Came across this video again! actually when i first saw it,i couldnt recognise Xiao Gui and Rui En. i only saw Chew Chor Meng and truthfully, i dont like it. Cos i thought it was irritating, keep playing on tv. And i dont even know what show is this, when its airing and who acted in it. it was only aft i was hooked onto the show then in the final episode, i realise this! so share this here to keep the fond memories:)

人生因梦想而灿烂

My dream is to watch their Taiwan concert once. It sounds easy but it's not. Before 2010, i thought the only obstacle is me being too young to travel on my own, all i have to do is grow up safely, get a job, save up for the trip. That's it.

Going through 2010, it made me realise, there's more than that. Plenty of unforeseen circumstances that no one can control. What if they decides to get marry and thereafter disband, what if Selina didn't survive the freak accident, what if her recovery is not smooth, plenty of what ifs.. Her accident made me realise we got to cherish those things that we took for granted all these while. Like, every year they will release an album, or every now and then i get to see them on tv. Hence, this concert is really a gift from heaven. Thank goodness Selina is making smooth recovery, although it's a long process.

Okay, since now i have the money and the maturity to travel plus they are going to have a concert, it is still considered a dream because no one can guarantee you will be able to get a ticket to their concert! The network is congested for whole of 330 afternoon, none of us can make a successful transaction.

Well, now we still manage to go in the end, choosing the more expensive method. Come on! count down to June!

Well well, new slogan in town, "whatever"

Yea, it start aft a pre-appraisal meeting. Talk about grooming being part of KPI, choosing friends and beware of bad influences. Okay, my dad don't print money, my salary isn't that much, u think I can afford to buy many pretty dresses? And I don't like dresses in the first place, not exactly a fan of them. The last part is seriously ridiculous, do I look like a 3-year-old kid? And by the way, can u tell me who is the bad influence? And more ridiculous thing happens, to know that your superior bad mouth u in front of other colleague! Woah. What a nice example is that?
I didn't turn bad, I just learnt how to protect myself from BAD ppl.

I realise I'm a very detailed person.. As in spotting the tiniest details. While watching clif 2, I notice a lot of things, like they film scenes at Millennium Walk, Jcube, Mandarin Gallery, #zhijie's parents travel agency is actually using Dynasty travel @ opposite Clarke Quay central, last episode, Ruien wore another pair of shoes (shld be casual sneakers) to film the running part in hospital, #zhijie's house is probably in the east (either east coast or changi, cos only there the aeroplane sounds are super loud), somewhere in the last few episode, Ruien's hair suddenly dyed dark brown, or how her hair is straight at work and curled at home or off duty.

In tales of 2 cities, Ruien had a scene in Liang Court's toilet! Omg! I'm like a stalker sia... Haha! Well, that's how I watched show. First time is about the story, then a few more times, I'll end up picking up some funny details.

It's the same with SHE. like suddenly oh, they have their own engraved mic in diff color, or who suddenly have a ring, which finger, had the ring been wore before or new one. If only, my mind operates the same for study. I would have been a scholar...

There's always a time limit to things.. Just that time seem to pass faster for the good things

2 Mar 13, RWS by invite only.

Believe it or not, they are here! who? SHE of course!!! last week it was rumoured, yesterday it was confirmed and without hestitaion, i bought the ticket from a friend. i have to admit, cos of the lack of news, i bought the ticket to try my luck, yea, trying luck with $120 bucks is some big deal! so 6 of us, snap up the remaining tickets and pack ourselves to RWS! it was until we got in, saw the poster board then it dawned upon us that this whole thing is R.E.A.L it's like a dream came true. What i have been waiting for, the 3 of them performing, is actually going to happen. so SHE came, SHE sang and WE scream!

Okay.. I tried to refrain from reading the spoiler but well, couldn't hold it.. Guess it isn't any thing bad cos I would definitely watch it on TV anyway :) the spoiler is really brief and it doesn't satisfy me so I guess still have to hold onto Saturday for the preview ;) Huang Zhijie jiayou!!

是人心险恶还是我有被害妄想症？我很不屑费神去玩勾心斗角的把戏 你所看到的永远只是一部分的我 是我想让你看到的部分 当你让我分不清你是敌或友 我对你的信任会自动下降

今天 第一天少了5个月来的邻居 感觉很奇怪 好像少了个知己

读着过往的心情日记 想起了某个他 想起自己不想有遗憾决定勇敢的跟他要了电话号码 开始简讯 每一次都再找借口主动开话题 虽然没有明说＂我喜欢你＂ 但已经明示到周围的人都看得出 没有任何回应 我也只好放弃 没有结果难免失落 但我还是要祝你幸福

I have been asked, "have you plan for romance?" That was smth I got stumped on.. Oh, you mean this is smth that can be plan? Well, after hearing her out, it does make some sense. What planning means is to be prepared, be at your best all time then when Mr Right comes you are ready. Sounds like business acumen.. Anyway stepping into 21, this year Ang pow comes with certain terms and conditions I guess.

27 Jan 13

alot of first time today! first time in donkey years going to punggol, taking the LRT and attending an event featuring local artistes. yea, more precise abit, seeing Rui En for the FIRST TIME, in flesh! okay.. i know she is based in Singapore, livng in Clementi but that doesnt mean i get to see her often. She seldom go out other than for filming, even if she does, she drives (obviously a car with tinted screens), the percentage to say "OMG! i met Rui En in Orchard Road/Clementi today!!" is 0.000000000001 % (because i seldom step out of the house too, haizzz -.-)

So this is like a rare chance for me :) tried my luck on the lucky draw for photo pass and WON! then patiently waiting for her to arrrive.. make a new friend too! She came, she sat and she was swarmed! well, she's actually quite friendly to public and fans, autographing for some on the calendars (got quite overwhelmed in the end) and pausing longer cos she knows we are taking photos of her.

Well, only thing that got me quite puzzled is the photo shot. The most only 30 passes were given out, 1 pass entitles entry of 2 which means maximum is 60. 60 is only a small group and individual shots could have been done. But organisers compromise on this cos the media wants to take photo of the artistes, followed by the guest of honors, and some other impt ppl. The photo of the group shot is taken by 2 dslr, one was posted and frankly speaking, the quality of it is worse than my nikon S9100.

Minus that away, im happy cos i get to see Rui En although i didnt manage to wish her "Happy Birthday!" in advance.

27 Dec 12 -1 Jan 13

3rd visit to Taiwan within 2 years. this time its Kaohsiung & Taipei. First stop, Kaohsiung: From Taoyuan took HSR to Kaohsiung. 1hr plus journey, saw plantations and farms along the way. Cabbed to our hotel R8 Eco hotel. its located at the 12th storey of a building with rooms being named after the MRT stations of Kaohsiung. Some highlights of Kaohsiung, we went to cycle ard Love River, visited MayDay's concert behind the scene museum and plenty of shopping. Spend about 3 days in Kaohsiung before travelling up to Taipei. Just the night before we leave, saw the weather forecast that it would be 9deg in Taipei. GG-fied cos we didnt really bring coldwear..

By the time we reach Taipei, it was raining and there were strong wind blowing.. brr.. we had to buy gloves for our hands. Shop at ZhongXiao Dong Lu, looking for Kinaz, Top Girl, Stage Stayreal.. surprisingly, this time we found them easily.. Then proceed to Ximending and i bought a Kinaz bag again! OMG, its like every visit to Taiwan must buy a Kinaz bag..This time we also went Jiufen.. Lesson learnt: Jiufen & Shi Fen is DAMN far apart! hahaha, we thought its close so end up walking in the old street and up on the mountain there is actually strong free wifi! amazing! catch the countdown fireworks at Guo Fu Ji Nian Guan.. squeeze with the crowd to catch a portion of A Mei's performance, new countdown experience!

New Year, i hope to meet new things new ppl <3 p="p">

Finally exams are over!! really cant believe it, i actually took an exams only attending like half of what is being taught in lectures. i must be mad to get myself into such situation. anyway, air is fresher for me now. can finally breathe my S.H.E and Rui En :D

Happy kids! After waiting for 2years & 8mths, we finally got our hands on this long awaited CDs. During this period, i have bought alot more CDs, like Adele, Lana, Yoga, Rui En, of cause not forgetting their solo CDs/EPs. All these songs are great but somehow they just cant fill that void in my heart, cant satisfy my ears. its their harmonization, that is smth that i cant find it elsewhere.

Fate is really smth that i find amazing. a group of us just got together because of a ring, a 10th Anniversary S.H.E ring. i really cherish this

Appraisal is like a conclusion for the whole year. It's not about how well you feel that you have perform but how much your bosses see. To achieve the latter is rather tiring because you have to keep thinking of how to score brownie points. Well, not that i dunno all these but rather i don want to do this. Everyone has different values, they place focus on different things, it can be material or emotional. I hope to stay true to myself regardless of anything

如果你陪我走下去，我没有借口放弃

that's my motto for now! 决不放弃

S.H.E - 花又開好了 (官方短版MV)

终于思念的人相聚 Yes! We are Back! 回来了，终于有新歌了
没有SHE的2年8个月 只有田馥甄的陪伴 听歌的路因她而扩充 加上后来的宥嘉跟瑞恩
这一次，听sneak peek时，我真的以为是抒情歌 后来听完整版才知道后面是点音 有人觉得不好但我觉得这才象SHE。总是出其不意的个我们惊喜，旋律其实很强 歌词也很贴切 然后就一直烙印在脑海里 MV还有跳现代舞 曾经以为在也不会看到三人跳舞 每想到这一次就有[舞] 这[舞]是用2年8个月的艰辛换来的

Eversince , i have been 'poisoned' by Rui En.She is like a slow effect drug. I grew up watching Ch 8 dramas but with the introduction of INTERNET, i have been watching less and less of them. However, i realised i watch quite a number of the shows that she starred in. And now with the 'sudden' into-ness, i went to wiki all about her, dig out all the dramas to rewatch, read all the mag covers. It dawned me that the reports in the past is super biased against her, with everyone rating her down, labelling her but it just makes her success now EVEN sweeter. To me, i can see beneath the superficial her *not that i have psychic powers or what la* She's actually quite child-like, sweet & thoughtful. Must really thank the EP who approach her for Unriddle where she met Chen Li Ping, it brought out the funny side of her. Her laughter is getting to be more contagious like CLP. Those behind-the-scenes are really bonus to getting to see the other side of Rui En.

Just not my day today! Poor lil finger hurting like mad cos it got caught by the damn toilet door! Maybe it's karma for taking a free bus ride to sch. Had the first seminar aka tutorial where we suppose to prepares for the group work to be presented next week. Hell not, this is insane! A lit review to be submitted on 3 oct and I only know half of what was taught. I must be insane to enrol myself into this course!

Happy 21st to myself! This year specially held parties on 2 separate weekends. A big thank you to all my guests who takes time out to attend. It was memorable:) other than the private party, also a big thank you to my colleagues! Although it is a one-month affair but this month it's only me! This year, besides receiving gifts, I have decided to embark on a meaningful journey, to sponsor a child. This is not a one time action and my contribution is towards the well being of the whole sponsored community. I hope more people will join me on the journey, let's spread the love around!

Joys of Life 花样人间 插曲 《牵挂》MV 瑞恩 小鬼 原唱 Duet by Rui En & Xiao Gui

最近很迷的一部戏，花样人间! 这就是所谓天时地利人和吧，整个剧的搭配真是赞!而也让人看到不一样的瑞恩 越来越喜欢她了!

6月23日 金曲奖

馥甄风光入围7项然后扛龟 当下很闷觉得评审耳朵是不是坏掉了?!眼睛瞎掉 整个人生逊掉！搞什么嘛 让她坐在那里一整晚 当陪跑啊 整场金曲奖下来也就属SHE最精彩

对，当晚好像的确抱着只要SHE演出成功得奖之事没那么重要了 歌迷几近疯狂的尖叫 H几乎是清唱的LOVE E动感十足的坏女孩 S温暖人心的感谢爱我的每个人 然后合体霸气的SHERO和久违摇滚SUPERSTAR 在加上落幕的"WE ARE BACK" 9:11的表演好像是天意宣告女王的回归 落幕后的拥抱 赚了多少人的热泪 555天的心酸冷暖只有她们知道 这一路多么艰难

那晚我没哭 很难相信吧 但是真的 那晚馥甄的LOVE应该足以消除评审对她的刻板印象 她来自偶像团体但这团体是有实力的 那天所有的造型都很美难的啊 虽然没能上台但摄影师很爱take她 所以感觉没差

其实金曲奖对我来说没什么 只是有了她们才特别 得不得都不重要 应为她们人气买气都兼聚

09.06.12

美好的一天从08.06.12开始，第一次去接机。看到馥甄时 真的呆掉了。拍了5张她只在角落，哦my天！ 不过09.06我们算啦风！红配绿 狗臭屁嘛！超强眼的，大家都在看我们。那晚，很棒，现场功力就是歌姬程度。观众也很热情幽默调皮，馥甄每个talking都会笑。馥甄啊，你的真是我的最爱。10.06,又是第一次，第一次送机。等待总是漫长不过还是等到了。这样？新加坡很热情吧？ 追到二楼去了，吓一跳了吼？

我会期待6月23日，S.H.E强势回归！

2 June: finally gotten my driving licence! woohoo~~~!! thank you Mr Yeo!! now im waiting for the scholaship notice, interview this week? hope i can know asap to arrange and prepare myself. tmr must go make payment loh...

It's been long yea... yesterday had a good news? i was offerred a place in SIM. well, that should be good news cos i only apply for that 1 course and i go it. it could be a better news if they could let me know my scholarship result. that's the frustration for me now.

work is hectic, we are not on the same boat, its same rocket, okay! things here moves faster like dunno by how many times. i dunno if its the right choice to take part time now.

[JP] 2012.05.02 2012年 S.H.E 的 HEBE 代言台灣精品與您相約百腦匯

真的很喜欢馥甄的声音能安抚我的心

S.H.E母親節合體再出發

等了快2年 终于合体了 真的很感动也很开心

那一年，妳們剛剛認識。那一年，妳們成為朋友。那一年，妳們變成姐妹。那一年，妳們互許老婆。那一年，她嫁作人婦。那一年，她成為人妻。那一年，她陪伴她們左右。那一年，我相信她同樣能夠收穫幸福。那一年，我們一起追的女孩。那些年，謝謝妳們教會了我。有一種友誼叫S.H.E！！

2011, 2012, someday....

我希望她们幸福 而她们也陆续找到了幸福，在那分别的特别日子里
我不知道someday要等多久

郁可唯《好朋友只是朋友》

guess everyone will have at least 1 such "good friend"

Everyone is telling that i look happier back then. this makes me very puzzled, am i turning numb till i cant feel for myself? what makes them think that what they feel is what i actually feel.
They said i was very close to the a&p team there, truth is i am also close to the a&p team here. 9 mths over there, the bond has been built. For my own team, yes, i am close to them back there in TBP. I am also close to SS & LF when in LC. Now it's a new team, i tried to integrate but it wasnt accept by the other party. There were miscomm, friction but alot of relationship start out like this too. transfering me back, you said i would be happier, 3/5 of the team has changed, it's not the same anymore.

3D2N Taiwan

yes, it's extremely short i know... but that's all the time we have.. it feels great to be back in Taiwan. Simply love it...although the streets names are quite alien to me & the conversation is all in chinese. Not implying that my chinese sucks but hey, there is also Singapore version and Taiwanese version so bound to have differences.

Yang Ming Shan
Bo Pi Liao Lao Jie
Cheng Pin
Wu Fen Pu
Hu Xu Zhang Lu Rou Fan
Xi Men DIng
Taipei 101
Taipei Main Station Underground Mall

兜兜转转我还是回到了原点 我承认在那是有些不愉快不过我没有主动提出调职。对于流言我也确实有些动怒。

it's been long since i blog..oh well, nothing has changed much...or maybe there is..
she is still 2-faced, the other one is deep, he should be clueless, i tried to distance, smiles are gone, some can see, laughter is past, icy cold spreads, she is hinting, words spread, everyone's talking, no one to listen..

yea, no one to listen... sometimes it's not about advices. it might be nitty gritty stuffs but once it's been snowballed, it's gets bigger. i think i need a getaway

hmmm... finally finish attending two 21st party for 2 months straight. yea! time for rest... currently looking at uni courses, back to school time! omg! i still don know what to choose. plus i want to go overseas, taiwan! i want to go back there...

i am neither here nor there. i cant find my existence in the team. so much for dynamics and communications.

大年初四 就一个红色炸弹从天而降
嘉桦要结婚了！真替她开心！你一定要幸福哦！因为你值得拥有 （有广告嫌疑）

真的很讨厌那些说爱她 但在她宣布喜讯时不但不给予祝福 还有不看好的态度
爱她不是要真心希望她好吗？ 简直是伪粉！

随着嘉桦结婚 距离我要崩溃的消息就更进一步了
我的田馥甄 等你宣布的那天我会晕厥大哭

总结我的2011：

1月：看了2场LOVE!To Hebe 音乐会 + 签唱会
3月：考完试就飞到KL去看周杰伦的演唱会，回来一周后正式上班
5月：毕业典礼！
7月：刚过试用期就被调去LC
8月：飞到台湾过生日然后在田馥甄的二专发片日抵达新加坡（欲哭无泪。。我的台版专辑没了）
10月：看到我的偶像结婚，依然美若天仙，伴娘也是！
11月：田馥甄weekend，Sundown Fest(日晒雨淋) + 签唱会(为了排很前面牺牲了睡眠) 这次排队的总数名列前茅
12月：全家一起出国虽然只是2天1夜，My Love庆功演唱会台北场连办2天 然我期待新加坡场的 + 任家萱二度摆酒 (又有美美的新娘和伴娘) & EP

带着感恩的心欢送2011，2012会是更好的一年

year end is approaching... it's been an eventful 2011. graduated, found a job, moving house. damn, so many things. now busy packing stuff into boxes in preparation for the move.

17 Dec, i'm feeling rich~~! cos it's my first AWS. Wahhh~~ but after that back to square one -.- bought a bose earpiece for myself as present!

2 Dec

its family trip~! 2D1N batam tour. summarise the whole trip, super cold bus that broke down halfway, tour guide that keep mis-pronoucing our surname, keep having to get up & down the bus, seafood lunch that ran out of coconut & prawns are super small that i thought its shrimp, massage was the best! hotel not bad but i wont go back again cos breakfast buffet is cluttered with some company workers. also dunno where they come from, don look like hotel guests. basically Batam is a nice place but not suitable for me, cos their pace is too slow~ 差点气死我

27Nov

the night before reach sh gugu house about 12 plus, settle down and everything i sleep at about 2am. [many thanks to sh & gugu!!!] morning woke up at 5 plus to catch the first train. [thanks sh again for the pokey! its my only food source for the whole event] reach ps at 645am! when i was there, not many ppl were q-ing. i was quite in front sitting in a 'cage' and make new friends. thanks to the new friends, i had somebody to talk to, if not i really gonna play poker with myself liao. all the hardship is made worth it for her! even though i couldnt found my tongue to say smth other than 'xie xie' and look like a total idiot looking at her in daze and smiling to myself.

Q-ing time clock:13 hours(including waiting for her to sign finish all and leave) [personal 'best' timing]

it a crazy, physically-taxing , sleep depriving, endurance training & fasting weekend. the no of hours of sleep i get is as little as the time i see her. but the total no. of hours spent on waiting, q-ing is hitting almost 29 hours for 3 days.

25Nov

one day before alrdy start q-ing. haha, like clocking timing just to be the first few that enters to chop good view. it's tough like going for war as predicted. reach venue at about 4plus, abit sad cos i know Hebe's arriving at about 7 but i cant go to the airport because i need to clock timing. so sat there chit chat with joyce, waiting for mj to buy food over, blah blah blah... UNTIL 8 plus! one of the event person came over to pre empt us that artistes will be rehearsing later but we are not allow to run to the stage to see! *tink tink* that's when my camera comes in, before leaving the house i was thinking whether to bring anot. brought in the end cos i guess she will have to rehearse but didnt know when.

so Hebe is the first to rehearse, i sat at a corner looking at the stage, finding her in the dark. it's quite enjoying to sit in the dark, feeling the wind and hear her sing!

Q-ing time clock: 6hrs

26Nov

reach there at 12plus to continue q-ing. alrdy got long q and the sun is hot follow by heavy downpour and it carries on till 530 where we are able to get in. chop front row, waited for another 2 & half hours in the rain before the first group perform. patiently waiting for my 田馥甄! when she is finally going to perform, i could feel my heart thumping, hands and feet trembling with excitment! she is just so cute! although she doesnt says much i could just watch her for the longest time. it ended quite fast and i went to sh gugu house to camp for tml.

Q-ing time+performance: 10 hours

20.11.2011 Eve's big day! :D

woke up @ 5.30 to prepare. 6.30 reach eve's house and it's time to 开工!
7.30 arrival of groom, "yummy" food are waiting for them!
Bitter: small bittergourd (raw) mix with kopi-o powder and cinnanmon powder, cocoa powder as topping
Sour: chew 1 slice of lemon & lime and do a yoga pose for 30sec (half squat)
Spicy: heart shaped sandwich soak in chilli oil (overnight), fillings includes wasabi, black pepper and chilli powder as seasoning
Sweet: Orea biscuit with extra condense milk,sugar and more condense milk plus strawberry jam

everything went smoothly and once again, congrats to the couple!

1st wedding, 11.11.11 the whole hotel is full as every ballroom is book and have wedding. drink 2 glass of white wine, turned into a tomato then join colleagues for Zouk. had a super *yuck* long island tea, party till 2am. cab home with only $14 in wallet, fare total to $13.20 so ended up home with only 80cents. wore eye mask slept till 12pm.

then its part 2, left home around 7pm to attend my Chor Chor 21st birthday! eat watch talk cam whore then go NEX for movie.The Rum Diary, it's a true story of a journalist but it was boring to me. throughout i keep wondering if the male lead is Johnny Depp and every single character is F***-ing non stop till i get a serious headache then suddenly comes the ending

刻意疏远只是不想心痛太多次

eventful Nov is here! 2 weddings to attend and birthday party, gathering, sundown~!! Hebe Hebe Hebe~~~!!!!

那一天 老天爷决定夺走她身上54%的皮肤
那一天 老天爷决定让她承受28年来前所未有的痛
那一天 老天爷决定让她和爱她的整组人经历漫长的考验
那一天 老天爷决定用另一重方式让她暂别光鲜亮丽的舞台
那一天 老天爷决定用她来展示人的慈悲心也能非常大度
那一天 老天爷决定通过她教人们认错是需要勇气不是每个人都能做到
那一天 所有噩梦开始的那一天 我感谢老天爷没有拿走她的生命

也就是因为有那一天 我们才知道 爱是什么 爱是如此大的能量
成就了1031 这幸福的一天
这一天 努力复建的她 一步一步地走到幸福门前

appraisal done, tea-chat session with GM done, comments on appraisal not done :x
today, overslept on bus again. thanks to night cycling! hah, i must say we're quite brave to go night cycling, all girls from ECP to Bedok. okay, we almost ended up at Bedok reservoir, lucky divert to 85 market. took the park connector from ECP to bedok, 2 hrs plus non stop cycling. but from bedok back only 1 hour plus cos we decided to google for shorter route back. cannot tahan the 2 hours again. butt abrasion and jelly legs plus sleepy eyes. man~~ getting old alrdy

i dreamt of you last night, it's too good to be true.

year end is coming, appraisal is due :/



沉重的压力烦恼压得我几乎喘不过气 不想知道的事也这么毫无预警的知道

this week has a mixture of good & bad news. bad news is losing a leader in the team, i tried very hard to hold back in the meeting room and lasted till my desk. it's a shocking news but i sincerely wish all the best for her! good news is we received compliment from CEO! and we are hitting 100% occupancy. wooo~~~hoooo~~~~ last is my catchment study also receive compliment which came as a surprise cos i thought there is still improvement to do. :/

everyone has a certain degree of knowing themselves. i wont say i understand myself 100% but i know im a perfectionist at certain things. i know how much it means to me so i will do whatever it takes to make sure it's gonna be perfect. Another thing is i dont like to trouble others, but now i'm like bringing in all the trouble and it sucks! BUT i'm not going to crumple like this, i will be stronger! Fight back!

it's a hectic week. everyday got appointment to meet prospects, fall sick but cannot take leave. still got arrows flying ard. suddenly just feel tired, physically & mentally. maybe its due to the medicine

思念太猖狂 一个冷不防 一想起你 忙碌的生活变得空荡荡

it's been 6months into work. stress level is up, doing my first AMM presentation this coming tue. had research to do, special kit to do and so many things~! life is occupied by work

也许你只是生命中的过客 也许是我不够勇敢

人生若能像有个遥控器能随意调快慢那该有多好
但这样好像就不是人生了 人生之所以精彩也许就是因为它无法从来 有些东西一旦错过就没有了 所以常听到要活在当下珍惜每一刻
有些话不说以后可能没机会或没必要说了 但如果说了却得不到你想要的结局 让原本的变质甚至失去 你还会说吗？

人在每隔一段期间应该做一个总结把自己归零 然后再从新出发

还有半个小时就到911

是什么能让我追他们10年？
你们从不认识我 基本上我们也没什么对话可言
是什么能让我3650天天天想她们？
静静的 远远的 守护着 支持着
是什么能让我87，600个小时耳朵不停的充斥着她们的歌？
有时还会不自觉的嘴角上扬 心情愉快
我想是因为爱 有点像Guardian Angel的爱吧

有时候太过沉静在过往的影片会忘了小只受伤
偶尔怨天怨地 心痛难过
说真的 这十周年很苦 但在苦我都会带着笑祝福
因为这一苦过后 我们还会有很多甜蜜
S.H.E 生日快乐!!! 你们要幸福!

原来时间并没有冲淡伤痕 那张专辑里的每一首歌都回把我带回到过去 医院的记忆 打招呼后就躲在 TV Room直道要回家再说声再见才再次回到病房 这是什么探病？我只是去那里看电视睡觉做功课 i could have spend more quality time with them 这是心里永远的遗憾
那张专辑一直都在我电脑里但我从来都没放进iPod

Fly~~~ 4 more days before i fly to Taiwan. my long awaited holiday :D

USS on Saturday is damn packed! but thanks to Mr Galvin Pang( my ah chor's lao gong), it's a breeze! the other time i started with the mild rides (Madagascar), this time we started with BSG human followed by cyclone mummy. from intense to mild, then relax, intense, chill and it goes on. 1 whole day spent at USS, sat 3 times of cyclone and 3.5 times of human. 0.5 is because during 1 of the launch, we were stuck on the slope. lucky its at the bottom not top. stayed till 9 to watch the fireworks, beautiful!

this was what i would like to say to my colleagues in TBP, esp my bosses. Well, i'll pen it down and sent it to them personally one day.

"final day, i hope tml they wont ask me to make a speech or smth. cos i dont think i can hold my tears back. i cant say but i can write it down. im not into religion but i must really thank god. he is kind to me. Thank you my bosses for hiring me despite my screwed up interview(personally i think i screwed it up), you gave me chances to be in this family, full of laughter. guide me from scratch, like how one would teach a baby to crawl and then walk."

My 1st CMO Fun&bonding at TBP. we had paintball at bottletree park, yishun there. i guess everyone had fun. i make use of the chance to take photo with everyone cos tuesday would be my last day.

你的人生有遗憾吗？ 有人说 遗憾见证了生命 没有人一生毫无遗憾 没有人会有所谓的完美人生 我想在这快20年的人生 我有一些小小的遗憾 如果用工读书一点。。。 如果能拨多一点时间陪亲人。。。 如果能勇敢一点。。。如果。。。 生命难免有如果 但是让我从新来过 我可能还是会做同样的选择 因为这些造就了现在的我 虽然不见得很了不起 但至少我懂得珍惜每一刻 我学会活在当下

counting down to like the last 2 weeks in TBP. hmmm, must start to prepare handing over list and clear the projects on hand. i hope things goes smoothly, then there is smth i can be proud of during my 4 months stint over there.

it's movie week for last week. found company to watch green lantern on thurs and Mr Popper's penguine on fri. clearing my movie list lil by lil. to those movies that i missed, captain jack, i'm sorry, i have to watch it on funshion :( hope i wont miss harry potter that is coming soon.

14 June, tml is officially my 3rd month into work! i got my confirmation letter alrdy :) plan for holidays! Taiwan~~~

3months ago, i started out new, fresh from sch(probably not cos i havent graduate at that point of time). i embark on a new journey, the working life, my career. 3months later, im still learning though not as new and nervous as before. i had some confidence in handling clients/prospect. getting used to the system of work. i was told that bosses up there saw my performance, they thought i had the potential to be groom at other places. i dont know if what they are saying is heartfelt or just to cajole me to agree to the transfer, i would prefer to believe that it is heartfelt. i accept the option anyway, it seem beneficial to my career. well, just hope that i wont have to transfer again after another 3mths.

facing a cross junction of my life, well, not sure if it is a happy/sad decision to make.

3yrs ago, i entered REB feeling dejected cos its wasnt really what i want to study. Destiny is a funny thing, i went to NP, met a fun outgoing class made friends, did lots of crazy/funny/retard things; slacking @studio27, library, monopoly craze at every spot of NP even in LT, coming late for class, suan-ing sessions with lecturers, rushing project @ 72, sleeping/movie-ing in LT, skip classes for movie, squeezing into lifts, cabbing to BTP to eat KFC and play pool then cab back for class, bargain for extension, chiong projects to 3-4am and almost w/o slping chiong to sch and many many more. if i were to make a choice once more, i wont hestitate to choose REB.

3yrs of 'hardwork', is all for this moment, 1 sec on stage. then its cam-whore time! okay la, actually its not that alot for me. that gown is super hot! cab to BTP for pizza hut then pool(like how we used to). Kung Fu Panda 2 @ PS GV with a box of mix popcorn but it's super salty at the end + a super big cup of sprite. dinner and off we go~~home sweet home <3

in this screwed up day, the only good thing that happen is i conducted a viewing on my own. everything from the scratch i handle, well my performance shld be not bad considering the client thought that i work quite long. partly i think, they are quite friendly too, hence not much of a problem. at least, i get some confident boost in handling ppl. not that i cant but it takes time to adapt.

whenever i tell ppl i work at TBP, i think they thought its at a retail shop doing part time. whenever ppl ask me do i like my job, honestly i dont know how to answer. i dont hate it but i havent love it yet. maybe in time to come, i will. then i also have ppl asking me how's Selina(S.H.E) doing, although i'll reply she's working hard for recovery but deep down inside i really wanted to answer: do i look like i'm by her side all this while, what i know its also through the newspaper. and newspaper nowadays aren't as trustworthy as before. and on the GMA issue, not being nominated is a big deal, the big deal issue is you shldnt said those things. and suing netizens who 'accuse' you is a big joke, there are so many of them.

here to mark the 2nd month of work life. isnt it fast, 1 more month to go till confirmation. collected grad robe so 1 thing less to rmb. this week quite alot of impt things happening, need to grab good quality sleep man. and omg, next week is graduation alrdy. fast!

im amazed at myself today. smart la, bathe too long ended up leaving the house late. in a rush o i decided not to change my bag, thinking that its not much of a diff anyway. but who knows, i left my drawer keys at home. and i only realise it on the mrt, so had to trouble mummy to help me deliver keys. so tired that i stand and doze off on the train aft work. i tot that was alrdy incredible, but i broke record again. i walk and doze at the same time. lucky nvr get into accident

this mth cant avoid AMM meeting, another trip to 5th Ave. reporting pls don come so soon. CSP course push back means i'll be attending alone :(

this morning had a super strange dream. dreamt about an alarm clock in my hand that couldnt stop ringing. i switched it off, the volume faded out and blast again. keep trying also wont work, then i thought, pull out the bateries and case closed. batteries pulled out, alarm still ringing. shocking! then i slowly woke up and realised it's my mum's alarm clock -.- she went out w/o switching off, so it has been ringing for like 10mins and invaded my dreams.

we can go further?

tml 5/1 Labour Day but i got DM. nervous and excited at the same time cos its my first DM. tml sure become super noob. well, everyone starts a noob, haha! tml must rmb to buy cheap flip flop. my stupid nike slippers put in office 2 days only and it snap. last time keep wearing, hoping that it will spoil so that i can buy new one also nothing happen. so suay!

graduation! finally im going to graduate from NP, that is like aft 2mths plus of working. maybe that the last time im gonna see you.

ended a 2-day course @toa payoh HDB hub. its Management Development Programme, for 2 days, i learn what we call the intra & inter personel skills, emotional control & more about colleagues from other malls or based at HQ. this course is like just nice before the fun&bonding day. so next week, i wont be awkward in the fun&bonding group, at least know more ppl.

Ystd officially completed 1 month of work, which means 1/3 of the probation is done. still got 2 more months to confirmation. ystd went to west coast plaza, nike warehouse store. saw a pair of shoes that look like what S.H.E had wore before. but still the choices are limited, tried on a pair of high-ankle shoes, looks cool but pay haven come in. then meet up for dinner @Chomp Chomp 11pm. it's a full force gathering, ac, aver, ht, sh, mj, jx, joyce. 8 ppl squeeze into a 7 seater honda stream. lucky i sit at the front, not squeezing at the back and not the driver :) after eating, go prawning! my first time prawning. we split into 2 grp to compete. ac,aver, sh, jx one team mj,ht,joyce and me one team. 头虾goes to sh team, then when we start to play big 2, the prawns starts to come. after 3 hours we had like 20plus prawns. need to start our own fire to bbq, ended up using other ppl fire. this morning we had prawns for breakfast, and a strawberry coco dome cake. celebrated aver's birthday earlier at the prawning place, hai bin! left that place at 6am but i only reach home 445pm.

我不喜欢睡觉 因为我觉得睡觉有点浪费时间 所以我常用睡觉的时间 看影片小说 可以搞到凌晨4 5 点。在不喜欢睡觉的同时 我又是一个不爱起床的人 不会放过任何一个赖床的机会 所以我的人生在决定是否要睡觉和睡了要起床之间拉扯

reaching 1st month of work! time passes real fast, the more things you know the more responsibilities you have. proud of myself for combing B1,Lv2,half of Lv3 and Lv 6 for the upstamping task! i don mind doing more so that we can complete on time, now marketing team can move forward. then there's also packing to be done cos office is going to do reno this month. hope my space is bigger aft the reconfiguration works.

im depressed now, cant stay online for long. last time, 8 to 12, four hours also not enough. now auto, 11pm shut down go sleep. no movie to watch, no stories/news to read. like practically ceased all activities. life become work, sleep, work, sleep. 3rd week into the job. not sure whats wrong with me, cant seem to focus, mind very tired. stress is building up, shall have ample rest during weekend. come on you can do it! find your life back!

如果你喜欢一位偶像 BY 蔡康永

如果你喜欢了一位偶像，

请你一定要去看一场他的演唱会，

亲自去，要亲眼看看他，

好好看看他。

因为舞台上的生命可能持续很久，

也可能转瞬即逝。

你不知道他是属于哪一种。

你无法预测那发光发热的时间究竟还有多少，

你猜不到下一秒他会消失到哪里去。

你什么都不知道，什么都无法把握，

他是你感知世界里无可取代的全部，

但他也是你未知世界里永无交集的一点。

如果你喜欢了一位偶像，

请你一定要让妈妈知道，

因为妈妈是最爱你的人，

而你也深爱着他。

一个很近一个很远，

而你是将两个无关联的生命体糅合于同一空间的凝结点。

告诉她，你很喜欢他，甚至爱他，

也许不被理解，就算不理解，也落得个心安。

不需要太刻意太直接，可以是个简单的暗示——妈妈，看，觉得他怎样？是很棒的一位歌手哦。 让心爱的他若有若无自然而然的在亲爱的妈妈眼里浮光掠影而过，

留下片刻印象。

如果你喜欢了一位偶像，

请你一定要为他写一些文字，

不追求华美，不强求确凿，

只要轻省记录你所有的思念与颤栗，

所有的真实与感悟，所有的明媚与忧伤。

爱如水一般蔓延，浸过你的神经，

划过你的指尖，温柔地抚过你敏感的心。

多多少少也要写点关于他的文字，

零零碎碎记下自己的心路历程，

别让心情在岁月中灰飞烟灭，云消雾散。

不求深刻，但求简单，记下活在你的世界中的他。

如果你喜欢了一位偶像，请你一定认真地喊一遍他的名字，

用含糊的、哽咽的、明朗的、虔诚的、温柔的、宠溺的声音。

在每一个平常的日子里，在每一个心慌意乱的瞬间，

在每一个患得患失的叹息间，在每一个幸福感动的晕洌在每一个想念他的夜晚，

轻轻喊他的名字， 认真地发好每一个音调，

屏住呼吸读出， 一个念头升起又落下，

道出刻骨铭心的覆水难收。

如果你喜欢了一位偶像，

请一定为了他更好地学会生活。

那个已经慢慢渗入你生活点滴的男孩子，

那个使你常常热泪盈眶的男孩子，

那个笑容干净而甜美的男孩子，

那个无论如何长大你始终只愿叫他孩子的男孩子。

你再最美丽的时刻遇见了那个最优秀的男子，

但是上帝没有让你们彼此相遇。

他在那个最绚烂的舞台，光华交汇，歌舞升平，绝世华丽；

而你在最普通的街头，行色匆匆，人头涌动。

两点之间的距离仅仅是思念，别无其他，仿佛触手可及，却遥不可及。

如果你爱他，请你也为他好好寻找自己生活的支点，

不要为他迷失了既定的轨道， 关掉电脑的片刻回归平静，

担当起原来的角色，从哪里来到哪里去。

因为你深爱的他是一个如此心高气傲的人，

他用力诠释着自己的不甘心，用力将自己最好的一面展现，

所以你也用尽全力爱着他。

因为爱他就等于爱着你自己，

爱着因为他而变得更加温柔的自己， 爱他，是本性，是注定，是天然。

要对得起自己的人生，就要尽量给别人的人生添加美好的成分，

拼命地挽留自己遇到的美好的东西，拼命挽留。

他一样，你也如此。

330,田馥甄 生日快乐!

我会像小白象一样虔诚的祈祷 你所许的愿望会一一实现

祝你平安健康 幸福快乐 娜娜早日康复

S.H.E一定会在合体!

haiz...tooth taken out. pain is lingering and hurt my knee :( then now, even my laptop is bullying me, blue screen on me. vaio, what wrong with you? need servicing? pls tell me...

three weeks into work! tml going to take out my wisdom tooth. this means that i got 1-2weeks of liquid food that includes, soup, porridge, milk. what a great way to save $$$!

three yrs in poly, 6 sem, i ended it on a nice note!
didnt realise today is result day until someone reminded me:)
check results before i left for work
2nd week of work, stack with lots of stuffs
nxt week must start on my filing, if not @.@
weekend REST TIME!!!

20/3-- the day i slept the earliest since sec sch life, 9.00pm.
21/3-- the day i felt so stupid.

1st week of work just passed like that...
unlike intern, im not EECC this time round, lots of things to learn and do.
colleagues are super friendly and funny people but when it comes to work, they are professional! imagine myself to be in that position one day, woah! the problem about feeling sleepy aft lunch doesnt stand at all, cos i got no time to get into that mode. did admin work, going through/preparing documents, attend meetings, hectic work. afraid that i'll forget the work, i keep thinking about it before i sleep until i even dreamt about doing it.

我知道心里一直住着一个叛逆的灵魂
工作 没想到会那么快找到
我的计划是现放自己一些假期 做喜欢做的事 休息休息
面试成功 真不知道是要赞自己有本事 还是太倒霉
就这样把自己送进社会工作提早结束自己的学生生活
叛逆的灵魂 接受现实吧

终于看完了S.H.E is the One爱而为一DVD 感谢老天爷让我认识SHE喜欢SHE爱上SHE 这会是我人生做最对的选择之一 十年SHE带给我们很多欢笑快乐 教我们如何用爱用真心去对待生边的人 虽然这次看是笑中带泪 但我很爱SHE我知道她们会从新站上属于她们的舞台 我依然会在台下给她们我最大的支持

我离家出走4天

first day, chalet @Pasir Ris, to celebrate Eddie's 21st Birthday! it's still fin although we only start BBQ-ing at 11plus. One whole day spent in laughters, hope we can have more of such gathering:)

2am, reach tampines, sh gugu's house. bathe and try to catch a wink but again i choke on my saliva -.-
without a sleep,we went to catch the plane. the moment we reach hotel, drop on the bed sleep!
4plus left the hotel to eat nearby, took a taxi to stadium, slack ard there b4 going in. the toilet Q is super super super long!!! concert full house and atmosphere is superb! went back play games and HTHT! slp, next day go Berjaya Times Sq sing K, chill out at Starbucks saw Zax Wang!!! WAHHHH!!!! shop again, go back play games, slp.

last day, go Carrefour there shop. went for massage, it's retribution for singing 'Every day i shock, shock. Every night i shock, shock.'

cab to LCCT, rushed to catch the plane. so other than fats, we got other memorable things that we can keep for life.

BRF finally ended. no more chin chow, yea!
less than 24hours before i fly and i got so many things to do!
dental appt, change cash, shop for shoes with MJ, Eddie's chalet,mahjong-ing.
Woah~! i need energy for all these activities!
bag still left with some small items, later must rmb to check again.
my 1week of holidays starts NOW!!!!

tml is my last paper in NP. and i haven start revising now!!!
this morning had driving lesson at 7AM, cos he say got buy the 7am driving ticket.
WTH!!!! in the end also don have! end up having a spin ard Ubi area. shit! #%&^!*^%*$&(@^
finally renew my PDL, been driving for a month with expired PDL?! lucky nvr get caught, if not jiu demerit points.

finally get to sleep in late for today but i guess i woke up real too late.
so there goes my plan of studying at NLB. change it to home instead.
already no voice but i still eat pocky(chocolate) today, ytsd eat calamari rings, the day before drink caramel hot choco @ Starbucks.

last presentation in SCH has ended officially!!! woo~~hoo~~~!!!!
the day before presentation still went to sing K even though i'm like losing my voice.
great K-out session!!!! i'm lovin it~! morning did the prototype of a credit card.
though it looks kind of kiddy, not really that great but i'm proud of it! i did my best making it as real as possible:) presentation+Q&A is great i think. we did a good job!

明天是上学的最后一天
曾经那么期待这一天的到来
如今却希望别那么快
好舍不得

hahaha!!! i drew this in less than a min, together with a less than 300 (or maybe more ba) words talking crap about my creative product, is the only thing that is original in my report. this is my crapiest report ever. just glad that it done and be gone!

last step to employment: medical checkup

pass it, i can kiss goodbye to holidays, student life, student benefits.

then i'll open my arms to welcome working life, the stable monthly income, be financially independent. of course work is more than all these things, i don know what will come but hope i can adapt and handle it well.

source of pressure is me

CNY day 1

afternoon cook food and prepare.
change new location @ woodlands. a healthy cny i presume.
no alcohol no gambling. just eat and watch tv.

CNY day 2

relatives visit us, so spent the day preparing food, be my mum's professional stir-er. no electricity but not exactly cheap, hehe.

CNY day 3

visited my grandaunt @ Telok Blangah. then spent 1hr15mins on bus 10 to Tampines. the moment i stand up, i cant feel my butt. gambling starts at Tampines! whole night play blackjack with sh's relatives! nice luck!

新年快乐！！！ 祝大家身体健康 平安喜乐！


okay, back to my mountain of assignments....