close to 1 year 6mths of 0 post in here

well well, where should i start? 2017 was probably the year of focusing on work, met with challenges then overcome it, being down and picking myself up again. It's sort of like this i guess, oh and made some good friends at work. And regarding the previous post, it kind of sad because that's when i was planning to go Korea in May2017, and RM news dampened the mood a little. However, I'm still grateful to RM for picking me up at my lowest point, I tried to stay with the show at their lowest point too, but the idea of +2 wasn't really going well with me. so i kind of stop. 最美的 回忆里待续

So, after RM, my next source of entertainment happens to be another girl group (can't seem to escape my fate huh..) Girls' Generation. My brother asked me, why did i like to watch aged shows and follow aged groups.. well i guess I'm one stubborn person after all. i didn't like them when they debut (cause i thought that would be 'unfaithful' to SHE.. funny kid's mind eh) and i used to hate kpop because they kind of overshadow all the taiwanese artistes that i like plus language barriers. i think I'm kind of like a closed communication person, hate to be fed and follow what is in trend. I think its better this way, cos when i found them i found another joy. I watch them participate the RM in their summer comeback with 7 members, laugh die me. that how i went on to find more variety shows and i think they are all variety queens. regardless whether they are 9 or 8+1, it's always nice to see ppl working hard to achieve their dreams and they did it, like SHE. regardless if they are 9 or 8 on stage, those years spent together are not in vain, i think bonds are create and won't be destroyed if they are willing to mend it. 

Anyway, come 2018 i did a few life changing decision. First, i enrolled into swimming classes! Woohoo~~ claps to myself. i finally overcome fear of water and learn how to swim and i total love it!
still learning swimming now, completed breaststroke, backfloat, treading and now on freestyle. well done gf :) and i am blessed to be surrounded by family, friends and a special one :) 280418

in a few days time, it's going to be my birthday, i wish for good health and safety for all the ppl i love.

3 Apr 17 (whole week)

I think this is the worst week of 2017. The emotional rollercoaster ride was hell right suffocating.

First thing on Monday morning, RM 6+2 news. I mean its kind of expected (spot on!!) but still can’t help feeling sad because it’s never gonna be the same anymore. The moment KG left, it’s all not the same. What’s more there is additional female member. It just kind of feel weird. Lesser screen time for everyone, how the chemistry of the 6 going to match with the 2? I still think what the show really needs is a good change of game format. Adding new ppl isn't the long term solution.

A show that picks me up when i was really down, i really had wished for it to have a beautiful ending. It deserved that and everyone can keep beautiful memories of it. 

Then comes Wednesday afternoon. KG got married to a mysterious girl, who he claimed is non-celeb. I have no idea why he choose to announce at such timing. Not like he was photographed by dispatch or smth. He’s so active on SNS, he should know better how a huge group of ppl out there still believes in MC. If it was all for show, i think they should have done better control of it. The show created the LL, the LL thrives because of both of you and every single RM member had said smth to fueled the hype of MC. Leading on a huge group of supporters. only to crash them in this manner. If he had cared for his fans more, i think the news should be done at stages. Give his fans time to accept this. Don’t think it is too much to ask for, it the small price of being famous, you just have to think a little more for all these ppl whom you don’t know but they gave you the fame that you have wanted.

And I don’t understand if she is a non-celeb, you are putting her under this huge pressure? Irrational fans will blamed her for breaking their dreams, media are dying to know who she is, dig up every single info about her. You announce your marriage asking for blessing, make known to the whole world that she’s the person you want to spend your life with. But at this moment she can’t stand next to you or be seen with you in public? Are you going to keep her locked up at home or smth? Isn’t it unfair to her? She will have to hold on until this whole fanfare settles down. When her identity is knows, it will be another round of buzz again. In that case, why not just reveal now, endure the whole ordeal once and for all.

And what about SJH? she’s going to be bombard with all these questions on her next public event or whenever the media had chance to get to her. No matter what she said, i foresee ppl would put the blame on her as well, as long as she is active on the small screen. For 7 years, you called each other family but this is the way you treat your family? None of your friends knew about this, leading to speculation of Leessang breaking up as well. 

Saturday midnight, KG delete the marriage post and upload a new picture to thank everyone for their well wishes. Friday night JSK post on insta, but no mention of the news. Sat afternoon, HA post as well, no mention of the news. Plus the deletion, it’s just a very very weird atmosphere. All these, I’m not sure if there will be answers to it. Just like now, I'm not sure how to feel towards RM episodes, old and new ones.

26 Feb 17

Today was supposed to be the last episode of my favourite Running Man. At least that was what i have prepared myself for since the scandal broke out in Dec 16. But things really changes fast, somewhere in end Jan, SBS announced that it will continue Running Man. At first, i was more worried than happy. worried that they would be subject to further unfair treatment of the station and what if the production decides to add a new member. It's really mixed feelings but i know as long as they are still running, i will continue to support them. I hope they do come to SG for the fan meet. Although it won't be 7012, but it's still nice to be able to see them. 7012 will always be JSJ,YJS,KJK,KG,HA,SJH,LKS

14 Dec


It's barely 2months since Gary left and there is bad news for my favourite Running Man again. 14 Dec 16, right after I came back from holiday going to work, news splash everywhere. Jihyo and Jong Kook are leaving RM. Gary's departure cause a void in my heart, this news, a part of me inside died. It's already so hard to deal with just 1 person leaving and now 2 together. How to cope? I was about to give my blessing because i know they still have other dreams to pursue but things had an unexpected turn. They didn't want to go, they were booted out by the production team. I think its unfair to say production team because from the way i look, the new PDs, the writers, VJs and crews dosen't seem to be that heartless. I am angry that they only inform JK 2 days before the news came out and WORST, Jihyo only found out from the news. Where is the basic manners? Shouldn't these be discussed and informed way in advance.I can't bear to imagine what she felt that morning. She said before that she will accompany the show till the end, i don't doubt her on this. Her loyalty, her kindness, even when betrayed by the CP. She is still trying to defend them and not mentioned about the unfairness that was done to her. I didnt dare to imagine how the rest of them felt when they saw the news. Suk Jin & Jae Suk treats them like their dongsengs, they always dote on her and one morning, you see your family members' got kick out without informing. Who wont be afraid that they might be the next one. Apology came but what's the point, the damage has been done. After final discusion, it was decided that the show will end in Feb 2017, with the existing casts. This is definitely not how i envision Runny Man to end.

25 oct 16
My journey with Running Man.

It's isn't long, I didn't start out with them and joined only recently end 2015. It was the darkest time of my life. My job is causing me so much stress and unhappiness. I'm stuck in a situation and there's nothing much I can do, feeling so helpless. Then I chance upon a fan made video of Jihyo, her beautiful smile led me to watch Running man. My first episode was 147. I couldn't stop laughing midnight alone in my room. I got so addicted that I went to start from the beginning. And now regularly looking forward to Monday, to catch the latest episode. I know I started late so I was preparing myself for the longest time that I don't have much time to watch running man because the members are not young anymore. The show rating has not been performing, the limitations are all there. It's hard for the second break through. I even thought if I can decide, how would the last episode be like. I hope it's a guest-less one, just running man themselves. Or perhaps it's the announcement that the famous Monday couple is now Everyday couple. That would be nice to see. But I Guess there are always surprises in life. I'm shocked, like something heavy weighing down on my chest, a void of emptiness in my heart knowing that I wouldn't be able to see cheesy Monday Boyfriend, Mr random capable, peaceful Gary, sexy dance Gary, the innocent Gary who always get fooled, the Gary that keeps calling Mongji/ Jihyo-ah, the one who always protects and lookout for  his Monday Girlfriend, the one who chose her as his partner, the interactions of Monday couple that brings us the "aww" moments, cannot longer hear her calling "Kang Gary~" that sounds like sweetest thing on earth and many more other interactions with everyone. 31 oct 2010 is the start of Monday couple. 31 oct 2016 Gary is filming for his last time. I dunno how that episode will be like but I hope it will be one that creates the best of all memories for everyone. Thank you for bringing laughter to me when I was down, bringing me into Korean hip hop music. I wish you all the best in your music career, hope to see you in person 1 day. And hopefully to hear good news from you soon, Kagushipta Kang Gary.

My latest addiction: Korean reality variety - Running Man
It's funny how i lived in Singapore but the girl group i like is from Taiwan, actresses from Hong Kong and now variety show from Korea. Multi-national ttm! Anyway, back to Running Man.

I still remembered how much the people around me recommend Running Man when it was at its peak for years. And how much i refused it, for some reasons, i used to be quite anti-korean. But well, fate always works it way around. How long did it take for me to get addicted? Answer:  3:14min all it takes was a wrong click on weibo, Song Ji Hyo and BAM! addiction. And what was the video about? A compilation of Song Ji Hyo most beautiful moments in RM.

So my journey with Running Man started with Ji Hyo and through her, i get to know the 6 other members.

Yoo Jae Suk: BAH-TU-GHEE (Grasshopper) He is one living example of how successful one can get if you have your goal in mind and put in extra extra effort to achieve. No doubt to be the Nation's MC!

Ji Suk Jin: IMPALA~ He may be the "Race Starter" but i see him more as a caring brother to all especially Ji Hyo (more like caring father perhaps?)

Kim Jong Kook: Tiger~ SPARTAKOOKS! Kookie~ Commander! He's so strong, so fit and so cute! Because of his physique, he is always the target but that doesn't stop him from being cute.

Kang Gary: Mr Random Capable, peaceful Gary, Monday Boyfriend. He may have the most common look on screen but he is charming! Super love him on variety and when he raps! Random capable because his power at times shocks everyone, most often ignite by Ji Hyo, his Monday Girlfriend.

HAHA: Haroro, bad kid who loves to act. i like how in the initial stage he looks like Pororo. And he can always turn a boring scene funny and funny scene even funnier!

Song Ji Hyo: Ace, Monday Girlfriend, Mong Ji. She's blank (mong), she sleeps anywhere anytime any height, she doesn't wear makeup, she's not afraid to get down and get dirty for the game. Thumbs up!

Lee Kwang Soo: Girin~Betrayer,Framer Kwang Soo, Unlucky Kwang Soo. He is really made for variety. Earlier stages of framing was hilarious, then betraying members like nothing. His fighting back with Kookie was also funny. And all his unlucky moments sometimes can leave me feeling speechless.

Pi-Cok-Cross, Animal Kingdom(Impala,Girin,Tiger),Candy siblings, KJK and 2 kids,Spartace,Monday Couple,HaHyo,KwangMong,family(father-in-law & Monday couple) and of cos RM team, love all these combination. Hopefully they would still have RM fan meet and i'll go see them in person!

It's been months since i last update. Well, congrats myself on leaving and starting a new adventure at somewhere else. Things have been going quite okay for me, just that now it's bit hectic because of the stock take. Like Daniel asked, how many stock take have i gone through within 1 year. Countless times but at least this time round, it will be fruitful. 57% done, left with 1more week and 3 more stores. Mind over body, I can do it!

Perhaps there's a moment where we were so close but it was missed.

人生要你學會堅強時 總會放些不如意的人事讓你去經歷 

My November ended in a horrible way. Blew me off and totally crumbled my optimism. For 3 days, I lived in a red zone, irritable, angsty and snapping self. The efforts I've put in for the past year seems to be futile and I'm like a fool. The feeling of helplessness sucks to the max. I felt indignant to be take advantage just like that, I want to retailiate. I want to get out of this mess, I want to get what I deserve and I want to find myself back. 

I didn't told much ppl about what happened, but I'm really thankful to my parents for putting up with me for that 3 days. 感謝你帶我去兜風，雖然旅程不長不順但至少讓我透透氣。(and 第一次坐jaguar)