations of your subordinates and likewise they would have expectations of you. if i'm not convinced by you, how do you expect me to work for you. Just like in all history, the general must be someone that can commands respect, then you would have soldiers that will brave all odds for you. but sadly, what i see now is not. To make matter worse, its your attitude and art of talking. Frankly speaking, you sucks. Don't worry, i won't play any games to get you out of the picture, because i'm just going to do nothing for you.

Amidst of my own happenings, the founding father of Singapore has left us on Monday 23 March 15. I have not met him personally and he doesn't know me either. But emotions were tugged deeply. I teared at every article i read about him. Things that i've learnt during the history lessons and the other side of him that was not widely known, his softer side. Yes, he may be a controversial person, he could have made less popular decisions but those are things that i felt could be left to debate at some other time. This is the time where we mourn for the loss of a great leader, one that braved all odds to lead Singapore to where we are now, to have a place we are proud to call home. His vision and capabilities are there to see, we don't have to deny him such credits. He devoted his whole life to make sure Singapore survived and prosper, with such dedication, he is a man worthy of our respect. Rest in peace, Mr Lee Kuan Yew.

5months, things can change so drastically at work. it really makes me thinks a lot now, what can of leader do i want to be and how do i portray myself to the team that i lead. i believe i will find the solution to my problem soon.

started 3rd month into the job, few weeks at site, used to not having fan or air con, sit anywhere, be dirty and sweaty. a lot of things i don't really know so i just offered whatever help that i can. on-the-job training, so trying to learn as much as i can. as usual, there are some higher management decisions that i can never understand but oh well, i just try to do whatever is possible to make it better.

1month plus into my new job. totally new environment, working with mostly guys and are much older than me. new challenge but i accept, 1st week at site, dust as companion, sitting anywhere, on pellets, plastic stacks even un wipe tables. clean spot?! not such word exist at site. but alas! tables in position, and 1st kitchen concept is up! yea! hopefully next 3 weeks things goes smoothly, then we are able to open on 15 Dec.

自认放假的这几个月 做了很做想做的 也看了想看的港剧 既然看了那么多就来试试写评语吧

On Call 36 小时 (Astro大马视帝视后／最佳荧幕情侣／最佳剧集）（TVB最佳电视男角色－张一件）
原本它播出的时候 我就很想追看 可是那时要读书做工没时间 所以ChU播出时 我就断断续续的追看。故事节奏刚好 message很清楚 最重要是男女主角选的好 马明杨怡荧幕上就有一种很特别的chemistry 让人看了很舒服 那种一个眼神一个动作都可以让人觉得很sweet 经历很多最后也在一起happy ending 唯一遗憾就是没有很多“鱼头”名正言顺拍拖的scenes

On Call 36 小时 2 （最佳荧幕情侣连庄）
因为看part1的时候 其实On Call 36 小时 2 已经播完了 所以马上追。当然我的selling point是“鱼头”咯 想看“鱼头”的甜蜜婚后生活 怎么知道。。。前3集screen time很少可是还是sweet的 然后就噩梦了 病情复发流产焦虑还专科吵架分居开解明了甜蜜复合 整个过程用了23集（4-26）当你以为可以这样幸福下去 最后2集还要“一件头”车祸“鱼仔”帮他做手术这么折磨 当然因为“鱼头”已成定局所以有新人加入可是。。。一个花了十多集找失踪男友 一个不知道自己喜欢晶晶还是车车 BEN雪还杀出一个EX Cases就全部围绕在医者不能自医 医生们的妈妈老婆老公姐姐弟弟朋友前女友女儿 一个个都有病 整出戏从头哭到尾 鱼仔流产哭 林爷弟弟病死哭 Yannis动手术哭 车车病死哭 一件头车祸哭 这么down 应该早一点让“鱼头”复合可以sweet一下嘛

回到三国
因为“鱼头”所以疯狂追看 马明杨怡的戏 整出戏就是一个comedy现代人回到古代 不自觉用一些时下流行的字眼闹出不少笑话 可是在comedy里 ending居然那么悲惨 云信会到现代 桑柔留在古代从此分开 真令人吐血

谈情说案
第一出不用怎么打就破案的警察戏 可惜Lo Sir和犀利妹没有感情线 可是上司下属的对手戏也蛮有chemistry的 最后happyending啦

法网阻击
算是很正常的剧 超喜欢律师的剧 喜欢杨怡这个造型很美 高潮迭起刚刚好 ending也交代的好

真相
众星拱月，大家都喜欢Mavis 与各个对手都有发生一些事 可是！最后居然是一个没有ending的ending。吐血x2

铁马寻桥
看这部戏纯粹是想看杨怡的民初装扮 因为个人觉得很美 虽然客串不过也意外发现 她和郑嘉颖蛮配的

溏心风暴
溏心风暴之家好月圆（最佳女配角）

溏心系列纯属重看 当年首播很HOT 已经看过了 不过这次就特别留意杨怡的角色 Jackie和阿月
Jackie从任性到成熟 和Bosco的对手戏也好看有sweet到 阿月这角色真的演的很棒 难怪那最佳女配角 哭戏的难度在于哭得有层次 哭到观众的心里 受委屈又要表现很坚强 真的有为角色心痛

点解ah sir是ah sir
第一次看杨怡演老师 让我想到瑞恩的［书包太重］会有穿berms的老师 好特别咯 我从没遇到过 ending算是有交代的

赌场风云
傻里傻气的 不是典型胸大无脑 珠美有用脑的 只是常想错导致一些笑话 不过ending算好的

名媛望族（最佳女主角）
看这部因为这是杨怡拿最佳女主角的戏 或许因为on call马明杨怡太深入民心 所以一直觉得子君要配大少 小时候大少救子君 子君当了塞凤凰 大少请她回去表演 被抓时保护她 结果子君爱上他老爸 囧 BUT如果让子君大少发展应该会乱到疯掉 所以只能说老少配还是很难看得惯吧

仁心解码2
黑暗的角色 看的时候完全没有想到她角色会有那么多变化 卧底舞女重案组警察executor杀手 一次次的大难不死唤起她封闭已久的记忆慢慢发现自己是杀人凶手的女儿接连的打击让她铺上杀手之路 最后悲剧收场

恋爱星球人
剧的题材蛮特别的 玩具设计师and星座 可是不喜欢马仔放弃的ending 明明他先看到的为什么要让 真是的！

守业者
针扎很久才看的剧 应为我先看到ending 寻获真凶的节奏和转折还不错 冰冰家杨很虐咯 成亲之日被抓 自由后又忙着报仇 报完了因为一个谎话分开 重逢遇到水灾 逃难时家杨还要被撞两次导致他们失散 冰冰独自抚养孩子再遇到家杨 他失忆要等到孩子唱歌他回头微笑似乎记起就end 编剧啊要不要那么吝啬给冰冰家杨长一点时间的happyending都不行吗？

再生缘
纯属配角 其实只是想看杨怡马明的初次对手剧 很嫩 青春啊～

23 birthday

Celine and Chervel gave me an advance celebration. It was a GNO day, had fun singing K and brought back a huge mango cake. We ate like a quarter only so the remaining were my lunch and dinner for the  next day.

Met up with YOLO for steamboat buffet after work. It poured heavily while I was on my way and I really wanted to just turn back and head home. But I know this meet up was to celebrate my birthday so I dragged myself there. Luckily, the rain stopped when I reach Bugis. Probably heard me, whoever is up there. So we had fun eating and stuffing ourselves cos it's been long since I saw aver and Ac and steamboat. After that, our plan was to go for the night fest at bras basah. So we walk to SMU for toilet first. That was just a cover in the end. Cos 环保小尖兵 were there ambushing me. It's probably again fated la, cos I was busy talking while crossing the road (错误示范). I thought it was coincident that I saw Stacy and Lee Lee. Then the rest suddenly pop out and sing birthday song on the streets but I was more concern about how they know I'm here. Haha! Needless to think, someone gave them info lurh. So that night I had 5 slices of Lady M cakes, 2 melted, 1 toppled and the remaining 2 staying strong. Special thanks to my most fire partner for coordinating the surprise. She probably went through many people before she find out about my schedule on 29Aug. 

其实我没那么好，脾气很坏，越亲密的人容忍线越低。因为我觉得你是亲密的，你应该懂我。个性很闷，有些东西就是不会说出口，一直考验别人，希望他们够细心能发现。有时候又倔强，明明知道自己跨出去一步，事情好办但就是死都不让，宁愿放着让它烂。有些事在怎么粉饰太平但还是会是心里的疙瘩。我真的不知道要怎么除掉。或者应该说我只渴望某些人的亲近和了解 某些人就是拥有那种特权

644 days | From spending my 21st birthday at the orientation in school till today, the results of my dissertation is released. 這條路很苦, 打全職工兼上夜校, 失眠熬通宵不吃晚餐是很平常的狀況. 很艱辛的時候就靠「花又開好了」的這句話 「如果你陪我走下去 那麼我沒藉口放棄」繼續撐. 想到Selina所經歷的種種，然後告訴自己她做得到，我也不能放棄。

挑夜燈趕報告時就聽 「死不睡覺」來催眠自己還不困，到漸漸有點喜歡半夜三更都不睡, 欣賞那種深夜的寧靜. 獨立寫畢業論文一直聽「我不願讓你一個人」一個人寫一個人獨立承受壓力真的很苦很想找人分擔傾訴但是最終還是只有自己, 所以只能用這首歌安慰自己. 一切終於在這裡劃下了不是很完美但問心無愧的句點. It's finally over. 

Down Under Tour

1 May 14 - 7 May 14

The Down under Aussie trip! first trip of 2014, to a brand new place with brand new companions! Okay, not really brand new because we did travel together before but that was in a VERY big group. It's also my self-proclaim graduation trip, finally done with the damn dissertation that has been weighing me down for months. Back to the trip, the highlight of the trip was actually the concerts lah. We figure out that it would be damn awesome to travel and able to attend Yoga & Hebe concert. Huge thanks to Sherry for being the main planner and researcher for the whole trip. So here comes the highlights of every single day:

30 Apr 14
I am still in SG for 22hours. Final half day at work before heading home to pack my luggage. Pop by to TBP for beauty care regime and lunch with Celine and Eve. By the time i finish packing, it's already 5pm, cab down to airport with Jolene cause i don want to lug my luggage to squeeze MRT. Taxi uncle very friendly, he asked me whether i have missed anything important before he drives off. BUT.... it was only when he reached Fort Rd, i remembered what i have missed, my dear elephants! Reach airport at about 6plus, meeting the rest of them at 7plus for McDonald's dinner! While waiting, another thing i missed has surfaced, Hebe's albums. -.-

1 May 14
In the wee hours, we are still on the plane BUT not asleep thanks to a toddler who keeps throwing tantrums. Sherry and I were doing our cards on the plane as well, how special is that? Mine was 80% done, except that i had not idea what i want to write to her. So i kept dwelling and dwelling and dwelling. Then i decided to draw the cover first and that's where disaster starts! The black marker i have decides to plop a blotch of ink for me and sent me into the critical mode where i had no choice but to draw a black heart to salvage (Who the hell gives a black heart?!?!?!) So the whole tempo of the 8hrs flight is nap, do card, eat, nap, do card... till we finally reach Melbourne

We step out of Melbourne airport in The Freshman T-shirt and jeans with temperature reading at 5degrees (Wholly shit! where's my jacket?!) trying to be cool and #yolo. Bus to city, walk to hotel, check in and BRUSH teeth! Walk around the hotel, grab some bite before we go Federation Square to head off to Phillip Island! Went to Phillip Island, enjoying 12degrees sea breeze in jeans (tattered kind), t-shirts and Adidas jacket. (OMG, someone needs to remind us "pls bring jackets") Sadly no pictures of penguins and Phillip Island because of the no photography rule, bought a magnet to remind myself that i actually visit that place before. Head back to the city and it's already 9plus. Grab Hungry Jack back to hotel as dinner. Before sleep, check FB and realised Selina is here in Melbourne with Hebe, who touch down after us and they took photos at Flinders Street Station (just opposite our hotel, how sad) Oh, and i woke up at 1am to meet Sok Huy to collect tickets. Super grateful to him and Sok Keang for helping us purchase the tickets and deliver.

2 May 14
Went to book Golden Mile tour then hitch on the free city tram to tour Melbourne city area. Alighted at Queen Victoria Market to shop and in hope of meeting Hebe over here (wishful thinking) It's really like spacious to shop there and there are really tons of things to see! Bought 2 elephants over there on impulse but it's okay, they are too cute to resist anyway. Then we went to DFS shopping near Melbourne Convention & Exhibition Centre. Bought a beanie that i like and we brisk walk back to hotel to change and brisk walk back to the concert venue. The only bad thing about the concert, no photography.

3 May 14
Went for our Golden Mile heritage tour, but before that, we took a picture at the Flinders Street Station. To stand on the place where she stood a few days back feels good. Indeed it's a heritage tour, learnt quite a lot from our guide. Ended the tour and we went to QVM again to collect some goods. Cab down to hotel to pack up and check out. Then we go visit Old Melbourne Gaol, first time i went into jail and able to walk out freely. Hahah! Great experience! went back to hotel afterwards to proceed to our #yolo highlight, overnight train ride starting from 7plus pm!

4 May 14
after 11 hours, we finally reach Sydney in the early morning. again, we were welcomed by cold morning breeze, enough to chill us awake. walk to pensione hotel, left our luggages there and out to grab breakfast. loiter around Paddy's market till lunch, step out to find that there's a freak accident at the dim sum restaurant that we initially wanted to eat. checked in, freshen up and head out to Manly Beach. Caught the view of Sydney Habour Bridge and Opera House in the day and night. came back and meet up with Diana for gelato at Darling Habour and after which the whole drama mama came alive and we had an unforgettable night. summary: while leaving the place, Sherry and I saw Bing Wang, we stunned and thought whether we should pass him the cards we made for Hebe. Decided to, drop our bags on some random chairs, take card and run. (my phone did a skydive and landed near his feet) Caught up with him, pass the card and happily walk back to the group. explain to Diana and HanYing who is he and blah blah.. we walk out to cross the traffic light. halfway through, i noticed a group of ppl walking towards us and OMG, i saw her assistant in the dark green jacket that i was telling Sherry at Circular Quay. eyes turned and i saw her, Hebe Tien! double OMG! in split seconds, i scanned her from head to toe, yea double check on the luminous pink shoes and turn to look at Sherry. From our expression, we knew that yea, we met HEBE! continue walking walking, path crossing, eyes met and Sherry shouted "田馥甄 我爱你！ "  hearing that, i quickly add on, "明天见！" (seem like that's the only thing i can say, for more info, referring to 25 Oct 13 Fairmont Hotel clip) Both of us happily wanted to proceed until Amanda said "the albums!" Stunned, stop, turn and run. i took Amanda's album and run towards them, fortunately they were waiting for the traffic light. so i went "erm...不好意思 可以签名吗？ " she said yes! so sign sign, chit chat and we left. yes, no photos cos the lighting damn bad, orange street light, how good can it be) but its enough for me! cos i realised i can converse with her after all. and i recommended her the gelato that we just had! (none of the albums signed are mine but i managed to talk to her. good enough although i really feel like crying, looking at the albums now) *this is also the best and worst day of the trip, shall not talk about the worst cos it doesn't worth the effort*

5 May 14
Went to westfield and up to Sydney Tower Eye. did the sky walk on glass flooring, nice. went back to eat gelato and then fish market for seafood. head back to hotel to rest and charge up before taking bus to concert venue, Horden Pavillion. Awesome thing about the concert, can take photographs and she mentioned us! Double happiness!

6 May 14
woke up early cause we are going up to Blue Mountains today. Bus ride to wildlife park, photo with Koala and feed kangaroos. saw the three sisters rock, took the steepest railway and a ferry from Olympic park to circular quay. wander to darling habour for pancakes and head back to hotel before going out to walk chinatown.

7 May 14
Met Diana for brunch and selfie session before flying back.

Breathing day

Finally, it all ended today. After skipping lunch for 2 days straight, chiong-ing nights, the thesis is done and submitted. It all comes with trials, walking in out sun to bind, DIY cover page, racing against time, fail to get taxi, stuck in jam and almost lost my mac. I can finally put everything down and relax. Not sure how it will turn out but I just hope to pass. The whole process is really too painful. I actually left a busy job for an even busier job. Like I do not have enough challenge yet. Filling my plate to the brim. No more looking at timetable, deadlines and feeling the stress. I never knew I could feel the weights of a timetable, but I did. 80g paper felt like 80tonnes. Those nights where I couldn't get to sleep or sleeping with a running mind. Your eyes are close but u know u are awake and aware of the surrounding. There are also times where I carry a whole lot of load in my heart, it weighs so much that I thought it would break. I try to be there for everyone but I forget about myself. Few occasions I really wanted to cry and release but I can't. Now I finally can. 一切结束了