后来 我总算学会了如何去爱 可惜你早已远去消失在人海
后来 终于在眼泪中明白 有些人一旦错过就不再

那天唱K突然很喜欢这首歌 真是老歌派的 不过有些老歌真的很好听 百听不厌
这首刚好填补我对To Hebe的渴望

田馥甄的To Hebe已经听到了Love和寂寞寂寞就好两首歌 前几天有多3首50s的歌出来
虽然只有短短50s但我还是控制自己不去听 我要在9/3那天有惊喜去细细品尝着等了两年的专辑

今天是田馥甄发片记者会！双喜阿！！ 祝馥甄专辑销量飚高！也祝我自己生日快乐:)

ystd went back sch, 气死我了，cos i cal. the travelling time wrongly so ended up reaching there 1hr earlier-.- spent my time at makan place, went to class on time but lecturer late. wow. 2.49 he start his life story, 6mins later he give out paper. aft 15mins he finally going to start going thrgh qn1. one hr later, we only covered finish qn1, so everyone abit sian, go makan place buy fruits to snack. come back, he tried to go bit faster but not much diff to me. most .... thing is when he uses his shoes to wipe the whiteboard. (i'm lost for words,无语) frm 2.30 to later than 5.30, aft frantically copying the answers he going thrgh. he handed out the FULL COMPLETE MODEL ans to class rep.

bootlicking, sweet talking, it's not that i don know how to do, 是我不屑这么做．if not turning up for class, being late for half the lesson, doesnt hand up tutorials until term is ending then persuade lecturer to accept and he does, if all these can still get you an AD/A for the module, then i'm worried for the future generation. the word "hardworking" will soon be removed from the dictionary.

Hebe田馥甄-《寂寞寂寞就好》MV (清晰)

awesome~~!!!! i love this song:D

yea~~! back home from tampines. return the cable tv box then 顺便 do manicure. express one, not bad ba. then i saw a laptop table? at Action city. 看起来满实用的ha, but it cost 59.90 they don sell lomo camera there:(
haven do ref quiz yet>.< can the quiz be on 寂寞寂寞就好? the lyrics, her voice, the melody, everything is stuck in my head.

its goodbye to Starhub, welcome Mio tv. nothing much to be happy about cos im giving up all my chinese show for EPL-.- also nothing to be sad cos i cant really watch those programs at home, internet is faster than them:) but why am i the one to return these things:( tml still got final ref quiz then friday still need to go back sch. hope my trip back sch is meaningful adn fruitful.

just days before turning 19, my cousin is giving birth to baby Elisabeth(i think that the name:) ) wah, thats another niece, one more person to call me aunt, nonooonoono... must train them to call 姐姐.

went back to sch on a YOG holiday,just for a 2-hr closed book quiz(test). this quiz consist of 4qns,its just like a mock exam paper-.- Mr T, he is one of a kind person. delay my time, ended up reaching home 7plus. 7plus start cooking so i had a super late(to me) dinner @830pm. today i tried 咖喱鸡排盖饭. a new improve version i came up with one night before sleeping, taste great:)

stay at home today to do REF quiz. it look more like REI to me though. anyway, the lecture book is of no use cos it so not organize that i don know where to start looking for infomation. so i did it my way, try&error. not too bad, cos i finish trying in 1hr45mins:) okay, that reminds me that i need to go study for REI quiz that is on friday. X/

Woah! lucky i did not buy the holga camera ystd. cos it's much more cheaper in Sg. saw this shop, the toy camera shop. they got more varieties and cheaper products. wah!! i cant wait to get one:)

this is bad!! why again no pre-order in Singapore?!?! OMG, i hate this type of feeling. no security at all and 9/3 i have exam! arrgghhh!!

Went to JB-city square with ht,mj,joyce&wd. poor wd, being the only guy there:) but we did try to walk into more men's wear shops. the kenny R. there isnt as nice as the one i ate in Genting. and they went to do manicure, mj joyce wd! dinner is at Kim Gary, the curry baked rice is spicy! the longest time i spent is at Action City. cos i saw the LOMO camera. then the person recommend holga. RM200, i almost bought it. but i think i shall go search online. spent more than 12hrs outside and came home with a heavy bag of tibits for my family

today went to collect the fan club tee @ Esplanade. i wanted to wake up like at 8am to watch 秀才爱上兵2 but i couldnt leave my dear bed.:) so i start watching from 10plus to 1pm to cover the final 3 episodes. guess what? the meeting to collect club tee is at 1.30pm. i only have 30mins to change,walk to mrt, board it and then walk to there from city hall. i would be superwoman if i could:P late and rushing with empty stomach.

skip the collecting part, went to shop at Funan. but before that i need to fill my stomach with smth. stop over at OCK, the aunty whom i assume is the cashier and has more authority than the rest is busy counting money. i call one time no respond. then some1 from the back walk out with a tray of fresh fried squids. i ordered again, she ask me to wait. wait wad? wait for her to finish transferring the squids to the display there. then she help me take what i want. it doesnt end here okay, cos i waited again for the cashier to finish counting her cash before she can process my purchase and give me my change. so i turned from a happy smiling customer to 包青天.

second happening is at this shop, on the same level with food junction. i dunno whats the name but it says "Creative Authorize Reseller". anyway, this shop sells all the headphones, one special thing, it displays the headphones available on the rack for customers to test if needed. so i went in trying to look for "BOSE" headphone. when i found it, i asked the salesman if there is still stock for this, guess what he say?

'这个很贵的嘞' (you think i cant afford?)

hello?! btw your answer doesnt match my qns!! so i asked him how much they selling, so he ask another person. that person say 200plus and he tell me 299. excuse me, 200plus and 299 is very different okay? 200plus = can be 200.05 to 299.95
final outcome? of cos i didnt buy from there

today, or shld i say ystd..went teo heng with mj joyce kim. sing frm 1-7, my gosh! frm Cpop to Kpop then back to old sch & oldies. fun man! dinner is shabu shabu @ Katong there. super full and its nice:) Went back home, first thing is to watch mv full version. stunning Hebe, i like the way the animals were featured inside, the horse especially. hee:)) i just finish wtching madagascar 2 and i'm going off to sleep zzZZ

20100811 田馥甄首张个人专辑《To Hebe》第一波主打《LOVE!》全球首播

by 田馥甄 [TO HEBE]

ystd ended with 2 presentations done, one to panel in sch an one to the mgnt of WS. yipee!! its holiday for me now. tday 8/11, i wanted to catch live on radio. so i digged out the muzee usb internet radio to tune in the the taiwan's channel, hit fm. but i waited so long also nvr hear, then i realise youtube alrdy got full ver. of the song cos S'pore 100.3 had play it and so had Cityfm of taiwan. -.- i wanted to buy Hebe's album thrgh taobao but they have complicated steps making me damn confused!!

is it really that hard to figure what to buy for my birthday? cos my mum asked me what i want, my friends ask the same qns and i ask myself, what do i want?? hmm... maybe these can offer some help:

-laptop cooling pad ( the one i bought in sch, frm 3fans become 1fan-.- i don want to risk of having the cooling fan spoil again)

- earpiece/headphone ( hee:) i don mind receiving lots of this cos mine usually don last longer than 2yrs

-book( 这些年二哥哥很想你By 九把刀)

-bag? watch? but i hven found the one i'm looking for

oh, starting frm this yr, i want to make donation every yr on my birthday. i haven decide on the organisation yet. 得到别人的祝福是件很幸福的事 传递祝福是件更有意义的事 give&receive, anyone interested to join me can let me know. or you can do that on your birthday too, it'll be meaningful:)

today had lunch with family at Sakae sushi in Kovan. before lunch i went to the world of sports in Kovan to look for Keds shoes. they still have some stocks but they are not importing anymore:( the one at Kovan only got 1 color which i don like. so we went Vivo city to find. there got more colors, red, blue black and beige. got color but no size-.- so depressing.. Walk around with mummy, just as we pass pedder red, i just got the feeling to go in hence i dragged her in. and there! i saw Keds shoes! they got the baby blue and this orange. wanted the blue one but they don have size so i took the orange one! cool!

today, finishing BQC marks the end of the crazy projects chiong-ing time! no dateline to meet can relax abit first. hehe:) before starting on the presentations and exam






把你的完美轮廓印在我心里

photo taking + a great time to catch up with the 6mth interns:)

等了一年多，终于来了新歌的CF。很舒服的一首歌，歌词真的反应我的心情。期待整张专辑跟大家见面

亲子盖饭，从S.H.E 上型男大主厨学做的, 大成功！

After Shock <唐山大地震>

The name and the poster left a deep imprint in my mind. So before the release of this movie, i'm already anticipating for it. I had read reviews about the movie before i enter the movie theater to watch. Well, this movie really live up to its expectations. For a Singaporean like me who has never experience earthquake or any other natural disasters before, i felt like i've been through the earthquake in the movie. The effects used in the movie isn't as fanciful as but it makes the movie more real. The casts were great in their acting, especially Ning Yun(the mother 0f the twins). Her screams and wails when she saw her husband's body and the tough decision to save only one of her children was heart-wrenching. They potray the vulnerable side of human when faced with natural disasters real good. Kudos to Mr. Feng Xiao Gang and his team! It's a teary movie so for those who are going to watch, bring more tissues:)

*只有失去了才知道什么是失去* 做人要知足要感恩

一票难求的演唱会, this has gotta be Jay Chou's concert. i waited for 2 yrs and finally im there to watch!! but before the concert, i went for his autograph session. i didnt sign any cos mine pre-ordered album doesnt come with the ticket to the session>.<

concert day, 7/24/10. i reach there @ 6pm, 2hrs earlier to queue fr his merchandise. out of the 3 concerts i went, this vendor who sells his merchandise is the most organise one. at least they had set up the barriers to arrange the queue neatly then they provide order form, so while waiting you can tick your order. plus they give lastest stock updates intervals. seating: this is the first time i sit at the balcony, 3rd level. luckily, Jay Chou faces our side more than the west balcony. *at least that how i feel:P* one of the best concert i've watched

Sands Sky Park

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Sands Sky Park

the lastest hotel deveoped in Singapore. and i get to enjoy a night stay at there for FREE, thnks!! Twr 3 Rm3022, the room is fantastic, very modern chic designs. the toilet is huge and without lock, haha! comfy bed an FLUFFY pillow! its so fluffy i'm gonna die~~~ watch HBO in the room, 21, centre stage, centre stage 2, until 630 am. then we are supposed to wake up at 7 to go swim at the pool but everyone got stuck to the bed. so i missed my sun rise( egg yolk) cos when i getup its alrdy up high in the sky. the view by the pool is great cos it faces the city, can see fullerton, floating platform. wish i could go back again

music, some songs really brings back memories. like ystd, i heard WESTLIFE- My Love, still rmb i love to repeat this song on my walkman disc. rmb the days when mp3 and ipod were not widely use, discman is like the ipod now. so whenever i go out, need to carry the discman and cds out. come to think of it, lucky that time i hadnt bought a lot of cds, if not i can die from carrying it.

S club 7- Never had a dream come true. this song is attached to my primary school memories. or shld i rightly say, the year when i'm 11-12.

life is interesting, in pri sch, i wasnt in the very smart class, had problem staying awake but overall results not too bad. then surprisingly, i got into the top 3 class in pri 3. but i drop out of the class the following year. then i drop further in pri 5 even though i had improve. but now, i'm glad that i drop to 5KI, cos i met rally good friends there. we are close with the teachers and the whole class is united for 2 years before we graduate. that time i cant imagine my life without my clique, how am i to survive the 4yrs in sec?

but alas, time do help ppl to adapt to changes. even though most of us are in the same sch but we are in diff class, and slowly you find them difting away. just when i thought i lose some, God gave me more. the days in Sec sch really shines especially with netball. one netball brings about a 6yrs plus friendship. i know it will be still counting gals:)

not the typical goody good students, we play hard, help out in events, orgainse some, lead the sch, had surprises, play pranks, disobey the guards and once we almost fight with gangs! most of the teachers like us cos of our enthusiasm and initiative. did alot of things i nvr imagine i wld have done, ah~~~memories

my white blood cells are about to be defeated my the flu bug! it feels terible:(

let me think, what i did today?? okay, i dint had breakfast in the morning until i reach sch which is rare cos i always had it at home. just that today home ran out of bread so i bought a sandwhich and eat in sch. walk to bus stop just to bid farewell to 154 in my face! shit bus, so i hugged my laptop and stand for godness knows how long( time 100%pass slowly whenever i carry my laptop cos its HEAVY) finally 154 came again, as usual its a single deck handicap friendly bus(again i say 'shit you bus' in my head), i wonder where did the double deckers goes,hmmmm? lucky today is youth day( the only lucky thing is all sch from pri to jc have holiday EXCEPT POLY students, again shit you) so no need to squeeze with all the youths, only had to deal with OLss and OM(office men). cant sleep today in bus, had a headache but some guy made it worse by stepping on my poor foot. btw, his shoe soles are damn hard! my poor left foot had to suffer. then blah blah blah, aft 2 hrs lecture, i cmi liao. grab a nap before the next one start but hehe, i couldnt wake up until half an hour later.

sch just started but im alrdy thinking about my next getaway. i want go bali next, for holiday,spa and sun tanning. plus all the seafood there, although i may risk having rashes but i don care. tml will get spm result haha! so far i collected 8765 score,realise alot of carelessness but haha, no ones perfect! guess my perfectionist as a Virgo doesnt apply in sch grades. with this week gone, i have 5 more weeks of sch b4 YOG break which is about one month. so 5weeks= 15days of lessons. then break one month then exams. this is a very weird arrangement but lets nt bother bout it. enjoy my time now!

Day 2


its theme park day! we had dim sum breakfast in the morning,the auntie had attitude prob again-.- but we all learn one thing: patience then queue up for tickets(movie & theme park) and off we go! 海陆空 we tried all these 3 types of rides, but i think we are in the air more. cockscrew, flying chair, space shoot. also tried the cycle raft(dunno wad its call), pirate train, pirate ship and go kart,indoor roller coaster and bumper car! eat dinner shop awhile then off we go for our movie: karate kid.


day 3

leaving today, shop we only manage to shop awhile then go for our flying coaster before heading back to check out. just when we thought we were going to leave at 2.30 our bus ride shifted to 3.30, rush back to play one last time arcade and eat ice-cream. the trip back also took 7hrs, on the way i space out, saw alot of plantations and 3 buffaloes.

my first oversea trip with friends, it start well and end well. that is one happy memory an i want to go back to play all the rides again!

back frm the trip, tired and hungry.

day 1.

aft having only sleeeping for like 2hrs, we woke up at 5 to wash up. thanks sy for driving us there. aft we board the bus, its sleeping time all the way to checkpoint. thats where the queueing time starts. aft 7 hrs of ride, we finally reach Genting Highlands. first meal at there= KFC. then spend about one hr to queue for check in. rest awhile and its shopping time! walk ard the shops, look see look see. then meet some ppl who gives us attitude prob.had dinner at the foodcourt, then play haunted advanture. pay money to get frightened by scary things. then archery, its fun!! late night arcade-ing being rambo or some nba player shooting hoops or race like a F1 racer. our day ended at 3am.

tml cont day 2

woah, going to leave tml morning le. 不可思议啊！its so exciting! im going to enjoy this trip ttm. cos aft this trip, i'll be drop dead busy!

i'm totally speechless towards my intern boss. first i msg him, no reply. msg the 2nd in charge, asking whether i can go down to pick up my cheque tml( since that time he call me to say that the cheque has alrdy been ISSUED for a long time) but she say only mon aft can. SUDDENLY~~~he called me.......*OS in my head*

boss: guifeng ah, can you help me CHECK cpf how to calculate your pay?
me: huh? *wad?! check again!!!*
boss: i don want to short change you all
me: .....ok...
boss: you know right, my camera and your camera is the same...
me: ya * so wad went wrong with you d5000 again*
boss: how come i take pic now, come out is 3 shots ah?
me: you need to change the settings * haiz...you set in multiple shots of cos come out 3 larh, duh...*
boss: oh, then monday aft you come down collect the cheque help me change the setting
me: o.O i wont be in Spore
boss: oh whr you go? when are you coming back?
me: oversea, tue night
boss: then you come on wed lor
me: wed i got meeting*you think i super free everyday sit at home wait for money to fly in ah*
boss: then when you can make it
me: nxt fri * almst vomit blood alrdy*
boss: ok, nxt fri you come collect then help me change

excluding sunday, i already rotted away 3 days of my 2-week holidays. sunday meet aver sh ht and mj to discuss what to bring for genting trip. then mon watch 'A nightmar on elm street' some scene quite gross larh, suitable for scary horror movie. then tue go dental burn 55bucks, went to buy father's day present, 74.90 and change money for the trip. today slept till 1pm cos morning watch brazil-north korea. today spain is disappointing:( dn waste your chances maN! okay, NOW Is 12.14am, so i shld say later in the afternoon, i should really start packing my bag for the trip or my nightmare of not packing thus cannot go will come through

what i did for the day


sleep till 12plus also die die don want to wake up. wake up go downstair to get screen protectorsss(dunno why both gadgets came off tgt)and my lunch= a packet of $2 soup(save $$$) from 2plus to 5 stoning then napping and stoning(cycle goes on...) 5plus on laptop watch HAPPY SUNDAY.this show is on air in 2003 -2004 start to watch till 7, eat dinner watch the show. then go organize folders in my laptop till now. haven start serious studying at all. how?!?!?!!!?!?!?!

oh great! i nvr tot i would use tweeter one day, but now i m using it and its the CHinese version one! OMG!! haha, cant wait to see more of their updates

周杰伦！！！yes! i can complete my concert going goal for this year!!! my third concert to watch on 24 july 10. i waited so long to watch jay chou's concert,wah finally its coming!

omg, its june alrdy!! so fast, coming to the half of 2010, CT next week. end on a stupid sat>:( im lost man, and fyp still got alot to catch up. haizzz but i cant wait for genting trip!!! comon~!!

5/29

OMG day. today i wish i was in taiwan to watch SHE is the one concert. but i cant because i cant fly there w/o parents permission and not enough money plus no more tickets liao. but i receive a HUGE surprise, SELINA REN has reveal her relationship with the lawyer. OMG!!! i wish you hapiness, princess!!! to the lawyer: you better treat our princess well, if not becareful of the thousands thousands of fans out thr. hmmm wonder when its HEBE and ELLA turn?

i always happen to see photography students doing their field prac in sch. remind me of my own photography experience. the 4 hrs class always seem so short and we like to "eat snake" just chill out at sudio27, so relax. i wish i could turn time back

*sighX10000* i wonder how many cells have i kill...tue is like my movie day,2 weeks ago its monga then ystd is IP MAN 2. Mon is dinner day, eat from asian kitcen to the ice cream shop then to mac before going home. got alot of things due but no mood to do anything. ytsd night packed my shelve before slp. no, shld be before i start reading chinese novel on my ipod in the wee hours. suay ah, got i listenn to music and read then get caught by mum-.- at 4 am. pretend to slp first then when she go back i start reading again cos im alrdy towards the end, cant stop liao. who knows she come check 2nd time?! so ipod got confiscated for 6 hrs cos i got it back at 10 am aft she left for work. tonight no strength to stay up late cos i really very tired.

alrdy into week 3 of sch. down with flu is terrible, now my throat hurt, nose block, cant breathe, feeling hot and cold. flu bug faster go away, i want to be back to normal

first week of sch gone~today don need to wake up at 730 for work cos there isnt any. went kovan to had lunch,Sakae sushi then go bugis walk walk. 21st birthday presents are hard to buy! in 2more yrs time, its gonna be hell for me.

i cnt believe that his words hurt me so much! im still angry at the thought of it. i felt so wronged and who is he to comment abt my character! ARRGRGRGRHHHH!!!!!!

17 Apr, PART I

ystd concert, damn high!! it was really fun, Hebe is high cos she did talk more than usual. the crowd is also good, everyone had red light sticks and when the lights went out, its a red sea:) i love it when the whole crowd sing along damn loudly and it happen quite a few times ystd! SHE say the crowd singing is good,haha!!

PART II

aft SHE concert, wait for MJ cos she's at MAyday,so SH and i manage to see the fireworks at Mayday concert. then we went to see SHE off at the back exit. I saw them in the car thrgh the damn tinted glass panels. i must say, with them around, my eyesight is suddenly so crystal clear. three of us plus HT cab down to Aver hse. meet AC at the bus stop and soend the night at Aver hse. haha!! she git a shock when we tell her we had a gathering and she is the only one not here yet. watch SHE's the MAn till 5plus 6 am in the morning before i sleep for 3 hrs

18Apr

Q at PS 12pm, sun bloody hot, Q bloody long till istana alrdy. sleep in my Q cos from 12 to 5 is a long long wait. SH come find me at 230, had lunch and play monopoly to kill time. then 5 we were move closer to the stage but too short cant see them sing, all i do is HEAR! and everyone is sweaty,it really crowded that you can move w/o walking. spend abt 1hr plus in the suffocating crowded b4 i get to SHE.

OMG, this is thte first time they say smth other than 'thank you' to me.
seating arrangement: Ella,Selina,Hebe

i walk up then first is Ella, she sign then look up, shake hand, saw my 'UP' t-shirt and exclaim: so cute~!
then Selina heard then she sign, shake hand and said the name of 'UP' in chinese with the super cute voice.
lastly its Hebe, she didnt say anything but she keep looking at my shirt but she did smile at me when i shake her hands.
woah, my shirt had just gotten their attention, thats so cool~~!!

finally, tml final 4hrs and its goodbye to the alexcier.

SHE is the one concert, the wait doesnt seem as long as the previous time because of the eventful happening that i went thrgh everyday at work, made me so tired that i have no time to sleep. but i believe tml wld be a great night, the concert that i have been waiting since last yr Oct,SHERO!!!

bloody shit! today didnt manage to buy the Jay Chou tickets, arrggghh!! i waited at the com so long, so many ppl that the sistic site hang, hotline engage, counter long queue! next week, i will try again, this time must get!!! 2 more days to SHE concert!! woohoo~~~!!!

it's into the last week of attachment, and officially counting down to SHE concert and Aver's birthday. wah, ystd went for chalet,had lots of fun, tried volka rasberry mixed with spirit, eh taste like the medicine i had taken when im young but aft that, not bad. mine face went flushed-red super fast but im not drunk okay. then in the morning, left at 7am while they rest were dead asleep exceot for joyce and jiahui.then go QING MING at bishan, went to 2 temples, breathe in lots of smoke, endure the heat and fighting to desire to sleep. i only slept at 3pm and woke up at 6pm

Saw Jay Chou concert advertisment, start selling o 14 Apr. must faster go buy, wah the there goes my $440. and this yr i thinki watch alot of concert when its not even half a year past. SHE,SHOW,JAY money ah$$$$$$$

been extremely tired for this 2 days.whole body aching like mad cos on tue i jio MJ for dinner then she jio WD. suppose to be at CHINATOWN(that's my idea) but who knows the food centre didnt open, closed dunno for wad. also nvr put notice, so we walk to Maxwell market, but there don have BBQ stingray, so WD walk for lau pa sat to meet us and we walk back to lau pa sat AGAIN,haha sorry larh! MJ + WD = bickering + LOTS of laughter! aft dinner walk to Fullerton Hotel(0.0) BUS STOP, to take bus home. on the way change of plans, decided to go eat tau huay @ geylang but must go aljunied first cos someone haven eat dinner at home. He finish liao then we walk to geylang then aft that sent MJ to bus stop(paya lebar) then from there we walk home. we saw rats but got scared by some idiot who rides the bicycle w/o sound suddenly appear next to me-.- slept at 1 woke up @ 6

ystd went to penisular to meet MJ and HT, cheat my feelings made me walk around to look for them. guess what, they 2 of them were singing twinkle twinkle little star and bah bah black sheep on the bus, comparing if the 2 song share the same melody.

i wonder if i cld write in my fortnightly log what kind of EXTRA work he made me do. today is on N97 voice recording, when he throw me this task, i was rolling my eyes like no one's business. why dont you be a jack of all trades? go write your own sofeware program? go live in your own world, with your own rules and regulations, your own system of work. and my other task for the day is call call and call!

today whole family went out for lunch, supposedly to celebrate my brother's birthday. wanted to eat at fortunate restaurant, dim sum!! but who knows, that place had been book by a church, so we change to crystal jade, there got buffet lunch, also alot of ppl. then sizzler not so attracting, so is pizza hut. took a train down to bishan, there got ding tai fung, also alot of ppl, went in to sit at wanchai hongkong cafe, but got nothing appealing to us in the menu. so our final decision is thai express. i quite like thai food now, taste good. that was like 2plus alrdy and its my first meal cos i skipped breakfast this morning.

end of week 5

work is tiring, its a chore, it became the most dreadful thing when you find no joy in it. and you have to swallow all the bitterness down w/o complaining and plaster a smile on your face to say: 'oh, i'm sorry...'
原来在工作社会里，我们少了自我，变得虚伪多虑。

finally got my SHERO today, 2 version! Kovan Mj service is bad!their SAs got attitude problem and they are clueless about what they sell, need me, the customer to tell them.

why is my sixth sense so accurate? can you be less accurate, see larhh.. what shld i do now..

18Apr, SHE vs AVER
regardless which one i choose, i wont be 100% happy on that day
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i miss the times when we were so free, if you have notice(maybe you didnt/dont care/dont bother) i dont organise outings now anymore(excluding the birthdays)
no bball
no movies
no bbq
no more outings that requires getting more than 5 other ppl.

now,for the birthdays, even getting 5 ppl is tough, to fix a date is especially blood boiling!aft fixing the date, still have to come up with the events for the day.
everytime its me who start emailing,then reply is not "okay, lets do XXXXX" but "i not free leh" or "what we do that day".

buying presents also a BIG problem, cos its always the same few ppl to think of what to buy for every year.
eveyone gives the same reason, im very busy. ya, you busy, she busy, he also very busy, so i look like the DAMN SUPER CAREFREE one larh!!

then when im busy, i got chided. when i had to work on new year eve, i became the party spoiler, im a christmas spoiler too cos i work on that day. turn up late for movies also got nagged at just becos i didnt leave work on time. Im just an employee and now a lowly paid attachee, can put yourselves in my shoes?? im not the BOSS.

the only time im not saddled with all this plannings and frustrations is on my birthday. IF my birthday also brings you such frustrations and difficulty, do away with it.

if in the begining of attachment, i hold hopes of having an enjoyable and enriching time in this 7 weeks, then now all i can say is PUI!
stop sticking gold onto your face, you wldnt turn into a priceless statue that millionairs wld bid for, stop telling us how much we will benefit by learning from you cause i haven see that result as you heave boasted, stop acting like a nobel man in taking us into your company cos you are not, if you are, you wld have gotten the Nobel Prize and shut your mouth up on bullshiting all this crap to me.

3 big issues he hinted:

lunch time

whats wrong with having hr lunch time? its the norm practices thrghout all offices, some even had 2 hrs. don tell me you finsh your lunch in 2mins, thats crap! besides you always had someone to buy for you, mind you, we had to buy our own food and not being serve like a master.


leaving at 6pm

fyi, we nvr leave at 6 on the dot on days you werent in. we only start to pack at 6, by the time we step out, its alrdy 6.05pm. why shldnt we leave at 6pm? i was told by the letter send by sch, don think i'll be scared just cos you are a lawyer. excuse me, im not a layman in law, i learn the basic and i know my rights. dont start telling me, when you have a passion for your work, you wldnt mind leaving at 9pm. talk to me agian if you are going to share your 1~2% commission with me, i might CONSIDER, if not just SHUT UP! i'm only taking $440 allowance/mth from you, why shld i work like someone who is earning the commission.

aft work time

now you start to preach that aft work we shldnt think of relaxing,go dating etc. we shld spend time reading up on info, blah blah blah... then let me ask, other than work, dont your life revolve ard your kids? bring them go watch movies, jurong safra and all whats not. HEY! if you can enjoy family time why we cant? my purpose here is to learn as much as i can within 7weeks, you have NO RIGHT to interfere with what im going to do aft 6pm. and for so many days i have been leaving at 630,7,7plus, its all no OT okay!!


lastly

can you pls learn how to search for info thrgh the net? don act like an idiot, MOM, jurong safra, cpf, high court,credit cards and all rubbish, they are all available in google. if you know how to go espn star and liverpool website, i see no reason why you dk how to use google to search, you are just plain lazy! this is what image you protray to me when you keep asking me to search all these.

dedicated to granny

grandparents, ppl usually have a maximum of 4, 2 grandmas,2 grandpas. For me, i'm special cos i have another 2. we are not blood related, not of the same race nor the same religion, but i see them as grandparents. Is this feasible? Why not? they are my old neighbors. For 30yrs, they watch my mum grow up, getting married, the growing up of my brother and I. For my whole 19yrs, i see them every single day,every CNY they will give us red packet, hari raya, they will share their food with us. i cant converse in malay, so we dont have long talks, only brief chat, always they will say, study hard, you are smart girl etc, always encouraging.

granny passed away ystd night at the hospital,i know she wldnt have any more suffering now. maybe she has become an angel,maybe she met my other grandmums,maybe..

today, i cried during breakfast, on the bus ride to work and now typing this. But aft today, i wont cry anymore when thinking of you, granny, because you are always a happy lady, i want to rmb you in a happy way.

asshole!!!! thats what i feel like saying when my boss came back @ 5.59pm! so jian!!! we cld have leave at 6 but we had to stayed till 640. no ot okay!!! we have to tolerate all these bullshit crap becos it concerns our gpa, precious credits. wth, protect internship students!!! stop treating us like cheap labour!

wahh...i think this yr i will be watching alot of concerts. 17 Apr-->SHE 22May-->Show Luo then still got Jay Chou in July(tba) i think can be sistic regular customer liao, from lst yr yoga concert to SHA then still got Kobe's event.
tsk tsk tsk, must go find another part time job now. then got money to spend and save. waiting for my account to pass the $2000 mark, maybe next month can make it:)

just nw shopping at Suntec, found this shoe shop, Daphne, endorse by SHE in taiwan. at first i was talking to joyce then i saw a pic that look super familiar, its SHE on the cover of the shoe box, no wonder look so familiar. then i look up, eh! is this shop, haha!! went in to look ard, quite ex leh, took a pic too

$$$$ i'm in need to the valuable papers. can my $440 come faster? call me kiasu, cos i alrdy ordered SHERO from Kovan MusicJunction. just becos there is no pre-order doesnt mean you cant make reservation. anyway, they better reserve for me, i hate to wait unnecessarily. so i prefer to make sure that if its releasing on 26, i'll get it on that day or at most one day later. they have to TOP GIRL concert shirts and towel in Spore, by right its only available in Taiwan. 1 for $35, 3 designs and the towel is $25. if you re thinking that i have spent another hundred dolars then you are wrong! haha, i only made order for 1 shirt also dk got confirm anot. 26 go their office, at CISCO there, so near my hse. go there see they need part time anot? go earn some money then maybe can see SHE when they come to Spore. hohhoho~~!!!haven slp jiu start to dream liao

today is crazy, whole morning burrying my head in the newspaper doing listing. then take lunch break, aft lunch boss call and say he bringing us to meet clients, told us to bring paper and pen. so sudden! met one client and bishan 8 and the other at one jervois. woah! we went into a duplex masionette, but to clients its referred as a duplex penthouse. its beautiful, he taught us how to handle clients wad we shld do etc. looks like he going to let us handle clients soon,die. then we went to visit showflats. LOL! he introduce us to the JL agent as his 'wife' and 'sister'. all along i trying hard not to laugh. cant he just say we are his nieces, jean poor thing need to play his wife while i'm the sister. haha! then we go look at GCB again! haizz...headache and car sickness

hohoho.. i went kite flying again today! this time i went to buy a $2.80 kite, octopus one, cute right? then i also brought along the kite that doesnt fly. hoping that dad can fly it for me. went to the barrage and it start to drizzle-.- wait alil while more, then we decide to fly the octopus first. within 5mins, octopus, being an octopus, it's not meant to be flying up in the sky, they belong to the sea. so my octopus, haven even fly anywhere break off and jump into the sea. had no choice only left ne kite so we tried to fly it. it did fly abit longer then last week, but weather is not on our side, the rain gets heavier and we are the last to leave, so all wet. lucky my dslr not wet, so we cam-whore ard there b4 going home.

i'll be back, barrage! wait till daddy modify the kite

today my flats spoil!! haizz...spent money on new flats cos the other one @ home is not suitable for work, very bling bling! haha..yea! boss never come today, but i still leave @2. he give me more work to do, hope i didnt mess it up. anyway, went back to psr to return uniforms and key plus collect my 1day pay. hmmm..will kind of miss working there, like every sun day, me and huihui will chat about everything, gossip to headline news then start thinking wad to eat for lunch, she will help me decide for dinner too cos she only stay till 6. deborah and cindy taught me lot of stuff, ah shiong for letting me play with the snow-like-ice in his fridge.well, they will see me soon cos my fyp is on whitesands, so i can drop by often:)

today is one of my worst day, although boss brought us out to check hse no. but i still went home late. late nvm but i got headache while slping on bus, then feel so tired and hungry and gastric pain! wth!! i almost die on the streets. tml is fri, still got sat before i get my break which is sun. co'mon still got 5 more weeks to go

saw Mv just now, woah! its damn cool sia. hot eh! and the heels super high and thin! can wait for 26march. don like no pre-order, i will feel hen mei you an quan gan. hope on 26, i can sneak to tiong bahru during lunch to buy, aft work i scare sold out, then i can really die

hohoho..today marks the end of week 1. ended with a tutorial by boss on letter of intend. so from 1 pm i drag to 330pm. then rush down to ps watch movie, percy jackson. ok i'm not slow, just couldnt find time to watch so drag till now. aft movie, went thai express to eat. nice tom yum seafood soup and pineapple fried rice. dessert is glutinous rice with mango and coconut milk,just nice to be shared by 2 cos 1 person eat is too much.

counting down to new album: SHERO!!

heard a few of the songs, nice!! cant wait for the album

work is boring in comparison to sch.cos its missing on the friends part, i miss playing monopoly during breaks. now work, everyday worried about being late, got sit anot(same as sch), what to eat for lunch, work can finish on time anot. 3 days i everyday about 7 then leave, also dk work ot for wad, also no ot pay.

now im going to be super familiar with landed properties in district 10. everynight i sleep, i see lot nos running thrgh my mind

if you ask me how attachment is like now, i cant really answer..cos its only my second day at work.my boss say he will give us project,he ask you all got do project in poly? hahaha..we just politely nod heads but inside me, im screaming HELL, not again!!! think the biggest challenge is to keep awake in afternoon. in sch still got ppl play monopoly with me now got com also don dare go fb, youtube or baidu. and the com is bloody lag. another reason to kill myself. numbers thats wad i see everyday. Ohya btw, im in an agency and not management-.-

tml is start of attachment, hope things goes well and smooth. best is learnt smth there. the weather is freaking hot, my energy is being taken up by the heat.

ystd went to JB, city square. a very last min decision. shop around, eat, shop again. yea, thats about it. then rush back to attend my primary sch class gathering! it's at devon's house, supposed to start at 6 but drag to dk wad time. we play zong ji mi ma with the box of iced water, like kids. then cont. to rochor beancurd stall before we go home. had many laughter when we talk about the days:)

finshed reading my 3rd storybook, its a chinese romance. surprised? i am. i dk when but i rmb saying i wouldnt read romance cos they are not as nice as psycho murder, like alex cross. but i still did in the end, and its in chinese. that the second book i read by 橘子. 《知识好朋友？！》and 《不爱，也是一种爱》. now, i'm waiting to complete her 《对不起》系列。

初次认识我的人或我不熟的人，应该对我没什么好印象吧。除了冷漠，话不多也不笑，整个很不友善的态度。
慢慢熟以后，我话很多，很搞笑甚至有疯癫的形容。落差很大吧，可能有些人觉得我是个难相处的人，因为我常常对她/他们忽冷忽热。其实我想对她/他们说对不起，真的不是故意的。我的情绪便很快，比云霄飞车还快，我很难控制不过我已经尽量改善了。

放心吧，我不会让自己沉静在不快乐的氛围

我累了，心真的很累。
我很坏，很古怪，很矛盾。
看起来很无所谓，其实真的会介意。
对朋友，我一直追求那种心灵默契，不用加以叙述他们就会明白了解，低落时希望她们会在我身边。
可是他们又不是心理学家不说谁懂啊？！
我讨厌这样的自己。
有些事情我不喜欢重复，一遍两遍就够了，一直重复只会让我变烦躁伤心，因为我说的话到底有没有人在听？

wooo~~~ finally got my vaio back. no data loss, yea, its the cooling fan spoil. heng ah!!

2days of ban luck-ing. won some little $$ hee=) realise i can only bet max. 50 cents, haha! anything more than that is not lucky to me. ytsd that stupid xiao qiang restricted me from going to the toilet. damn you! i only went aft i made sure it has gone away.

aft cny day 1&2, i'm super tired. and aft today jiu no more cny mood liao cos need to study for nxt week exams and my stupid ftt-.- i'm a werid person, cos i loves/can't help but sleep on buses and mrt when travelling, but when i hit my bed at 11pm, i cant sleepp.i wld take my ipod and start watching videos, can watch until 5/6am.

reunion dinner is gonna start soon. but i haven done packing up, shit! i still need to change my bedsheets, pack my cabinet, keep my stuffs and rmb to charge my batteries and make sure my memory card is in my d500 for tml. hoohohoho!!! wish eveyone a happy chinese new year!! and also happy valentine's day<3

haizz...more than one week without my vaio. starting to get use alrdy. but its still troublesome because of my ipod touch, i cant update new songs, videos and photos:( this is very shitty. anyway, today went to TP becos of mj, yea, welcome to geek paradise!! went with aver ac sherlene joyce and ck. waited damn damn damn long for seats of 6! low efficiency, tsk tsk tsk.. then we went to design sch and its quite cool, also went to their lounge and it has a funky smell! haha!! lastly, the phrase of the day, created by aver and ac, hey yo! let's go!! :)

vaio-less day 6
ya..some idiotic guy call for my password to vaio. dumb, why dont ask when i sent it?

yea~~! byebye PJM, we shall NOT meet again!! haha, i rmb nothing for this module except " i'm dying~~~ lalalala" on my tutorial 8:) shall post a picture of it

i saw Lian Jie todday!! hee=) had a nice chat with her, haah..missed the time we worked together. nvm, ask her out for dinner someday.

my jacket...will it have sale aft CNY?? if not $65 flying away soon~~

day 5

i'm bored @home. tml there's pjm test, most shitty one.

day 2

yea...this is the second day w/o my vaio. its a training on my patience man, thats all i can say. then next week no sch but got tests, so laptop spoil so no reason to not study hard. sianzz and i have to get by my days by reading my james patterson novels. i hope its just the cooling fan spoil and not the damn bloddy harddisk

hmm..photography class end liao. kind of miss it cos the whole module was actually fun although sometime we abit catch no ball. at least i make some friends, learnt smth and get more trojon horse in my thumbdrive :P

feb will be my last mth working @ PSR. well, it time to get back my free time.

down with love attracts me more than the other 2 shows. counting down to new albums and concert~~<3

today family bonding time, went to play bball and badminton, and my skin tear cos of the racket. anyway, its fun. came home saw a snail mail from np. i tot got wad good thing, turns out to be my letter for attachment, its gonna be at redhill. okay distance from my hse anyway, i used to grow up there so not too bad. but i cant seem to find any info on the company,Zzz. mon i shall ask advisor and i need to work in few more hours. GF go to slp!!!

this morning slept @ 330am, wake up @6am. slp 2 hr, wake up + journey to sch 2hr, time spent @ura 2 hr lastly presentation for whole class is also 2 hr. not enough slp seems to be the trend in poly or maybe just for my class ba. we all love to seat on the project until it burns our arse, which indicates that the dateline is due tml or 2 days later. lack of slp nvm, wearing heels is fine but wearing it and walk ard the whole of np is crazy.

how do pigs die? they die of stupidity, like me. bring dslr to sch thinking i can take some more photos for photography class. seated down @ cheers, i saw a mynah flew into the bin to search for food, i tot,"woah! faster take one now, later esh can add in ppt, cool!" took out my camera, on it and the screen reads:" no SD card" wth!! so i have to carry a useless camera ard. then lunch time go ps cos i want to buy SHE concert tickets, guess wad, the system spoil! so its like a waste of time and money to pay erp. aft sch, i went back again just to buy tickets

happy birthday MJ!

19, so we must do smth different, smth healthier, smth retro, smth that is cheap and fun! so we had a pinic @ PSR park. whoo~! thsnk god for the good weather today! PSR is full of windy cos you can see our photos the hair is all messy. and the best is we got her a fishcake as birthday cake. complete with candle and tag. haha, aft the went arcade and we got chase out cos we were wearing sch shirt(GMS). LOL i feel like telling him, i'm alrdy 18. but we still went to change clothes and last part is surprise ult. brownie addictn from ecake. hahaaha!! we talk alot of our sec sch days, and i'm really proud to have met you guys. lets go back on CNY eh?

hohoho..finally survived to weekend although its still rushing report and presentation. rush until i almost forget to do a very impt thing. lucky i can still make it in time, if not i'll be dead.

met up with pri sch friends today. woah! quite a few very long nvr meet up le, i tot there will be more girls but ended up more guys turn up. and we eat for 3 hrs at iluma, heels and laptop makes good workout.

yea, change a new blogskin. previous one dk why all my pics are missing,look so ugly w/o pics. now got iphone eh! haha!

things are getting so tense, so many projects to rush and its frustrating. the level of frustration in me is high, so high that i think i'll explode. its not a problem with groups but i really don like to do so many things together at the same time. last time used to have 8 hrs of slp but now its like year end sale, slash 50%.

all i want to do is stoning

wtf is wrong with blogger and fb?? can even go in!! yea, this is like a bi-monthly post. got back ct results, all pass except PJM, thank ah llj. and i got back my tu3, the one that cause my 12 marks. going to be suffocated under the many projects again. then ystd backside itchy go read some e-novel that has so many chapters so slept @ 4 am, then 7 am wake up go work. wads worse, nght shift only got 2 ppl cos 1 go holiday. i damn busy lor, need to vacum and mop the floor, wrap cake take order collect cash, do visa payment. feel so like superwoman

5days, 46 hrs thats is how i spent my christmas holidays.

by right it should be only 4 days, but ystd C sick. call me @ 830 AM to take over her. wth! then i supposed to leave @ 6pm then the other girl say she also sick ask me to help. So my job ystd is to be SUPER SUB.

On Sat, i only work 6-10 but not there to sell cakes. go there be DHL delivery, customer ordered 21st birthday cake, paid extra money and written b/w in bold for a key. bloody hell, this cake come and there is NO damn key. i took only $10 and my phone cab down to T1 and cab back. cab fare is more than $10 call ppl to come help me pay.

thank god next month onwards i only need to work on Sunday.

work work work, this is no holiday for me:( but no choice, have to work cos like that then got money$$$$ every first half of the year i'll be broke REASON: presents presents and more presents.

for 2010 all the way from jan to july, aug is one month break then sept cont to christmas.
additional to stuffs like CDs(basic 2- SHE & JAY ), books and CONCERT tickets. good seat with good view comes with GREAT prices!

DIY dry box

yea~~!! finally my cameraSSS got a safe place to stay. i just realise i have 3 generations of camera, the film one, digital and dslr. so all stay in the same 'hse'. now i don have to worry about moulds growing on them

i'm alrdy in holiday mood!! despite having 1 more paper on fri. today dad took leave so mummy daddy and me go out to eat! we go chinatown eat bak gu teh, oyishi!! then we shop shop. first stop, optics shop cos we are looking at the ray ban and rodenstock shades and glasses. then got salesgirl come, i thought dad will walk off as usual but he actually ask me to try the ray ban shades that i say i like. 吓死我！cos later got 2 type of ending, he pay or i pay. pay for that and i'm broke for the 3rd month-.- cos 1st mth pay ipod, 2nd mth pay dslr's warranty. wah, the salesgirl take alot for me to try, got espirit, armani, marc jacobs, blah blah blah. hee hee, in the end still prefer ray ban. then dad buy shoes and belt[again! 情有独钟啊~~] force mummy choose GUESS bag.

CTs paper left 3 aft tml pjm. aft that will be my hols but got work. haizz soon attachment will come. so sad, i cant join the bagpacking tour. thats one of the things i want to try and i want to do it when i'm young. zzzzzz

1/12/09

PASS MY BTT. wahhhh!!! haha, i finish within 10 mins but i don dare to click the end test button. so re-check again and again. until i sit down there and imagine later the screen will appear "FAIL" haha!! shall book FTT then can go PDL shiok ah!!!

27/11/09

thats a very nice day. meet up @ cine and i forget whenther i'm suppose to alight @ somerset or orchard. but anyway i still manage to alight correctly @ somerset. mummy walk behind me not knowing that it was me and and i was about reply her msg at the same time. ahhaha! had dinner @ bbq chicken. then went to lido to watch CASE 39. finish watching its already 11. hole up at orchard mrt station to write down our x-mas wish and fearing that we would miss the last train.

yea~~~!!! i'm free from the stressful french class from now on,wooooHHHH. today had final written test which i think the last part sucks lar. wad the hell, write a dialogue. anyway presentation is worse cos the bloody speaker doesnt work and alot of grps had "silent" video shown. but my vaio is so cool okay, good sound system cos i blasted the volume to max and it is better than the damn speaker in sch. hahahah!!! so i my video is the only one that had sound=)

shag week, esp ysdt night or rather this early morning. work till 230 am just to finish tutorial, project and e learning assignment. then sleep for only 4 hrs, whats worse is i caught a cold not feeling well physically. but all this will get well.

some things just wont get better and it cant be replace

06/11/09

Singapore Hits awards. didnt expect the seats we bought is so front. haha, that means we are lucky!! this time the row in front of mine is SHE fans, with big balloons . at first i tot cool man, can sit with ppl of same likings but the balloons are quite view-blocking although its eye catchy. anyway, SHE are high today, they copied aunty lucy's famous action, junping around, giving big bear hugs and humourous thanks speech. of cos still have the singing part, they sang four songs but i can only record the 1st one as the security came-.- the whole event ended at 12 am and i had to cab home

07/11/09
reaach home its alrdy 1am, slept at 2plus cos my ipod music library has erased and 0 songs left, so had to recover back. wake up at 6, 4 hours of slp. took 985, thinking that it will reach NP fast. who knows that bus is driving at a super slow speed. reach causeway point at 8 plus and they are alrdy many ppl. in the end, there is no limit cos aft i gotten the signature, ah li went to q again to get the poster signed. yea!!!

AAHHHH!!! my blog is so dead. this is a anticipating week, first thing, braces are going to vanish, SHA coming, SHE at Causeway point, no work on sat and maybe boomz to buy? haha! ystd man u won,yes! i didnt watch cos today work 9-9, damn shag. my legs are numb hands too tired. tml still got class, sian.