郁可唯《好朋友只是朋友》

guess everyone will have at least 1 such "good friend"

Everyone is telling that i look happier back then. this makes me very puzzled, am i turning numb till i cant feel for myself? what makes them think that what they feel is what i actually feel.
They said i was very close to the a&p team there, truth is i am also close to the a&p team here. 9 mths over there, the bond has been built. For my own team, yes, i am close to them back there in TBP. I am also close to SS & LF when in LC. Now it's a new team, i tried to integrate but it wasnt accept by the other party. There were miscomm, friction but alot of relationship start out like this too. transfering me back, you said i would be happier, 3/5 of the team has changed, it's not the same anymore.

3D2N Taiwan

yes, it's extremely short i know... but that's all the time we have.. it feels great to be back in Taiwan. Simply love it...although the streets names are quite alien to me & the conversation is all in chinese. Not implying that my chinese sucks but hey, there is also Singapore version and Taiwanese version so bound to have differences.

Yang Ming Shan
Bo Pi Liao Lao Jie
Cheng Pin
Wu Fen Pu
Hu Xu Zhang Lu Rou Fan
Xi Men DIng
Taipei 101
Taipei Main Station Underground Mall

兜兜转转我还是回到了原点 我承认在那是有些不愉快不过我没有主动提出调职。对于流言我也确实有些动怒。

it's been long since i blog..oh well, nothing has changed much...or maybe there is..
she is still 2-faced, the other one is deep, he should be clueless, i tried to distance, smiles are gone, some can see, laughter is past, icy cold spreads, she is hinting, words spread, everyone's talking, no one to listen..

yea, no one to listen... sometimes it's not about advices. it might be nitty gritty stuffs but once it's been snowballed, it's gets bigger. i think i need a getaway

hmmm... finally finish attending two 21st party for 2 months straight. yea! time for rest... currently looking at uni courses, back to school time! omg! i still don know what to choose. plus i want to go overseas, taiwan! i want to go back there...

i am neither here nor there. i cant find my existence in the team. so much for dynamics and communications.

大年初四 就一个红色炸弹从天而降
嘉桦要结婚了！真替她开心！你一定要幸福哦！因为你值得拥有 （有广告嫌疑）

真的很讨厌那些说爱她 但在她宣布喜讯时不但不给予祝福 还有不看好的态度
爱她不是要真心希望她好吗？ 简直是伪粉！

随着嘉桦结婚 距离我要崩溃的消息就更进一步了
我的田馥甄 等你宣布的那天我会晕厥大哭

总结我的2011：

1月：看了2场LOVE!To Hebe 音乐会 + 签唱会
3月：考完试就飞到KL去看周杰伦的演唱会，回来一周后正式上班
5月：毕业典礼！
7月：刚过试用期就被调去LC
8月：飞到台湾过生日然后在田馥甄的二专发片日抵达新加坡（欲哭无泪。。我的台版专辑没了）
10月：看到我的偶像结婚，依然美若天仙，伴娘也是！
11月：田馥甄weekend，Sundown Fest(日晒雨淋) + 签唱会(为了排很前面牺牲了睡眠) 这次排队的总数名列前茅
12月：全家一起出国虽然只是2天1夜，My Love庆功演唱会台北场连办2天 然我期待新加坡场的 + 任家萱二度摆酒 (又有美美的新娘和伴娘) & EP

带着感恩的心欢送2011，2012会是更好的一年

year end is approaching... it's been an eventful 2011. graduated, found a job, moving house. damn, so many things. now busy packing stuff into boxes in preparation for the move.

17 Dec, i'm feeling rich~~! cos it's my first AWS. Wahhh~~ but after that back to square one -.- bought a bose earpiece for myself as present!

2 Dec

its family trip~! 2D1N batam tour. summarise the whole trip, super cold bus that broke down halfway, tour guide that keep mis-pronoucing our surname, keep having to get up & down the bus, seafood lunch that ran out of coconut & prawns are super small that i thought its shrimp, massage was the best! hotel not bad but i wont go back again cos breakfast buffet is cluttered with some company workers. also dunno where they come from, don look like hotel guests. basically Batam is a nice place but not suitable for me, cos their pace is too slow~ 差点气死我

27Nov

the night before reach sh gugu house about 12 plus, settle down and everything i sleep at about 2am. [many thanks to sh & gugu!!!] morning woke up at 5 plus to catch the first train. [thanks sh again for the pokey! its my only food source for the whole event] reach ps at 645am! when i was there, not many ppl were q-ing. i was quite in front sitting in a 'cage' and make new friends. thanks to the new friends, i had somebody to talk to, if not i really gonna play poker with myself liao. all the hardship is made worth it for her! even though i couldnt found my tongue to say smth other than 'xie xie' and look like a total idiot looking at her in daze and smiling to myself.

Q-ing time clock:13 hours(including waiting for her to sign finish all and leave) [personal 'best' timing]

it a crazy, physically-taxing , sleep depriving, endurance training & fasting weekend. the no of hours of sleep i get is as little as the time i see her. but the total no. of hours spent on waiting, q-ing is hitting almost 29 hours for 3 days.

25Nov

one day before alrdy start q-ing. haha, like clocking timing just to be the first few that enters to chop good view. it's tough like going for war as predicted. reach venue at about 4plus, abit sad cos i know Hebe's arriving at about 7 but i cant go to the airport because i need to clock timing. so sat there chit chat with joyce, waiting for mj to buy food over, blah blah blah... UNTIL 8 plus! one of the event person came over to pre empt us that artistes will be rehearsing later but we are not allow to run to the stage to see! *tink tink* that's when my camera comes in, before leaving the house i was thinking whether to bring anot. brought in the end cos i guess she will have to rehearse but didnt know when.

so Hebe is the first to rehearse, i sat at a corner looking at the stage, finding her in the dark. it's quite enjoying to sit in the dark, feeling the wind and hear her sing!

Q-ing time clock: 6hrs

26Nov

reach there at 12plus to continue q-ing. alrdy got long q and the sun is hot follow by heavy downpour and it carries on till 530 where we are able to get in. chop front row, waited for another 2 & half hours in the rain before the first group perform. patiently waiting for my 田馥甄! when she is finally going to perform, i could feel my heart thumping, hands and feet trembling with excitment! she is just so cute! although she doesnt says much i could just watch her for the longest time. it ended quite fast and i went to sh gugu house to camp for tml.

Q-ing time+performance: 10 hours

20.11.2011 Eve's big day! :D

woke up @ 5.30 to prepare. 6.30 reach eve's house and it's time to 开工!
7.30 arrival of groom, "yummy" food are waiting for them!
Bitter: small bittergourd (raw) mix with kopi-o powder and cinnanmon powder, cocoa powder as topping
Sour: chew 1 slice of lemon & lime and do a yoga pose for 30sec (half squat)
Spicy: heart shaped sandwich soak in chilli oil (overnight), fillings includes wasabi, black pepper and chilli powder as seasoning
Sweet: Orea biscuit with extra condense milk,sugar and more condense milk plus strawberry jam

everything went smoothly and once again, congrats to the couple!

1st wedding, 11.11.11 the whole hotel is full as every ballroom is book and have wedding. drink 2 glass of white wine, turned into a tomato then join colleagues for Zouk. had a super *yuck* long island tea, party till 2am. cab home with only $14 in wallet, fare total to $13.20 so ended up home with only 80cents. wore eye mask slept till 12pm.

then its part 2, left home around 7pm to attend my Chor Chor 21st birthday! eat watch talk cam whore then go NEX for movie.The Rum Diary, it's a true story of a journalist but it was boring to me. throughout i keep wondering if the male lead is Johnny Depp and every single character is F***-ing non stop till i get a serious headache then suddenly comes the ending

刻意疏远只是不想心痛太多次

eventful Nov is here! 2 weddings to attend and birthday party, gathering, sundown~!! Hebe Hebe Hebe~~~!!!!

那一天 老天爷决定夺走她身上54%的皮肤
那一天 老天爷决定让她承受28年来前所未有的痛
那一天 老天爷决定让她和爱她的整组人经历漫长的考验
那一天 老天爷决定用另一重方式让她暂别光鲜亮丽的舞台
那一天 老天爷决定用她来展示人的慈悲心也能非常大度
那一天 老天爷决定通过她教人们认错是需要勇气不是每个人都能做到
那一天 所有噩梦开始的那一天 我感谢老天爷没有拿走她的生命

也就是因为有那一天 我们才知道 爱是什么 爱是如此大的能量
成就了1031 这幸福的一天
这一天 努力复建的她 一步一步地走到幸福门前

appraisal done, tea-chat session with GM done, comments on appraisal not done :x
today, overslept on bus again. thanks to night cycling! hah, i must say we're quite brave to go night cycling, all girls from ECP to Bedok. okay, we almost ended up at Bedok reservoir, lucky divert to 85 market. took the park connector from ECP to bedok, 2 hrs plus non stop cycling. but from bedok back only 1 hour plus cos we decided to google for shorter route back. cannot tahan the 2 hours again. butt abrasion and jelly legs plus sleepy eyes. man~~ getting old alrdy

i dreamt of you last night, it's too good to be true.

year end is coming, appraisal is due :/



沉重的压力烦恼压得我几乎喘不过气 不想知道的事也这么毫无预警的知道